Day 49, I’m excited to start my new job, but I’m stuck in my two week notice at my soon to be old job. It’s REALLY hard to care, I’m not trying to be toxic or lazy at work, but I’m not going to be taken advantage of just because I’m on my way out. A big part of my old job was very dangerous, and my new job has removed that danger entirely, so I don’t care to do the dangerous parts of my old job. I don’t know, I’m bored at work and very stuck in my head, but I’m still sober and have no intentions of changing that. Just needed to vent I suppose. Ugh I can’t wait to get this new chapter started and increase the quality of life for my family and myself.
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Boom!
I love you.
Have a good day Mike.
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Your day sounds perfect, we are here for you every step of the way. Can’t wait to see the cake.
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I beg to differ.
Making the decision to try 24 hours was fucking hard. It took me years to even be willing to suffer the pain of getting through 48 hrs.The first 10 days has always been the worst for me. Getting dbl digits is a HUGE accomplishment for many people.
We see the hard work in it so we applaud you.
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7 weeks sober and a new, better job. Congrats!
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Good morning and Happy Friday! Moving in on Day 7.
Have a lovely day everyone 
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Day 6 - Friday night sat on my sofa. Been for a run which was good, feel like I’ve got a lot of nervous energy or something recently! Probably feelings that I would normally numb with alcohol at this point. Just feel like this urge to do something destructive of impulsive. But, if I don’t drink hopefully I won’t be doing that. Going to go to my first meeting this time around tomorrow morning. Used to really enjoy the meetings I went to a few years ago but I lived in a different area then. Hoping I can find a good one here
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That’s not true. Any digit is impressive and, for some, very difficult to achieve. Every day sober is a celebration. I see Stella has already addressed this.
Speaking of which:
Day 4. I woke up really hating that number. I feel like it’s just hanging there. Yesterday was long and full of meetings, so I typed “3” numerous times. You know what hating the number means? Regret. You know what I am giving up on? Regret. So, I will love that fucking number and I will be mindful of THIS moment on THIS day that I am here.
I had to jump off my TLC meeting with my favorite host, which I have been looking forward to, due to an “emergency” with my oldest. She made a decision I wouldn’t have made. Her poor decision became my emergency and POOF, there I go putting my kids before my sobriety. I gave her more than a little shit about only calling me when there’s a problem. Then we had a nice chat.
I am shaky and wobbly, not the “going to drink” kind of wobbly, just unsettled. I am watching my funds dwindle as I do not market my business, which will not market itself. I start to feel paralyzed and just want a job. Then the idea of working for someone else makes me feel sick to my stomach and gives me a headache.
Round and around she goes.
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@DryIn785 nice about the gym membership, these anniversaries are hard 
hope your heart is okay 
@Lisa07 congrats on getting through a work meal sober 
@Jennajen sorry about the anxiety and depression, but I’m so glad your date is supportive
@TripnMN congrats on the house manager job, I think that speaks volumes for your recovery
@MsMotorista congrats on 60 days
@Betteroffbaby congrats on 5+ months
@Mno I hope you can find the connection you’ve recognised you’re in need of
@IamThechange welcome back 
@RosaCanDo congrats on getting through the time without your partner, and seeing the Luna eclipse! How wonderful 
466 days no alcohol.
434 days no cocaine.
27 days no nicotine.
Still extremely tired and having the spasms and jerks all over my body all day, and pains in my head, I really don’t know what’s causing it, I’m fairly sure I haven’t forgotten to take any of my meds and I’ve been sleeping way more than usual since these symptoms started too. The only other thing that’s changed is my eating, I’ve been back on the therapy meal plan for 5 days now, with no binge-eating, but surely it wouldn’t be that 
I didn’t feel 100% safe while I was driving to my appt and back, but nothing bad happened thankfully, had my blood tests and got my T shot. Not looking forward to the booster on Monday, have read that the side effects are worse than jabs 1&2, but we shall see.
Looks like they are leaving me hanging for another weekend re the interview outcome. My anxiety over it is minimal now but it’s just in the background, draining me a little.
Wishing you all wonderful weekends
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Thanks
It’s strange I have been sleeping more too and feeling very lethargic I also have strange spasm in my arms and legs. I’m trying to blame the weather
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… 1337
Sobriety brought me here. I was stationed in Florida, the names on that sign were heroes. I have met John Glen and have had lunch with him.
Never once did I make it to the Kennedy Space center when I lived in Florida. I was working, or drinking. Nothing else mattered.
It took getting sober.
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Quick check in 93 days no alcohol. today I’m out and about. I’m working at the football game Sunday so that will be some nice extra money. It’s a big rivalry game so hopefully lots of tips. Need to cash my check them Walmart and a meeting.
Sending love and positive vibes
Have a great sober weekend
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Day 1478 here. Those first 10 days were by far the hardest. My days now are much easier compared to when I was first stating.
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Checking in Day 107 feeling great, slept til 1pm but maybe my body is still healing? Went out and shopped for my 15 year old son, drove across town to get him the candies he likes because I love him and my life is free from the selfishness of drugs.
I sometimes feel guilt/shame because I only see my kids on weekends but they have a good dad and this gives then some stability. I have to remember I am still a sick person with this disease and need time to focus on myself in order to be the mom my kids deserve.
I feel guilt and shame about the twins I had to give up for adoption too but they have two loving parents and a great life.
Goodbye guilt and shame, hello self-compassion and self-love.
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Checking out from day 1111. Have a good and sober day wherever you are.
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Midday checkin
Well I have $2 to my name lol. I went out and completed all my errands. Ran into some anxiety and then a shit load of stress. Got so sick of being around people on the train and on the street. Was hungry, tired, and angry so 3 out of 4 of HALT. Taking care of all that now since I am home. Eating n relaxing n distressing. I was so overwhelmed 
I’m feeling better now. Cravings and negative emotion are temporary. They come like waves. I’m feeling alot better. And even more thrilled that I got thru this day so far without using 
now to relax while I bake and decorate a cake 
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Day. 7 of being sober, it’s been a nice day, haven’t done much tho, besides cleaning the house I’ve been relaxing cuz the week has been so long. Hope the day was as eventful and nice for everyone as well, Bye now.
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Congratulations Grace.
That’s a really big deal. So happy for ya.
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SWEET!! 7 days into you’re new, better life that you deserve! 
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511 - in about 6 hours I am heading to the airport! California, here I come! 
This would have not been possible without my sobriety and this forum. So thank you all 
Today I have not had as much anxiety. I spent most of the day with my date. Freaking cheesy but before he left, he asked me “Do you know how much I will miss you while you’re gone?” and spread his hands to his sides. I didn’t say it back directly but said something else, he went a bit quiet and then went “… Will you miss me? Maybe a little?”
What have I done to have deserved this person in my life?
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