Congrats on your 40 days
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Thank you so much! Iām trying this ābeing really honest w/myselfā approach this time around w/ my whole journey and itās been a real nice change of pace so far. Still rough patches for sure but itās been paying off already which is nice. Also having this forum has been really helpful i think. Just that whole accountability thing I guess? Itās new to me but I like it lol 
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@anon53116147 Im glad youāre talking about how you feel. I care for you. I want you to live and feel good about what you can. Lots of toxicity around you in your life time. It hurts. Wishing you strength to focus on the good around you and let it carry you and give you even more strength. You are cared about. Youāre a good person. Keep that thought front and center.
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Evening of day 3. Handled mums, grocery and tobacco shop for her (I have to walk passed the bottle shop) and my young one is at his dads.
I had a few āhey I feel good Iāll just get a beer or light wineā but I couldnāt find any happiness or potential enjoyment in drinking at home alone and feeling like shit and bloated in the morning.
Having some dinner, coconut water and watching a little Netflix
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Day 194 checking in odaat 
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Day 119 Check in wishing everyone the best on this Sunday. Peace to All, Take Care and Stay Safe. One!
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Day 169.
4am ish.
I woke up with bad upper back pain. Not sure if slept wrong or what. Tried a few stretches, massaging it, pills, ice. Nothing is helping. If yall know of any good upper back stretch vids, shoot em my way. Thanks.
Happy Sunday!
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Hey all, checking in on day 658. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Yay!!! The stress of hosting and cooking knowing everyone else is drinking would have sent me too. So proud of you for checking in, and resisting the urge!! 
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Youāre here being open, giving support to others, doing your best in sobriety- that doesnāt sound worthless to me. You matter. You. Matter. 
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Amazing to wake up and read this. I like that you wrote about it as it was actually going down the drain. Well done!!
You stayed sober and showed up for yourself in a seriously triggering situation. Its definitely your right to set boundaries around alcohol in your homeā¦ especially if youre cooking a whole meal! 
Hope todays another strong day, we can do it sober!
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@anon53116147 Sorry to hear u are having such a hard time. Sounds like ur mum is overreacting over some household stuff, which happens to us all, donāt take it to heart. And ur ex said awful things, but partners can say bad things, especially in the heat of the moment or at the end of a relationship. Focus on the good things, the improvements.
@Fargesia How terrible and heartbreaking. I donāt know what to say
Day 600
Very long lunch and coffee with friends, came home in time to eat the dinner my husband made, then jumped on aa meeting, that was longer than usual too. Husband definitely did his bit with the kids today.
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Aww Mike, you are way too hard on yourself. I know how it is though when itās hitting you. Did you say youāre seeing a therapist? Or a counselorā¦ Life is so hard these days and especially if we werenāt on solid ground prior to the shit show the last few years.
If I get overwhelmed I have to say, āput out the biggest fire firstā; which is what definitely needs to be addressed first to start the getting out of your funk place.
I know you were going to meetings before but maybe try again? You need good people surrounding you rn and sometimes our family is not on the same page so you need to get out of their orbit more.
Clean the rooms, read, go for a walkā¦ maybe think of someday getting your own placeā¦ youāre not a loser, stupid or any of those things. Iāve known you here for a few years and I feel like I know you a bitā¦ you do need to build self confidence and not the outside world dictate how youāre gonna feel any given moment. This being said from someone with years on you so Iāve learned the hard way too!
Hugs sweetie
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Day 92. I run everyday now and exercise is key to me being in a good place. Iād recommend exercising to anyone in recovery, mentally it gives me rewards for the achievements i make, and that builds self confidence. Away from the obvious physical benefits, exercise takes away the urge for bad food and alcohol also for meā¦ keep going guys and girls 
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Hey man donāt let peoples hate, take a toll on you, haters gonna hate thatās what they do.
Being in the music industry for most of my life with hiatuses I dealt with it as well, do a show or album and you have the ones who are like wow I dig it, others will find a way to nit pick everything, not everything is for everyone and thatās ok, itās practicing acceptance. Played many shows where the only people who showed up where a handful of friends. The rest where there cause well itās their Friday night watering hole.
In general, Look at your own progress look at your first tatts, and your more recent ones. You can see how far you come and how much farther you can go, worse case you build a portfolio and get a apprenticeship, boom. Winning.
Look at your famous tattoo artists, Kate Von D, Oliver Peck, Chris Nunez, do you think they picked up a gun and were just perfect, hell no, they took years to practice their craft, develop their style and master their craft, as time goes on your just mastering your craft. And no tattoo is perfect, thereās always that blowout here and there. Missed line, line thatās a little thicker than the rest. As you grow you learn to get your settings dialed in, your technique will come with time.
As far as family, meh I still struggle with things as well, I started making do it my fucking self lists to get shit done. And check it off, it keeps me accountable everyday and reminds me when I go off the reservations that I got shit to do, and it pulls me back.
Your kids mom sounds a lot how mine was, she looked for every reason to pick at me for something a mere instigating of sorts, as well as a way to try and control me, when it stopped working she lost interest in it.
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Checking in weekly here. Back to school after the break was fine. I got in for swimming four days in the past week. Those endorphins are the best, just wish I had more time during the day for that. But that thing called work keeps getting in the way. Hehehe
Teachers in the last quarter of school have so much to do! State testing, scheduling for summer school, scheduling for next year. I feel myself winding up with tension and I must remember to calm the f*ck down. Good grief. Itās that high tension that I was medicating with the wine, only to make my mornings miserable.
My mornings are great, but dang, Iād like to reduce that tension. Almost all of that is self-induced as I have the resources to do the job.
Repeated snow and dreary days this week have not helped either. Iām any event, spring and summer are on the way and I will be fine.
I wish you all peace!
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So beautiful. Totally agree with you @Mno. Itās devastating 
. Iād go nuts if Iād let myself but instead try to be grateful and live my sober life the best way I can. Have a great day there pal 
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Hey everyone! Day 5 here. Avoided getting anything last night. It was a good idea to distract myself. Thanks everyone.
@Miranda Iām glad you were able to stay strong. I always love seeing your posts. Last night it helped me to keep going. I appreciate it. Stay strong!
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Checking in day 14
Fight with my husband, gaslighting me. Told me I was mean when I was drinking and even meaner now that Iām not. Heās literally just trying to tear me down, cause thatās what he does if I make any valid points and catch him in his lies. Heās the least supportive person and feels threatened when Iām doing well with something, whether it be my job, friendships or sobriety.
Butā¦ā¦ breathing through it. I know Iāve accomplished something amazing with 2 weeks! So although I have some very choice words for him at the moment, Iām going to be grateful for me and for TS.
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