Much Thanks 
Thank you Joešš¾
Tomorrow will be 9 months clean. I had an extremely close call last night, and while exhausted, Iām much better today. Going to start checking in daily on here.
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Congrats on the milestone!!
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Good job! 
On day four over here. In addition to reading, I have been keeping busy with organizing, purging / making a goodwill pile, and cooking! Just some ideas on staying busy until we find our new routines! Oh, and Seinfeld has been great 
keep on keeping on!
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Checking in: day 17. Im proud of it but today was harder for me than mostā¦just taking it one day at a time
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The shame is hard and it ate me alive for years. It definitely didnāt all go away at once, time definitely did not heal it. It took me patience, self compassion, and willingness to look at my shit with an open-mind and an open-heart. I often say to myself āYou were doing the best with what you had in that moment.ā That is my truthā¦ I did not have much to work with for many years but I was still trying my fucking best. I know it didnāt look like it to some, including myself, at the time but now I can see it. I was just trying to survive.
It will get easier. Hang on as tight as you can, scream as much as you need to and buy as many bags of those chocolate chips as you want. Just donāt pick up, youāre strong and youāre doing a super job.
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Evening checkin
Day 21
Evening has been OK I guess. Canāt wait to shower n sleep. Hubby told me that he got a text shortly after he got home from work from our old dealer from way back when. We hadnāt heard from him in years and he said he was back in business and would drop off 100 for us for free. I didnāt know this. He told me that he texted him back and said he wasnāt doing that anymore and then deleted his number. Wow! This was impressive. I mean he didnāt even ask me or tell me about it. I told him that I was proud of him. And that I was proud of myself and how far we have come. I donāt even want to be near that shit anymore. He has a hard time seeing how things have improved since we quit 3 weeks ago (well I made the decision to quit for me and then he sort of came along for the ride lol). But Iāve been telling him the positive things Iām seeing. Heās just naturally negative so his brain isnāt wired to see the positive or the things to be grateful for. Told him itāll take time to get things back on track (getting stuff out of pawn and paying more things off). Anyway, Iām proud of him. And me too! Hope everyone is having a good night!
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Congratulations Des.
So happy for you getting that 60 days AF.
Great job!
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Thank you ā¦ yes I too am not sure if Iām quite ready to start the steps ā¦ I do enjoy the NA and AA zoom meetings and just listening and hearing other people I can identify with keeps me sober and motivated. I do want to start going back to in-person meetings i have to try to find a way to fit it into my schedule so that I can get a feel for someone in person as far as finding a sponsor goes. My life has been so much better being sober i may not have everything i want yet but Iām working with a clear mind, thinking with a clear mind and sticking up for myself and I love how that feels. Today is day 51 and Iām grateful.
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Congrats on Day 80 
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Day 4 check in. Ah that glorious feeling of when you can feel the poison is leaving your body but that dread of the cravings coming later in the day - when the wine witch comes to visit at around 4pm - yesterday she came with VENGEANCE God I hate her. I was tempted but my lovely boyfriend noticed and he gently rubbed my back and said come babe weāre doing this together (he does not have a problem at all - heās an annoyingly normal very occasional drinker - the kind we look at like the the crazy ones) Anyway got to bed without a drink and today when wine bitch sorry witch calls I will do another check in - I feel reaching out at trigger time will help. Thank you for this platform have a sober lovely day 
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Congrats on your 4 days Misswest.
Good plan, checking in when you hear the wine bitch screaming. That first week is tough. Just for today. ODAAT
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- Coffee. One day off work. Therapy day. But just got a message that therapy is off for today. Almost feels like they do this on purpose. Of course they donāt. Just need to refocus myself and my day for a bit. By having another cup of coffee to start with. My sobriety doesnāt need refocusing. Iāll keep that going. Just for today.
Have as good a Thursday as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean. It helps. Love from Amsterdam and the Passo di Campalongo in 2002. Life is work, just like participating in the Maratona dles Dolomites that year was, but the views and the satisfaction are both huge. Just as long as you actually do the work. ODAAT.
@Lotusflower Huge congrats Des!!! 60 days is awesome!
@Butterflymoonwoman Three weeks already Dana! Yay you!
@Cjp You made it though! Big congrats! One day at a time for all of us. Hugs.
@stopping Huge congrats on 2 years Xander!
@Pica 30 days! Yay! Congrats lady!
@Misswest Youāre totally right checking in helps. We got your back (just like, but not exactly like your bf). Well done, youāve gone to bed a winner.
@cindy Proud of you Cindy. Youāre strong.
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Everybody says it but there really is no other way. Your doing great and well done on your sober days 
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9 months clean today
So proud of myself. It really is just getting through one day at a time and having a solid daily routine that you stick to.
Also having small achievable goals and taking action daily towards those goals, really does help the days add up 
Onto one year nextā¦ 
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3 whole goddam weeks. This girl is getting serious. Remember youāve been here before so no getting cocky, today is just another day 1. 3 weeks though 
nobody said anything about me getting over excited.
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