- Coffee. Just the early shift followed by another weekend for me. That’s the way I like it. Had a very busy day off yesterday with mainly good things happening. Got a bit mad at therapy. Which is a good thing because I have a problem regulating and expressing anger. Let’s see if I learned something from it.
Learned stuff being here too. Good stuff. This place has given me so much and still does. Because I’m sober and clean. Because we’re in this together. One day at a time. So grateful to all of you. Have as good a Friday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober, as that’s the only way to a better life for all of us. Love from my train yesterday afternoon.
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I think you’re the closest I have to a sober twin… So I’m taking it 
Not long now for your thousand!
You absolute champion
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I was about to do that! And I’m closer too! In days that is, not in geography. Sober triplets an idea?
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I hope your new meds help, that operation sounds very painfull😔 Glad it’s behind you!
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Thank you all for the birthdaywishes yesterday! It was a great day also because of it 
Quick check in for now. Off for work but want to share these nice numbers with you:
Have a good day!
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I got this for sure. Hard to make a new life when I’m so tired all the time
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Checking in Day 37. Lots of hard work today. Struggling. First time in a month I’ve really had the urge to drink but I didn’t and I won’t. Been thinking how I was generally sober around the time my kids were little. Then my addictions got out of control some time after we separated. But even before then it was always never far from my mind. I remember watching the tv series True Detective at the time, which features a song on the opening credits called ‘Weightless Again’. I automatically heard it as “oh to be wasted again” 
Well I guess it got the better of me and yeh I’ve wasted some crucial years. Never Again.
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Day 136 checking in
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Checking in Sober, Hang-over free, happy, satisfied and hopeful.
Today is gone be another great day. A great day for not drinking that sh*t called alcohol. There is no need for drinking anymore. My life is joyful enough without that poison.
I struggle with smoking though. After 6/7 days of not smoking I pick up again, than I smoke for 2 days and the cycle starts over again. Me not drinking is the excuse I give my self for having a smoke.
I havent figure it out how to change this behavior yet. I definitely want the give up this addiction but it is tough.
Have an amazing sober day my friends, you all worth it.
I made a photo collage from al the nice pictures I took on my hike last Sunday ( Naardermeer )
@CATMANCAM Congrats on your 7 days no cocaine 
@KevinesKay 
days, very well done sir! congratulations 
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Abstinence is the way forward for me.
Tired of banging my head over and over, thinking “this time will be different” It never is. Feeling more at peace now that my head and heart are finally in sync.
Roll on day 3.
ODAAT.
Love you ALL 
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@Pickles @Freckles @Dazercat thanks for your advice. I had actually quit actually smoking years ago, then I ended up vaping for years, quit that completely for a while and then just had the odd cig when drinking which wasn’t a problem. But now I’ve quit drinking the urge to do something has come back so I keep switching between smoking and vaping, not all the time, so I had none this week then bought a pack last night. This was after I ate a take away and was like ok I can’t be doing this so bought cigs. 
It’s like there is just a general addictive urge that will go one of three ways. But I really don’t want to be doing any! Craving for smoking or eating is actually stronger than drinking for me. My problem with drinking is if I have 1 I have 10 till I black out. But I can far more easily have 0 than try and have 1 or 2 if that makes sense. So having 0 drinks is the easier answer. I think cause I’ve stopped my social activities as they all involved drinking I’m just at home more and when I finish work it’s like I need some sort of release, which now it isn’t going to the pub, is going towards food and cigs. I worry about putting on weight too and smoking is great for losing weight (although bad for everything else) so part of me thinks well better to smoke than eat:rofl: I know that’s bit messed up! I think it’s worse cause iv been ill so not doing my usual exercise/ healthy routine. Maybe I just need to try and moderate the cigs and food to begin with and reduce until I’ve stopped rather than stopping all at once as I keep relapsing on one of them. So annoying. Feel like I have an addictive personality and just so hard to practice strict self control! Any suggestions on how to manage cravings would be appreciated! I know I can do it as I have before but it’s just so hard!
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I find stop smoking far more difficult then drinking because it has no serieus side effects.
Its far more easier to say ‘‘yeah just one cigarette don’t hurt me’’ And since you can not buy just one cigarette I always and up with a pack, which I have to finish because the are expensive… 
This is just a trick of the mind.
Drinking no cafeïne an working out more often helps me to moderate smoking.
Saturday I am gone quite AGAIN, but i have to come up with something better or I will fail again.
I vaped before, but this is just the same as switching from hard liquor to beer, you are still addicted but a little less 
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Haha yes if only you could by just one cig! I feel like that would make things easier!! Often I have 1 and think, wow that wasn’t worth it, but then got the problem of the rest of the pack! Can’t even buy a pack of 10 anymore so end up with 20 that I put in the drawer and say I’ll keep for those occasions when I just want one, but inevitably I smoke them all in a few days! & Yeah vaping is slightly less addictive but the fact that you can vape 24/7 means I end up doing it more:rofl:
Coffee is another addiction for me I don’t think I can even think about stopping that right now!
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Yep that’s me too! 
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Hi @anon86198612 sounds like a lot of pressure on yourself! Willpower is a finite resource. My latest helpful tool is that in the morning I snack on loads of fruit (with some peanut butter). Because apples pears and bananas have natural sugar and a bit of peanut butter feels yummy - it’s really helping my red wine cravings and generally with binging because I’m not experiencing a feeling of starving myself of alcohol and sugar because I’m having the sugar first thing. Plus I then have already had 3 pieces of fruit by lunch time it generally is helpful in continuing the day well
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Checking in day 6 sober and Friday !
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