I’m getting there!
More good news: Insight Timer is plain wonderful, getting good mojo from it. May be camping weather this weekend too.
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Where are you at? So pretty!
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Hello, thank you…I am in Elliot Lake Ontario Canada
JBug
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Oh my goodness, that sounds so much fun!!! Wishing you were there to throw me a slumber party too 
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@Dee134 congrats on 7 months 
and for 18 days free from another addiction
@icebear happy birthday 
and congrats on 5 months
@Mosimu5 good luck for the interview 
@Taiga welcome 
congrats on 2 days
@Nowenbrace welcome congrats on your almost 4 months
@Ravikamor this was so nice to read 
@Wishfullthinkrr congrats on 2 weeks
@Misokatsu sorry about the scary evening, I hope you got home safe and that today has been better 
@Quinny251 congrats on 40 days
@Bomdhil congrats on your week
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@ xxx welcome congrats on day 1 Food is the current issue I am working on too, I wish you well on your journey
@kat261 congrats on triple digits 
@DryIn785 congrats on 4 months
459 days no alcohol.
427 days no cocaine.
20 days no nicotine.
Still no news about the job 
I’m just hoping things are unusually slow due to Covid etc, I just wish I had an off switch for my anxiety, I can’t seem to think of or focus on anything else.
In a lot of pain the last few days, I think it’s due to my weight gain. Still hoping and trying every day to stop ordering takeaways. Need to break the connection I have to eating whilst watch TV again.
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It does make me smile! What a lovely animal! 
Thank you for sharing 
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Checking in, still sober!
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You CAN
You WILL
Break the Cycle…
469 days
Don’t look back, you can’t change the past but you Can make your own future be blissful a future where you don’t need a drug to get through your day…
Be kind to yourself xx
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Thank you it is really hard though to distance myself from the insecurity. This whole day I have spent disliking myself. Doubting myself. Distrusting othes because if I don’t like myself then can’t for the life of my figure out why they would 🤷🤷
Meeting with my date tomorrow but kinda just wanna cancel because I just don’t see why they would want to hang out with me or like me 🤷 I’ll sleep on it and then see if I should cancel.
But. 504 days sober. Meeting with my nurse next week. Also flying to the US next week despite all this internal bs life is quite good.
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Checking in @ one year, eight months and twenty-one days. I am starting to recognize the cunning, baffling, and powerful aspects of my addiction. My overeating and using food to cope with boredom, anxiety and loneliness and coping without drugs is my disease. Now that I recognize that I can start saying “No” to it (literally) and start calling it out on its bullshit. I have been having very graphic using dreams frequently for like months… I am so used to it but they are constant. I don’t think about getting high or have cravings during the day but they are definitely intertwined with my food intake and this weight gain I have accumulated which is a trigger to want to use and has been a motivating factor to continue drug use in the past so that could be something? Well, I listened to two cds of NA speakers from some conventions and they were ON POINT. They inspired me to get into my NA literature which I am going to do as soon as I am done typing this. I want to put the work into my program and live the spiritual principals and really have that show. Have a good night
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Yah!!!
Love Insight Timer.
Congrats on your 4 months!!!
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Congrats on your recovery Flannery and your self awareness. Do you have the “Living Clean” book? ( NA literature) Chapter 4 is all about "Our physical selves " I just find this whole book on point.
I read you are also doing DBT. One of my goals this go around with DBT is to address the emotional response I have attatched to restricting and binging. Which will include a lot of non judgementalness and radical acceptance. I know that DBT is not the typical therapy type for ED but I think k through chain analysis it could work. I have faith.
Congrats again.
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Thank you Stella 
yeah I have the Living Clean book. I will have to read that chapter and get some insight. I love the LC book and yeah I am in DBT. That is actually an awesome idea you have about using nonjudgemental and radical acceptance. Very smart. I might have to steal that if you don’t mind.
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Thank you and right back at you. My husband has a challenging relationship with alcohol and sometimes takes a break. I think he is working his way up to one. That will be nice.
He was sober for 5 years at one point and I continued with the wine. I think we pretty clearly know that we have to be on our own journey. He is very supportive of this first try I’m making. He’s just not ready yet.
I’m glad to hear that your hubby is reducing.
What are your fav things about being away from the drinks for now?
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Omgosh I haven’t been looking for any haha…I have been enjoying the sleeping at night I’d say 
How’s your evening going?
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I seriously hate My mind, girl wants a tattoo tomorrow stupid simple design just fricken black bats flying nothing hard at all. Yet now that she said ok to come, I’m already freaking out and self doubting myself. When will I get my confidence 
seriously makes me want to fucking cry.
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Very nice. I’ve been reading and cooked a decent meal and then the hubby and I have watched a bit of tv
I’m looking forward to going to bed soon. I was up very early this morning. I’m looking forward to mornings a lot more these days after good sleep too.
Good night and thanks for the chat!
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That means you care about doing a good job. That is a good thing. Use it as motivation to practise. Preparation is the enemy of nerves.
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