Welcome back Chris. Good to see you back up and trying again.
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Glad to see you back, Chris. I have been wondering how you are doing. You know how good this place is for you. Stick with it.
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Checking in.
690 days No Booze
102 days no added sugar.
I been changing up my routines just a little bit lately. Like walking in the afternoon evening and different playlists. And just trying to be more flexible with my schedule. Iām looking forward to my second November/December Christmas Holidays etcā¦. Sober. And another trip to Santa Monica sober.
Yāall keep up the good fight. Lots of people will be around the forum for the Holidays. If youāre struggling. Check in. Ask for help. Start a topic. Find a meeting. You do not have to do this alone. I sure as hell couldnāt.
God Bless.
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Day 10 complete, today has been quite productive and I achieved everything, I had planned to do today, that being said Gooddnight.
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Congrats on your 10 Days Grace.
Good for you 
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Checking in
Trying so hard to not take on peopleās stuff right now. My old friend back home blatantly lied to me asking me for money. She said she needed $$ for her babies milk and diapers. Tried guilt tripping me into feeling bad for her and her child. Im all for helping but I do my research and this isnāt my 1st trip around the block and me being an addict also, Iāve unfortunately done what she has done by asking to borrow $$ for drugs for things I didnāt really need. My emotions are ALL over the place. Worried for her and her baby. And then I feel so shitry about me manipulating people for money (which I did pay back tho but still), bcuz Iām not liking how this is feelingsnd having someone try to pull a fast one on me. I feel so shitty about my old behavior as an addict. And she posted on fb 22 hours ago all her baby stuff and multiple cans of formula for sale. So im thinking why are u asking me for money for baby stuff when u had that and ur selling it? Omg Iām literally vibrating. My nerves feel shot. I donāt understand why Iām feeling this. I donāt feel like using tho. And Iām grateful for that. I donāt miss fiending for drugs. Ugh grateful to be clean thatās for sure
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@Thirdmonkey thatās so cool! 
Safe travels home
@MwinecwaftOwO sending strength 
@Callie99 sending strength and a virtual hug 
@anon9289869 sending prayers for your father I hope you can find some time to do something for yourself also
@Mno ha! letās hope so 
@Hopeful777 thank you 
sorry youāve been unwell, glad youāre feeling better now
@KevinesKay so pleased to read this, congrats 
@Gracie1 congrats on double digits
@shinysoul congrats on double digits
@liv_m congrats on your success
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@Chosen2001 welcome back 
congrats on day 1
@Dazercat congrats on triple digits for the no added sugar 
469 days no alcohol.
437 days no cocaine.
30 days no nicotine.
8 days no binge-eating.
I am continuing to watch the program I mentioned yesterday, content has included the characterās relapse at the end of season 1, the introduction of historical abuse and current PTSD, and also gender identity issues, the show could literally have been written about me, and wow I guess it is triggeringā¦Today I even reached out to an old friend, the one who contacting last time lead to my relapse. I have thought about him often and I just know how much he struggles and I found some of his FB live videos and they tugged on my heart strings, so I reached out, he seemed genuinely happy for my sobriety, and he said heād not taken cocaine since he went to prison in April, and heās been out 3 months, heās still drinking though but said he wouldnāt around me. We agreed to meet for coffee, I got there, long story short, he made it clear he wanted beer and not coffee, so we went to a pub, I had 2 alcohol-free drinks, he had 2 beers. I wasnāt tempted at all by being in the pub or by watching him drink in front of me. But the conversation naturally bought up some memories, stories, etc, and my cocaine demon got a bit too excited at times, so I quickly turned each romanticising moment into whatever the opposite of that is, by telling how bad it got for me, as he wasnāt around for my lowest and darkest days. We are going to meet for food on Thursday, if he doesnāt get sent back to prison after his police interview on Wednesday. He breached his restraining order purposely to get sent back inside, because there are squatters in his flat so he is homeless and doesnāt have anywhere to feel safe, heās staying with his Nan at the moment, I have to watch my own co-dependency issues and not invite him to stay with me, even though he brings out my parental/nurturing side and I want to look after him. Iām going to be very careful because I really hope Iām not playing with fire, but it did feel good to see my oldest friend.
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Something not going as planned always sucks. Sounds like there were many issues, fidgety mum, new app, etc. But it is done and you will have to sit with the feelings. Now u can only see the weaker parts, maybe with time u can find things to like about it.
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I think perhaps you are like most artists I know, a very harsh critic for your own work. Artist are kind souls to everyone but themselves.
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So glad for you. Actually not wanting our DOC, whatever that might be, is just huge. A true gift. Enjoy Thanksgiving!
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Hey Chris, glad to see you are trying again. Hope you get a good rest tonight and youāre feeling better in the morning. Sending love and strength.
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Mine, too! That looks delicious. The cake you did the other day was super cute, too! Youāre so talented! š§š»āš³š
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Awe thank you! What do you like to bake?
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Welcome back. You can do this.
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Checking in day 57.5.
I love it to wake up hangover free
My mind is clear and clean of guilt and self hate.
I really enjoy my life right now. I solved so many issues and problems since I am sober which alcohol cant fix over a million years.
Have a nice sober day and enjoy every minute of it, you are all worth it.
One day at a time we can do this! 
This owl we spotted last week on a hikking trip
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