Congratulations on day 19 Anita.
I use to do the same thing. Cracking open a nice cab and start dinner. I’m our cook. It was a pretty routine thing. When I quit drinking, about the same number of days you have I started taking long hot showers before cooking dinner. I’d get in the hottest possible shower for about a half hour. I shed a lot of tears in those showers. Thinking it isn’t fair. 🥲 Why can’t I drink like a normal person. Because by the end of the night I’d be on my 3rd bottle. Between the hot shower and tears I released all my anger and tension. Then I’d pour myself a big glass of sparkling water in my favorite wine glass. And cook a really nice meal. I spent a lot of my first couple of months in the shower or angrily power walking Hang in there. Deep breathe. You’re doing this.
Great job on your second day Dan.
Thought I’d tag you in on this one to Frog. @DTC52
Checking in day 59. Struggling this past week. Emotions are at and all time high and i cant seem to look away from things happening at my workplace lately. I had to escalade a situation that has been going on within my team today. Not sure how it will effect my job in the future but it had to be done. I can not look the other way any longer. I know im doing the right thing but it hasnt made it any easier. My boss is quite abusive with our employees and i had 2 call me today in tears after talking with him… It was my final straw. I have seen this and done nothing for far to long. My anxiety is now through the roof. I hate having to be the one to step up but someone has to. Im worried about how ill be treated in the future as i went to the top with this today. Its going to be a long night for me and am worried about the confrontation tomorrow. Why do i have always have to be the one to step up for the right thing.? . anyway still sober and pushing through. Looking forward to a milestone tomorrow and that has given me strength today.
I always get goosebumps at meetings when someone takes a 30 day key fob (NA). I remember clearly the first thirty days of my journey and how relentless my addict had been. It was hard. The first 10 were the worst but that first month wow it was something to really be proud of. At the time I wasn’t in a place mentally to absorb all the hard work I had done I was so focused on just getting through my next day.
Keep on keeping on, 24 at a time. Really happy for you.
I remember that feeling. I am here to tell you that my life has indeed become fun again. My passion for life and everything it offers came alive at about 9 months sober. It was surreal… then from 9 months on its been just experiencing things like they are all brand new.
Living life in our right mind gives us the opportunity to really experience it, all the beauty, all the emotion. If dancing to music and cooking with your husband is what you love to do you will find passion in that again.
Cooking is creative, creative people make it in recovery. Recovery is fun.
45 days sober and feeling great these days I’m eating healthier, working out, reading and keeping myself busy also keeping a Positive Mental Attitude is the key to my sobriety. Hope everyone is having a great night or day where ever you are. Peace
I’m pretty sure I went outside today twice and just screamed. I’m feeling better, fuck what my neighbors think today sorry not sorry…OKAY NO IM SORRY. My body feels better overall I sleep long but I wake up sometimes because of the nightmares or whatever the fuck at this point. My mom stopped by today while I’m struggling she gave me some good food, and that’s just a nice gesture honestly. It’s the shame all the fucking time … all of it… whatever, I think time heals or … ?? As I read here I’m learning that things come back. Some things change just stay sober.
I’ve also developed an addiction to these white chocolate chip toppings. 3 bags in 9 days. I got to get another bag soon.
Hang in there. Deep breathe. You’re doing this.
anyway still sober and pushing through. Looking forward to a milestone tomorrow and that has given me strength today.
