Checking in sober and Hang-over free.
42.5 days AF and 5 days No cigarettes.
Gone spend some time with my family this weekend, I am gone do this happy and sober.
There is no need for drinking this weekend. I am content and satisfied with my sober life!.
Wish you all a amazing sober weekend.
@HannahSara7 Magnesium is one of my favorite supplements, It helps for anxiety, sleeping, and helps for muscles recovery after working out.
Hope you are feeling beter, and get back on your routines
@Cherry_Kisses Double digits! Awesome! Keep up the good work
@Dee134 congratulations with your months of sobriety
@Mno I love you āāblauwe druifjesāā coming out
412 days @icebear congratulations on 8 months of sobriety @Cherry_Kisses congratulations on double digits @SoberWalker 40 weeks is such a long time, letās hope the other list worksā¦ not right to have to be in pain for that long.
Nothing much planned today, reading, dog is at groomers later, so there will be a scramble to get her in there. I done all my housework in stages in the week so to leave my weekends free of chores, itās a nice feeling so shall aim to continue that.
1196 days since drinking the last bottle of wine. Life is not always better. I am still sober and very grateful. Of course these days wouldnāt be lost if I picked up today but playing the tape through: sitting there every morning and trying to be strong today which never or rarely became true, this is one of my biggest fears. I donāt want to dwell in this but at times like this, itās helping a lot.
I am better today, better than 2 days ago also because of the many pieces of thoughts I received. What are my expectations, which do I incorporate without knowing. Itās a tricky one I think.
Today the sun is shining and due to this itās still f*** cold outside. I will go for a short walk and buy some snacks for the girls.
I hope everyone has a good and sober weekend.
PS the movie was good last night. I like German and French movies a lot. Depends of course. I love Nora Tschirner.
Major relationship hassle today, sprouting from minor things. Basically, saying āno, thank youā to something equals being ungrateful and difficult, according to my husband. Really tired of having to fight for a tiny bit of freedom, that really should be there anyway.
Sorry about the relationship problems. My last one sounds similar, so restrictive. It felt like I was smothering a part of me to please someone else. Hope you get that freedom.
I am on Day 7, starting a Saturday sober and feel wonderful for it.
A steam train went past my house this morning and I was able to bounce out of bed to get my children and run back to the window (luckily they are noisy enough to give quite a bit of warning!)
We are off out and about today, for a walk in the country. I will be able to drive as wonāt be worried about the alcohol in my blood from the night before.
Itās been abit of a funny, all over the place emotionally - kind of day, today.
Itās the 18th anniversary of my first husband passing away and it almost feels like I feel more sad each year when it comes aroundā¦
Maybe because Iām no longer drinking, Iām allowing myself to actually sit with the memories and grief. And as I watch our 2 children grow into young adults (now 20 & 18.5) I feel so upset they never got to know their Dad and how missing out on having a Dad present in their lives impacts on their mental healthā¦ but I share happy memories and stories with them and I know he would be so proud of the amazing people they are.
Some aspects of life just feel like they really suck and are so cruel and unfairā¦
Anyways I tried to get out of my funk this afternoon and went for a run around the lake. Grateful that today passes still sober and that itās a new day tomorrow x
I still cry every year round about my fatherās passing. Itās been about 36 years already.
Raising the children on your own must have been so hard. Itās sad but children with a distant or non existent father are almost always ājust differentā and yeah sometimes life is cruel and sucks, but it is what it is.
As parents we do the best we can, with the little bit of knowledge we have or gained as children ourselves.
It is was only much later in life that I grasped this concept. Parents arenāt perfect. Thereās no ābookā that guides us. We just wing it as best as we can.
Iām sure that he looks down and is very proud of all of you. As Oprah always says being a parent is the hardest job in the world.
Good job keeping sober. You are an inspiration.
And the lake is beautiful!! Isnāt it amazing how being close to nature just completely calms oneās soul. Enjoy.
Hitting double digits was awesome yesterday and I loved all the encouragement but Iām definitely struggling with some blues.
Having issues with my eldest right now so early in my sobriety is quite a challenge. I was mostly dry for December and January, bar a few days and because I had no stress, it was relatively easy.
Now thereās a part of me that just wants to drink and smoke so I can numb out and itās hard, hard, hard.
For me the only way out is through. This forum has absolutely become my place of sanity and reason. I donāt think I would have come this far without having a place to share my fails and wins. Thank you all, I know Iām just a pseudonym behind my keyboard but I see all of you.
Iām slowly but surely finding ways to cope with stuff and if it means one of them is venting anonymously on a recovery site, so be it.
Well still clean and sober which is great, but I have to out myself today. I started a new job a week or so ago and it has been great, but there are a couple of areas of my life which need help.
What has happened is I have basically just been sleeping and working, not going to the gym or to Zoom NA meetings. This has been a conscious lazy choice to sleep extra and not go to Zoom meetings (as if thatās hard clicking a link on my phone and paying attention for an hour!). Then thereās the gym, less important but vital for my physical and mental health (still 90lbs or so overweight).
I am letting my recovery slip and thatās not ok. So hope nobody minds but I am outing myself on here and pledge 100% to do better and be able to type that I went to a meeting. Also will post in the gym thread a selfie from the gym.
I worked all night. Plan is to be asleep by 8 and up by 5. Drink a couple red bulls and go to the gym. Come home and do an online meeting!
Kat your at day 192 thatās awesome! I went through a very similar situation. I said Incas going to get a few months clean under my belt before I went back to work. Went back to work, meeting attendance slipped and reaching out to others like i do on here ceased to exist. I replaced my drinking habit with work. I worked myself so hard i am scheduled for a spine surgery here soon. It is key to find a balance and I am still trying to find that as well but this site helps alleviate the difficulties of planning a meeting or heading to the gym after a 14 hour shift. Not saying you shouldnāt do either!! But good on ya for outing yourself. Iām in the same boat!
Thank you so much Cherry, I really appreciate your kind words. And yes being outside with nature is definetely my happy place, it always soothes my soul and calms me
Sorry to hear youāre having troubles with your eldest - I totally relate to the pressure it adds to sobriety. On one hand I think it would be the perfect excuse to pick up a drink and then on the other hand I realise itās also the perfect reason not to drink.
It never helps a situation, the problems are always there, if not worsened, by picking back up. Itās a test of our determination, courage and strength and each time we resist, we get stronger and for me, it gets alittle bit easier the next time. Youāre doing amazing, donāt ever doubt that
The lake is part of the Damien Leeding Memorial Park nearby my home. Itās man made but the path around it is precisely 4km so itās perfect for a run and also provides stunning sunsets every afternoon
Iāve never really shared about my husbands passingā¦ Iāve been trying to make a conscious effort to share more and bottle up less. And it was a long time ago but strangely feels like it wasnāt long ago at all. If that makes sense.
I hit my first rock bottom 9 months after he passed and that lead me into an IOP & AA. Gained almost a decade of recovery before I relapsed for about 4 yrs and then stumbled across this forum and got to where I am today. Like most of us it has been a hell of a journey so far!
Your kind words mean alot, thank you Chris.
months of sobriety 
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