#Day 1233
Waiting for my birthday present to arrive
Bought myself an beautiful second hand golden ring. And now hope I fit it
A nice benefit of being sober is saving money. Money I can use for things like this and my other hobby: tattoos.
It’s not the most important benefit offcourse, but more than a good side effect
Day 59 Tomorrow I have 2 months sober and I’ve been here more than once and it’s always cool to get another month of sobriety but my goal is life so the fight doesn’t stop. Everyday I’m growing getting healthier, stronger and wiser. I have to remember that having discipline and a Positive Mental Attitude is the key to sobriety. Peace to all and take care.
Checking in Day 182, up early today maybe cause I slept a lot yesterday. Also maybe excited about new job I have orientation today More health and safety no doubt.
Thinking of you all stay strong, you are not alone we are together
Checking in. Feeling a little discouraged and negative this morning. I’m not totally sure why. The last few days I’ve felt like I’ve been scrambling to put things together. I’m having trouble getting going.
Part of me thinks, “you just need to toughen up and get yourself going”. Another part of me thinks, “why bother?” Like, so what? (Not about life in general, just about the task I need to do.) And then another part of me wonders if there’s something I don’t have, something I’m missing now, that would get me grounded and moving forward.
No matter what though I am staying sober. I am not going into that mud hole of addiction. I am going to walk through this funk, clear-eyed.
Thanks folks. It feels better getting this out. I appreciate you all
Wow, what are the chances of the money and the days lining up like that?
Day 540
Covered a class for an acquaintance, it is hard when u don’t know the situation, and I misjudged the level of the students. So, a bit awkward, but never mind. Was lazy when I got home again. Gonna have to write myself a schedule or something.
Finished work and had a what the fuck, Franzi! I am in this huge office atm where the former colleagues walk by all day. I am a bit ashamed and resentful when this happens. So I was alone in my cluster after lunch and the colleague I began with 2 years ago just stopped and asked me how I was doing. I replied shortly that I won’t say anything without my lawyer. She looked at my like
I asked her back and we talked a little bit. When I went home I realized that it is all about me, it is in my fucking head. Of course I already knew that. I wrote her in my way home and apologized for my blunt behaviour. She was genuinely nice and I was: fuck the company and you are the fucking company. I am grateful that most of the times I can tell now when I have to apologize and when not.
When I was still drinking I would always apologize, even when someone stepped on my foot. Sorry, I put it there.
Gave me something to think about. Shouldn’t beat me down.