Been lurking the last 2 days. I really appreciate the openness and kindness of this community. I finally found somewhere I can go to not feel so alone.
Approaching the evening of my day one. I’m always 100% on board in the morning but once the evening rolls around the excuses and rationalizations start to creep in. Trying to not let it dominate my thinking. Need to find distractions and just make a million cups of hot tea instead. Feeling sad that it’s come to this. I feel so weak.
So cute…the honesty is appreciated and so real. Not every day will be a great day. Sometimes we need to force ourselves out of the funk. But still sober is #1.
Great to see you working the program, leave no stone unturned on step 4 my friend. 100% total honesty. Step 1 we admit, step 2 we accept, step 3 we become willing. Now it’s time for action.
Proud of you
Tomorrow will 7 weeks sober.
My mind tried to convince me to have the famous ‘just 1’ tonight but instead I took a cup of tea to bed and checked in here. Will go to an AA meeting tomorrow. Ive come too far and feel so good to go back to the way I was. So glad to have this place where each of us share a common goal…sobriety and happy healthy living.
Much love to all❤
Don’t be, this is where all the people are that are just like you and know exactly how you think and feel. Keep posting and reading and reach out for help every time you need it. We can’t do this alone and we don’t have to. Wish you well on your journey.
Sorry to hear you’re feeling conflicted at the moment. I hope this eases for you soon. I’m sure it will
I often think of work like a bit of a roller coaster ride - it’s full of highs and lows, and we “ride the ride”, until it’s time to get off. Only you can know when that it is. Work is such an important aspect of our lives and I think it’s essential that we find value and purpose in what we do - do you feel this with your current work? Reflection in this area is hopefully helpful
Based on your presence and contribution here in our TS community, I think you’re amazing at relationship-building as you have time and consideration for others and you help people see and know their own value and worth!
Asking for help is always a good idea!
Have a great day and don’t let all this worry you too much. The answers to your Q’s will find you
Thx E, I appreciate it - you’ve given me something to think about. I like the roller coaster analogy! I do find value in what I do but I feel like in a different role I would find more purpose (more of a sense that I was having an impact).
I am in conversations with a few people about options; it’s a long process but I will keep you posted
It gets easier. I was miserable the first couple weeks. Even when I could sleep through the night I was still tired most days with headaches and anxiety. Try and start exercising if your not already even if you have to force yourself to. Give your body something else to concentrate on.
