Congratulations on your 900 days Lisa.
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Aww! Thank you, friend!!
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Iām proud of you too; you fight hard and are one tough warrior! 
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@Its_me_Stella congrats on your 800 days and @Lisa07 congrats on your 900 days. Iām so happy for you both!
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Day 168
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@Butterflymoonwoman Thank you 
Iāve said it before but Iāve noticed a pattern where you are posting similar things every Sunday evening after your weekends at work, so it seems like you need to find a way to wind down at the end of the weekends, I canāt say what that might look like for you, but maybe your partner could help out so you donāt have so much to do and can then get your shower and down time earlier in the evening so thereās time to relax a bit more, maybe with some breathing exercises and relaxation/meditation or an evening gym session or something creative. I hope you find your way Your fish are beautiful 
congrats on 3 weeks 
@Hopeful777 thank you so much
@Misokatsu I can relate so much to that about the haircut that it made me laugh, so thank you for that, I really needed it 
@anon52066378 amazing share 
congrats on triple digits 
@liv_m sorry to read this welcome back
@JennyH congrats on 30 days my late Grandma was a Spurs fan, thank you for making me think of her and smile
@Deep thank you so much congrats on getting through your urges
@Annedizzle congrats on your week
@Clarity congrats on progress 
@Miranda congrats on your week keep telling that addict voice ānoā
574 days no alcohol.
39 days no cocaone.
16 days no binge-eating.
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Ugh. It really does feel like I take 10 steps forward then 9 back sometimes. I seriously wish I could take my brain out of my head to get a break from it. I donāt want to use or drink or binge, I just want peace.
I had a voice telling me not to go, from before I even accepted a lift to a different in-person meeting tonight, but I ignored it thinking it was just anxiety over a new place and new people, but I really wish Iād trusted the voice.
As far back as I remember, when Iām around other people, school, family, friends, anywhere and anyone, Iāve had a voice telling me that everyone hates me, that Iām a fkin weirdo, and that I should kill myself, and that voice was with me from 6:40pm, when the other guy who caught a lift got in the manās car, until 10pm when I got home. It was awful in the car, they were talking away like I wasnāt even there, there and back, and no one spoke to me at the meeting. There wasnāt a good vibe in the room at all. It honesty was psychological torture.
I managed to sleep okay, typing that out must have helped. Today I am meeting my friend for coffee and some quick clothes shopping before I come home to call my sponsor. Its the friend that went to prison, he got out on Monday and reached out, Iām not worried because part of is licence is that he is not allowed to drink alcohol or use drugs for 6 months, heās being tested twice a day, so it feels safe.
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Hey Dana,
Thanks and congratulations on day 22!! Youāre getting there and you will succeed. Youāve got there before, just because the counter resets when you relapse it doesnāt mean you start gain, it is a step back on your path, everything you have learnt in your past experiences is still there behind you, it just means that particular path wasnāt the right one. Sometimes you need a step back to see a new path open up.
Youāre a survivor of so much so I know youāll get there, one step, one minute, one hour, one day at a time x
Big hugs to you xx
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I am sorry yesterday was so difficult. Sometimes I feel like that too, and you are definitely not a weirdo. I love reading your thoughts and if people didnāt talk to you then it is their loss as you always have something so full of insight and kindness to say. I wonder whether they were also struggling and that made them quieter? The world is such a strange place now 
I am glad my post about Spurs made you smile. I also have very strong emotions attached to them because of my late Grandad. Seeing my daughter loving football and wearing the Spurs shirts feels like a piece of him is living on In my previous dream job I got to go there with work and talk about collaborating for an oral history project. Here is me at the Bricklayers Arms looking so happy and proud. I was devastated when I had to hand my notice in at that job and I am sure burying all of that led to me drinking more, but the job itself was bad for my health. Working through all that now and can look back on this photo with affection
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Day 24
Another beautiful sober day!
My biggest struggle with staying sober before was my mindset. Every time alcohol was on my mind Iād tell myself ā no you donāt need alcohol. You donāt need that drinkā.
I keep doing that every day. To remind myself.
Now Iām trying to figure out what triggers me the most and how to avoid those triggers.
For me this works. IF I consiously do this every day and express my feelings to people I trust about my drinking problem.
Thank you all!
Have a great sober day!
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1004
Coffee. Iām not bad. Being sober and clean is a huge part of that. Life is still not easy, but it is a hundred times better compared to when I drank, smoked and did all the rest. Never again. Iām thinking about going to the gym before my late shift. Or just relax at home. Will finish coffee and breakfast first.
And hang around here a little bit. Read some stories of all you warriors.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober to begin with or nothing will come of it. Love form Amsterdam. 
@Lisa07 Huge congrats Lisa!!!
@liv_m Congrats on quitting Mel. ODAAT. You know. Success.
@CATMANCAM Youāre not a freak and youāre not alone. Hugs.
@JennyH I always used to love Spurs, my fav English football team since the days of Waddle and Hoddle and Ozzy and Ricky. That love was seriously dented a couple of years ago, during a certain match in Amsterdam that I will not mention (and Iād appreciate it if you wouldnāt either
).@allwomenhere Every day should be Womenās Day, but today itās official. Have a good one all!
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Oh just saw your post about Louise Hay, I may have missed day 1 
but will look into that 
Haha Menno I love todayās pic! That car 
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@Lisa07 and @Its_me_Stella congratulations on 900 & 800 days, the place would not be the same without you both
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436 days
Quick check in as working but to say well done on all your milestones and the hard work we put into odaat.
Have a strong 24 hrs all
@Mno that photo! 
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Love the photo! I really hope today is a good day
And glad you like Spurs in spite of that blip. We are definitely a team of highs and lows, you never know which one will turn up, and we usually end up getting close but throwing it away. All part of the journey with them 
Edit: formatting didnāt work but you get the gist
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Day 574
Some annoyance that a suggestion of mine was casually squashed because I have to āsee to the kidsā. Sometimes I feel sacrifices for the family are unfairly frequent on my side.
My last kindergarten class today. They are used to me now, so lots of random little hands in mine or coming to sit on my knee .
Feeling a bit frustrated, like I want to do more, or change something
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Day 31 here and the sunshine is out, feeling very positive.
Thank you @Mno for the reminder that it is International Womenās day (I forgot as am mostly avoiding the news). I hope all the wonderful women here have a great day. We canāt all change the world but we can make a difference to our own world and that of those close to us
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Day 101
What started as a celebration yesterday of 100 days ended with bereavement, my beloved Chocolate Labrador Clyde passed away after over 14 years of the best companionship a dog can give. Where I crumbled after his sister Bonnie passed in September I was able to be strong yesterday, support my heartbroken children and partner and made it through another day sober.
I hope everyone has a strong 24 hours, love prayers and hugs to you all!
RIP CLYDE!
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My condolences 
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I am so sorry, what a beautiful dog. Looks like he had a very happy life
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