@Misokatsu @CATMANCAM congratulations on 18 months alcohol free, you two! Amazing and inspiring 
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Day 1195. Thank you all for your support be it PM or here. You are right. The biggest problem I have is mind vs heart. My mind will always outplay my feelings. Yet, my feelings brought me in the deepest shit also. So, I think what summarizes it best is really that I am stuck between my feelings and my mind rationalizing everything. Which translates to being paralyzed.
I think I will go for the teacher training and send in the contract. I am better today. We are to go to the cinema tonight if my friend finds a nanny for her son.
Thank you again. I might not be supportive here a lot. I feel ashamed for this.
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Thanks. Hope u are keeping strong in this tough time 
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Kat here checking in on Day 191
@Misokatsu congrats on 18 months
@CATMANCAM congrats on 18 months no alcohol and 2 weeks no cocaine! Glad to hear youāre getting through your medical issues.
I am just off work and headed to bed thought Iād check in first. Was tired so missed a Zoom NA meeting yesterday but feeling ok about it. Talk to my psychologist later today.
Love
Kat
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I have definitely witnessed your support for others and have even been on the receiving end, amiga. No need to impose shame on yourself - itās okay to get support without giving anything back in the moment, itās not a capitalist exchange 
Thank goodness for that!
I am glad youāre having a better day and have some clarity about the mental and emotional conflict youāre experiencing. Itās helpful to understand what is going on with us when we are suffering (at least it is for me). Hope you enjoy your outing tonight. Distraction and socializing is definitely a good thing! Give those pretty girls some pets from me. Have a good weekend, Franzi.
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Congrats on 8 months!!!
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Today is day 175! Had a lot on my plate this week and it did get overwhelming for the first time since recovery. But guess what, I just went and got a bigger plate for a day and the next day I was good to go. Thank for all your help and support on here. Like another family on here.
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There is no need to feel ashamed. We all need extra support from time to time and thatās what this forum is for - we look out for, and care about, one and another hugs
Reading your posts and seeing the responses and care our members have for you reminds me how lucky and grateful I feel to have stumbled across this app 3.5 yrs ago.
Hope youāre able to enjoy your night at the movies 
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Congrats on pushing through your tough week! You mentioned plates and I couldnāt get this image out of my head - Chris trying to juggle all of the plates 
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Checking in Day 988
10pm Friday night and heading off to bed shortly. Been a big week and Iām feeling pretty depleted so will be trying to make some time for self care and time out this weekend.
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I like it!!!
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Congrats on 8 months!!! 
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@CATMANCAM and @Misokatsu huge congrats on 18 months!! Thatās amazing!
@icebear Awesome job on 8 months, youāre killin it 
Iām checking in on day 607, I hope everybody has a good one!
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Good morning everyone day 120. Me and the girls went to bed kind of early and all got some pretty good sleep. Decent morning, I forgot my daughterās cup cakes for valentine day and had to rush up to make sure she got them lol. Addie wants to stay home again and really she doesnāt ask often I told her on will give her one long weekend but we cant do this next week.
My new inks came so Iām excited, my owl on my hand healed great and did exactly what I wanted so now I can go in soon and finish with my grays and better texture in the fur and bring it down into my knuckles more. Hope everyone has a good day much love
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Nice man, sounds like a good morning all around. I canāt wait to see pics of the owl when you finish it.
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Day 86
Happy Friday. Quick thought: As you eliminate one vice from your life, i dont know about other people here, but i can clearly see the other vices that clearly need to be dealt with. For me, itās competitive gaming. Iāve resolved after last night, i wont be gaming in front of my kids. Iām not an angry aggressive person, i dont have a temperā¦except when iām playing games. After getting angry at my one year old, i immediately deleted that game(later re-downloaded it, iām not perfect). When my kids are around, i need to be all in with focusing on them. Not just that, but i dont them to see me act and think that behavior is appropriate. So when i take my boys down in my mancave, itās focusing on them thatās my goal. Iāve always had to work on not being selfish, my 20 year addiction to porn was rooted in selfish behavior. Now that iām kicking that, itās time to work on the root of the problem. I needed to journal this, sorry for being longwinded.
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Thank you! I made it through:-) a lot of tea and a movie helped distract me!
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Morning, checking in day 88. Stuck on a long shift till tonight, but than off for the weekend. Love yous all. Have a good one.
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