Today is okay so far. Ate another meal. Ran some errands with my grandpa. Only slept about 2 hours so I’m exhausted. Got some pretty cool shoes at least
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Cool shoes! Sounds like a pretty good day. Hope you get to have some rest. 
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821 days without gaming
2 days without streaming services/video platforms
I can’t sleep. I need YouTube. I need dopamine… Scrap that, I need my body to get used to a smaller dopamine intake. I just had to watch YouTube shorts which are basically TikTok. Constant dopamine boosts. And now I have to withdraw. Yay.
Today was an okay day. Got out of bed pretty early. Went to the gym. Then work from 13:00(1:00 PM) to 22:00(10:00 PM). Then build a new Lego set.
Tomorrow I have to work 7:00(7:00 AM) to 17:00(5:00 PM). So I have to get enough rest.
After that I’m going to my dad. Which has been a huge gift from sobriety. He still thinks he did nothing wrong despite all his children have been suicidal because of him. But I can rationalize his behaviour now. He was raised by bigots in a bigot town where he wasn’t subjected to modern views. He is not smart enough to form his own opinions. He certainly has autism. And I think PTSD as well. The latter could explain his unexpected aggressive outbursts and him not remembering any of it. And there’s probably something that prevents him from feeling guilt.
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Just hoping on to say good bye to everyone here.
I have been highly triggered by a photo on here , I messaged the mods, they did nothing.
They are supposed to be supportive. I was not supported by something that I voiced to be highly triggering.
So I’m parting ways.
Take care every one.
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Love the shoes!!!
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Thanks! I hope you’re doing well 
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Me too. I really need some sleep. I hope you’re doing well
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I am overall I guess. I can’t really complain. Today I’m a little on edge but just trying to keep myself distracted with stuff. U?
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Checking in
Day 11
Well, my plan to make my amend sort of got pushed back potentially. My coworker was moved to another client (in the same house but in the bottom unit, so we lost likely will not cross paths). Not sure what the reasons where behind her being moved. But if I see her, I will chat with her. I am fighting the urge to use abit. It’s making me exhausted mentally. But I’ll keep at it. Playing the tape to the end. I’ve been eating non-stop 
Grrr. This always happens when I get urges to use. I just eat. Trying to eat healthier stuff tho. Hubby is still playing COD. And I’m relaxing. Probably will do some color by number or crosswords or something 
hope everyone is doing well!
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90 days was a huge milestone for me. Major congrats to you!
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This breaks my heart, April. I would love to stay in touch with you if you have an email you could DM me.
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Hey April, I hope u will be okay tonight. If ur still reading messages on here, plz reach out to someone if u are struggling
hugs
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April, we can’t remove every trigger from the forum. They come in all shapes and sizes here and in real life. The only way to avoid them is to ban all pics from the forum and that’s not a possibility. We can’t make everyone happy. We all have or had triggers and learning to cope with them is key. We do our best as mods to keep the forum flowing and reinforcing the rules. I’m sorry to see you leave but I sure hope you would reconsider.
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WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
Congrats on your 1 year clean from Xanax!!!
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9 months Meth FREE!!!
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But they are covered?
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…aaaand the trigger wins.
You are more powerful than an image.
Don’t give it even more power by leaving
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I STILL don’t even know and I hate waiting on stuff. The pharmacist told me to bring the card in when I go to pick them up. And if they are covered, great! If not… they go on the shelf lol I did try to call the benefit place to ask about what drugs are covered. But for some reason they had problems with their computers. I am just hoping that they are!
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Have faith, I do. 
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Thank u 
How r u doing?
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All good here ^^
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