Afternoon Check in Still Day 3
Still at work. It’s been a LONG day. My new client is aggressive so staff apparently chill in the office until he needs us. And when he needs us it’s very little contact and never get close. This is very different from what I’m used to. Im very much hands on, helping with life skills, supporting goals, and helping with emotional regulation and giving medication. This is is diff staying in here. Anyway, I’ve literally been on fb and TS all day cuz ya we sit in the office. We don’t ever get too close to my client cuz he’s extremely big and strong and bites and grabs and pushes etc. But it’s been a good day over all. I’m bringing headphones with me tomorrow for work so I can listen in on an online NA meeting. Really excited about this year! Really excited to see what I can do for myself and my family. Life is so unexpected and miraculous! Anything is really possible I feel. I feel like possibilities are endless when I’m clean and sober. This year too, in the summer/fall, my family from back home is moving to my province. I am excited for this and to have family near me is so important 
But I also want them to see me succeeding and doing well. I have big goals ahead of me…
#1 obviously recovery… that comes 1st
#2 work towards getting a house
#3 gain financial stability (pay off a good chunk of debt and gain some savings)
#4 focus on health (exercise and losing weight)
#5 build a closer relationship to God
I need to tweak these abit to make them more specific but those are my ideas anyway
Life is good! Even the crappy days are good. They suck in the moment 
but they are good bcuz I’m not making them worse with drugs.
Ooo what’s that like? I’ve debated a weighted blanket… how does it help?
@anon89892515 congratulations on 1000 days!
@C_8 congratulations on 800 days!
@adeygaga49 congratulations on one year!
@kat261 congratulations on 150 days!
@Pandita congratulations on 30 days!
@Bomdhil congratulations on double digits!
And @everyone,
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers for my friend, Steve.
It’s encouraging to see everyone’s progress and resolve to celebrate 2022 sober. Let do this.
It’s like a big, soft hug. It feels very secure and calming to me. The only problem I foresee is getting out of bed just got more difficult! 
Haha I can see that being a struggle! Sound super soothing tho!
Day 5! First time I made it this far. Feeling like I am ready to keep going a day at a time.
Checking in day 28.
Joined my aa groups 100 day walking challenge today. Its commiting to a 30 min walk every day for 100 days. I thought it was a great idea and only 99 to go😃.
Happy New Year to everyone. 
Congrats on making it past your barrier. One day at a time. I’ve been trying to do the same thing and not look any further ahead than I have to.
This sounds like my first attempt at sobriety. Trying to solve everything at once with a big ole list. Sure, my sobriety came first, but it clearly wasn’t my only focus. And I paid dearly for that. Took me two more trips to rehab to realize I needed a singular goal. Sobriety. That’s it. That was my only goal. Those other things could wait. Hell they were waiting since I couldn’t get sober anyway. If I wasn’t sober I could have all the goals I wanted but it didn’t matter because I’d never achieve them.
Nothing I have in my life would be here without my sobriety. Nothing.
I see you post a lot so I’ve picked up on some trends and the fact is by worrying about all those other things you are not able to focus enough on your sobriety. And at this point you really need to. Those other things will come if you string together some time. But if you don’t get sober they’ll remain hopes and dreams rather than obtainable goals.
I know you didn’t ask, but I took the liberty of rewriting your list.
- Get, and stay, sober.
Haha I always appreciate you Derek 
I really do! I love ur honesty and how blunt and forward u are and honestly I need that. I need the brutal truth. I need the experience and the advice from people, especially those that have done this recovery thing and have held some serious time. So ya, in reading ur post… I have to agree. Thise things can wait. Recovery needs to be my focus. Period. And overtime other things will come to light and the gifts of recovery will open up to me. Thank you for sharing that with me. I don’t want to overwhelmed myself and then get so frustrated or defeated and end up using. Thanks my friend 
Wooohoooooo
Congrats on your recovery
Woe! That’s huge!!! Congratulations
SO Wonderful !!! Congratulations !! 
Congrats on 3 whole years!!
Evening check in Coming up to Day 4
Feeling exhausted 
I’m feeling drained and so tired. Today was a long ass day. Nothing went wrong today but I think it was the excessive screen time on my phone that made me irritable. I was on TS today for about 8 hours lmao don’t get me wrong… that’s good! At least it was recovery related. But being on my phone stuck in the office is not what I’m used to. Anyway, got home, made supper and am now relaxing watching this TV series called Selling Sunset lol. Things are coming up (which is expected in early recovery). Not even going to get into to much detail right now. Just too tired. It’s just stuff from my past. Weird thoughts about things… not even using related… to be honest it’s weird thought about “working”. Like black trucks (which seemed to be the vehicle of choice of my regulars) and memories of my 1st trick, and I’ll be standing outside on the sidewalk waiting for the light to say walk, and I’ll have weird thoughts about being picked up, and all that kind of stuff. And I’m disturbed by it honestly. Like why? I need my brain to shut off. How does everyone shut off their brain sober? I’m really curious how people do that? Or is it normal to always be thinking? Idk… I don’t have a “normal” way of thinking lmao
Time for bed soon 
ugh going to bed clean and sober tho. Grateful for that 
Congratulations on 3 years!!! 
Day 161. I always want to live this free.
Racing thoughts are the bane of my existence too! Worse than that, I also have “Happy Gilmore moments”. (I’ll explain later). I think I’m a chronic relapser because vodka is the only thing that really calms me down. 
But as for medication, I’ve had good results with Seroquel and melatonin. Also, non-caffinated hot beverage (drinking hot cocoa now 
). And a rain fall app helps. Hang in there, it’s a new year!