Checking in daily to maintain focus #38

586 days of sobriety. Boss was pleased with my work today, and he was happy when I talked about my struggles and he has been so good at supporting me in a way that I need. Our work place is really flexible and there is a lot of trust in our group that everyone can do things on their own pace. While that is good for me in the way that I have difficulties waking up early in the morning, i have difficulties to get started and to hold my own deadlines. I told my boss that I need him to lead me and give me external pressure, which has helped quite a bit - stress of dissappointment is greater than my stupid brain. Still difficult, but a few percent easier.

Thoght that I was gonna only be tired and have a sore arm because of vaccine. i was wrong, fever is rising now :upside_down_face: anyyyyways

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Life is crazy eh? Like, just everything about it. I’m sorry ur struggling abit today Matt :frowning: I have been in weird up n down moods lately too. I’ve been trying to sort of just observe my emotions when they pop up. Not judging them or trying to fix them but seeing what I can learn from them. I get soo caught up in my negative emotions and sometimes get “stuck” and I find literally stopping and breathing and doing a gratitude list is so helpful. Hope ur day improves :slight_smile:

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Thank you for checking in. Last couple days have been hard. I just finished my therapy appointment and am feeling a little better. I guess the “pink cloud” phase of recovery is over.

I’m feeling overwhelmed with the move, recovery, and just life in general. I just need to find a way to get through this sober. I can’t numb everything with alcohol and I don’t feel the euphoria of recovery anymore. I can get through this but it will be hard.

I really appreciate all the support on here. And thank you @SadMemeQueen @CATMANCAM @Cherry_Kisses @TigerMatriarch for your messages as well.

Day 44 and still sober

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Day 286 of no self harm. Just wanted to update that I managed to get through last night without any relapse. I’ll check in at the end of the day as usual. I’m so proud of all of you

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And I’m proud of you Megan!

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Come spend some time on the gratitude thread that green eyed monster will fuck off fast.

Daily Gratitude List. Gratitude The Air Of Recovery

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Me too!

I haven’t told you but I’ve learned about acceptance from reading your posts. I appreciate that. Like you, I struggle at times with negative emotions; also you’ve shared about being a comfort eater and that certainly describes me too. :innocent: I think you’re right that being kind and stopping to breathe, for perspective, is helpful.

Thanks! :innocent:

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Awe Matt this made me smile :slight_smile: thank u! Emotions are a tough one for me too. I have always done something to try and fix my feelings, wether it be food or shopping or exercise or drugs or sex or anything. 1 other thing I found that really helps me to get out of myself and my “stinkin thinkin” is being of service to others. I will literally ask my HP… what can I do today to be of service to someone else? Getting out of myself ALWAYS helps me and improves my mood :slight_smile:

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Thank u! I will go on there soon :slight_smile: I need to do that actually :slight_smile: hugs!

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Congrats on day 44.
Lean on us when you’re willing.
The euphoria of recovery might just come back and give you a big happy hug tomorrow. Or the next day.
One day I wouldn’t be feeling it. And then all of a sudden. Bam :boom:. It’s back. Then it leaves again. Go figure. :man_shrugging: Those dang feelings.

I’ll leave this here for whoever might want to read it.


:pray::heart:

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Gosh 600 days that’s great work Rob well done
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1000 congratulations sent to you.:tada::clap:

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Congrats on the 600. Happy for you. :sunglasses::+1:

Welcome to the 600 Club Rob.
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You fucking rock star you :sunglasses:
:pray::heart::hugs::boom::boom::boom::boom:

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This is awesome!!! Congratulations, Rob! :partying_face::purple_heart:

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Massive congratulations @AyBee and @Rockstar24777

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Thank you Rob!:purple_heart:

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Thank you @seb!!!

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Thank you @Hopeful777!!!

Awwww thanks @ShesGotMoxie i love the pic :rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl:

I had to edit because I ran out of replies so Thank you very much @Dazercat i love that pic too!!! :rofl::rofl::metal:t2::metal:t2::metal:t2::metal:t2:

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