For what it’s worth I don’t think it’s possible to fail at life. Just as we can’t succeed. It implies there is a right way and a wrong way. That we are in control of every factor and that we know everything. Impossible! Failure and success are just concepts we use to describe our perspectives, which are built up as a result of hundreds and thousands of thoughts and interactions. We all have different perspectives on what it means to fail or succeed!
Saying that, I do understand in my own way how it feels to not meet the expectations I have set for myself. It is not nice and I am sending you all the hugs and compassion until you can find some for yourself
What is it that you want that you don’t have right now? Feel free to PM if you want.
Yoga teacher training sounds like an amazing adventure too
Check in. … Got 5 hour lab practical, feel like blowing it off, but I won’t, . Having a coffee and getting myself together… positive thoughts. Grateful I’m sober to even attempt what I’m doing today
18 months for you as well amazing work Cam, and great you have hit two weeks with the cocaine as well despite going through lots at the moment, hope those meds keep the pain at bay, and a successful therepy session later.
Hi Franzi, I’m sorry you feel this way! I used to feel like that ALL the time for years, like I had fucked my life up to the point of no return and like there was no point anymore, because everything was broken … I don’t know how it happened, but one day last summer some kind of switch went off, I quit my job, moved countries, started to open up to people, startet therapy … I’m going trough a lot of change and I’m at a point where I didn’t expect to be (at all), but I like it here
I’m not saying that you need to turn around your life 180° like I did, but I’m here to remind you that healing is possible, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now new challenges can be good and change can feel very empowering. The yoga instructor lessons sound awesome! See how it feels and just go from there?
Checking in on day 302 sober from alcohol.
It’s been a while TS family! I’ve been absent, because I started feeling really good and kind off took a break from working at my recovery and just enjoyed myself
While I feel that was necessary, there are new challenges ahead. I applied and got my dream job, at the hospital where I used to do all my internships. I’m really happy to finally have a full position there. I love working in my field and I always do it with 300%. In therapy I learned that working with that intensity in such a demanding job comes at a price and I need to be very conscious of my wellbeing and have a strong support system. The stess got to me in the past and my drinking spiralled totally out of control.
So that’s what I’m doing. I’m coming back to the base and I’ll be checking in more regularly. Hope all of you are doing well, looking foward to reading your posts
CATMANCAM I hope your wait time for surgery passes quickly and that the pain holds up ok in the meantime
Fleur nothing like domestic duties to make us feel like our milestones are just another day but doing it sober is a waaaaay better feeling than the alternative
Just checking in on day 462. I’m feeling a lot better and balanced since I switched to a different medication. I didn’t realize how bad effect did the old one have on me. Had a quite busy period at work and now enjoying some days off.
Amazing! Well done, amiga, on 18 months!!! I have found more contentment lately in days where life’s mission is straightforward, like laundry days
@CATMANCAM and I was really happy to hear you give yourself kudos for 18 mo AF, Cam. That’s important to see where you have been strong, and now two weeks clean - I have been reading a renewed clarity and peace in your posts and it makes me glad. I hope you can get that surgery done soon so you can continue recovering for your overall wellness.
Morning TS friends! First, congrats to @CATMANCAM and @Misokatsu on 18 months!!! . Cam, sorry about your gallbladder, I’ve had mine out, I know those attacks are no fun Waking up today feeling slightly better and more like a fighter. I still can’t believe he is gone, some moments it doesn’t feel real and others it feels like years and it was just last week. I can only imagine how my mom feels. My husbands twin had surgery for the cancer earlier this week and there were complications, not fun hours but all is better now. And for the cherry on top of this shit sundae we should hopefully hear some results for my husbands testing from his medical emergency, since he didn’t go in right away we are working backwards, dr is thinking possibly heart attack or TIA, mini stroke. That happened when I was on a plane to my mom hours after my step dad died. So, I think I finally broke last night and just cried and cried, finally told one person at work everything going on and the felt good, I am a very private person so I don’t typically spew my life to everyone. Still sober, that is a silver lining for sure, not overly confident in it right now but haven’t made the mistake. I hope everyone has a great day
months AF.
new challenges can be good and change can feel very empowering. The yoga instructor lessons sound awesome! See how it feels and just go from there? 
congrats to both of you for 18 months 
Waking up today feeling slightly better and more like a fighter. I still can’t believe he is gone, some moments it doesn’t feel real and others it feels like years and it was just last week. I can only imagine how my mom feels. My husbands twin had surgery for the cancer earlier this week and there were complications, not fun hours but all is better now. And for the cherry on top of this shit sundae we should hopefully hear some results for my husbands testing from his medical emergency, since he didn’t go in right away we are working backwards, dr is thinking possibly heart attack or TIA, mini stroke. That happened when I was on a plane to my mom hours after my step dad died. So, I think I finally broke last night and just cried and cried, finally told one person at work everything going on and the felt good, I am a very private person so I don’t typically spew my life to everyone. Still sober, that is a silver lining for sure, not overly confident in it right now but haven’t made the mistake. I hope everyone has a great day 
