@SoberWalker thank you 
I really hope you get your surgery date soon 
it reall is so painful 
@Misokatsu thank you
@siand thank you
@Cherry_Kisses congrats on double digits 
@Hopeful777 thank you
@ShadowFax thank you
@Penguin great to see you check-in 
I was glad to read in your reply to Franzi that you’re liking where you’re at right now, congrats on the new job
@Becsta thank you
@Tomek I’m pleased you’re feeling better
@RosaCanDo thank you I really do feel those things at the moment 
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@IamThechange thank you well done for staying strong against the storms you are faced with
@Lotusflower thank you
@icebear thank you congrats on 8 months
@kat261 thank you
@Nordique thank you
@SelfLove_42 congrats on recognising another area you need to work on, your children will appreciate your attentiveness
@Laraellelarissa thank you
@TigerMatriarch thank you and I’m so pleased to read about your dinner outing
@1in8billion good luck for the new job, and also for checking things off your to-do list one at a time 
550 days no alcohol.
15 days no cocaine.
12 days no binge-eating.
Thank you so much for the congrats and well wishes, It means a lot. Out of likes again so here’s a 
for every post.
New medications have thankfully minimised the pains, they still come every 5 mins to remind me I’m alive to feel them, but they are so much easier to cope with. I also got a text from the hospital to say I have an appointment in the General Surgery department on 10th March, so perhaps this is a pre-op 
I’m impressed to hear something so quick.
I’ve managed to have a few naps during the day to catch up on the sleep I missed, woke up in time to get an iced coffee before therapy.
Therapy was good again, spoke this week’s nightmares and how they can relate to different parts of my life, including the therapy itself. He gives me many ‘aha’ moments. Also touched lightly on some of the more painful aspects of my childhood. The session went really fast, and I felt good afterwards.
I’ve just had dinner and taken my evening meds. It’s just after 8pm on a Friday night, and I’m in bed ready to read around on here while I settle for sleep. So far removed from the before times.
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Hey everyone! Checking in… still sober! Celebrating 2 years in 10 days. I have just been living life honestly. I now have some new friends that are good influences and I am usually with them. I dyed my hair pink again. Lost 7 pounds. Getting stuff together for school. On a dating app 
lol so yeah I’m actually going to a funeral for my aunt tomorrow 
so yeah but sorry for not checking in… just have been so busy. Also I got to go to church for the first time in over two years!!! Honestly I was struggling
Mentally and spiritually for a little bit but it seems
It has passed but I am not letting my guard down… anyway yeah ups and downs of life but I am happy. Here’s a pic of my new hair.
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Congratulations, that’s a huge achievement 
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Hello guys
Checking day 18. Had a very good swim today. It rained but the water was actually warm. It was so fun.
@CATMANCAM hey congrats on 2 weeks. And I hope you are doing okay and your health improves. Sending strenght
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Checking in, 1st week behind me.
Last year I got sober for 237 days. Then, after an argument with my dog trainer, I got a bottle of gin. I thought it was just one off and remember pouring the rest of the bottle to the toilet the same night.
Well, it wasn’t. 253 days of ‘enjoying’ myself and I am back to sober. I cannot understand how such a little problem sent me straight back to drinking.
It is scary now to realise how the glasses slowly creeped up and suddenly I was on a litre of wine or 7-8 beers a few times a week (blackout achieved) thinking how great it was to be able to drink without any consequences
It was not. At least for me. I hope I will be wiser this time 
All the best to everyone here!
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Well done for coming back… keep coming back…good to see you here, 
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Thank you so much for this extensive response, not just for me but for the many others that needed to hear this as well.
Time is something I grapple with. It is both the cure as well as my worst enemy. I am aware that every day is a day at a time, I just need to learn to not be so harshly critical of myself. I’m also working on my apathy, but it’s definitely a work in progress.
Doing the things that discomfort(within reason) has been one of the more useful tools for growth and has me feeling like I can welcome any obstacle from how good it feels to conquer them no matter how big or small.
And being fearless in my recovery has become prominent. I’ve lived through enough of my greatest fears in recent time that any of my other fears seemed trivial in comparison. “It’s only up from this lowest point” mentality.
I have survived these greatest of fears, lowest of lows, I can survive anything.
I find myself trying to understand why in my down time, trying to reflect and find answers where there honestly may never be any proper ones given. Where the best option is to focus on the things I know and can control. There are so many things, even in my clarity and realization, that I will never understand.
Thank you again for this!
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So happy to hear from you, your hair looks super cute.
Congrats on pushing through all the hard stuff.
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Checking in 137 days sober.
It’s a beautiful 70 degree day and I was in the middle of getting ready to go meet my friends out and thought wow I really want a drink. It snuck up on me. My addict is really always there. When it’s nice out, when I’m sad, when I’m happy. She’s always there. But I win, because I’m not going to go anymore obviously. But as someone who has not had many cravings it caught me off guard.
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Good for you recognizing it and changing plans.
I think that’s better than fighting her.
Congrats on the 137
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Yeah she likes 70 and sunny. Temptation and access is not the upper hand I want her to have.
Thanks for being here Eric 
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So great to see you checking in a coming up on 2 years Flannery. It sounds like things are going well when you’re clean. I hope church gave you that spiritual boost you needed. It always does for me.
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So proud of you taking care of you !
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We had lunch at a Mexican restaurant today for the first time in my 6 months sober. I’ve been staying away because I associate Mexican food heavily with margaritas. I was looking at the flavored teas when the waitress came over, and she asked if I wanted a “margarita, or another cocktail”. I didn’t holler “no”, but the level of my voice was dang near close. It shocked me and her. I just smiled, repeated the no, and added a thank you. Once she left the table, I couldn’t stop it, the tears started flowing. My husband was comforting and I got it under control quickly, but shoot! When she asked me that, in a split second I had to process that I was being offered alcohol, that I didn’t want it, and I had to say so. But I did it… maybe a little too well.
@Callie99 I guess it was our day. I’m proud of you. 
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@CATMANCAM congrats on 18 months no alcohol! I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time medically. I’ve been through my fair share of medical BS, so I can sympathize on some levels. Hang in there.
@Misokatsu 18 months no alcohol! I’m so happy for you!
@Cherry_Kisses Great job making it to 10 days. You’re doing really well.
@icebear Congratulations on your 8 months!
@anon74766472 There is no need to feel ashamed for not giving support right now. The world is not make up of all things being equal. Sometimes we take more, sometimes we give more. Right now you need support and you are giving people the opportunity to give support. Sometimes it takes more strength to admit you need/want support than it does to silently push forward on your own.
@1in8billion Good luck in the new job.
@ShesGotMoxie Well done! What a monumental victory for you!
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I’m really proud of you. 
I love a good cry at a restaurant 
I was out to lunch before my birthday and my friend was trying to decide on a wine. She got a sample and I use to be THE wine girl and she’s like here try it- and I’m like no! I’m pretty sure I scream- answered. Our waitress was like woah. So I think I know the exact tone of voice you used. I’m happy you got to get some yummy Mexican food today and that I’m not the only weird person that “kinda” yells when I’m offered booze. Love you 
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I’m sure I’ll holler the next time it’s offered. Hopefully, I won’t cry. 
Love you, too 
We’re doing great! 
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Great job Moxie.
I never thought there was a point to eating Mexican food without a margarita. It is possible! I had to wait awhile before I was comfortable going into Mexican restaurants. Good for you !!
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Checking in Day 144
Feeling exhausted but functional. Had acid dreams when I finally got around to resting. Idk if my kid was also experiencing dreams or just being her wild self but she woke me up one time gripping and yanking on my right anti-eyebrow piercing, like full toddler feral grip 
. So, needless to say, I didn’t sleep the greatest. I got up and decided to do errands early because I dont want to be stuck in the stores shopping this weekend due to superbowl. I am ready for Sunday and am fully stocked on my favorite caffeines, sparkling waters, and ugh… JUNK! I DONT KNOW WHY, I have a massive weakness for cheeseballs. You know the ones that come in the huge ass clear plastic tubs? THOSE ONES. On my rest days, its not common but i am capable of going through a whole tub in one sitting.
Anyways, I am getting sidetracked. This weekend I am keeping my cousin company that has recently decided to get sober after being diagnosed with cirrhosis from their alcoholism. They are 60+ days sober and I think they have only made it so far through white knuckling alone. When I last spoke to them, they seemed so relieved that someone else in the family went sober (I keep a pretty tight circle of just my mom, my kid and myself) and just seemed so tense. I gladly gave them my number and knowledge and resources and im hoping to be able to help them find their way to accepting help through non white knuckle means, but in the end the decision is theirs.
Today is not a rest day and I cannot wait to hit the gym and be able to breathe in the world, even if its only for a while.
No time to spend feeling sad or in my head today, that usually means its an okay day.
But that doesn’t mean I don’t miss them. I always do.
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