Hello all, 8 19/32 M AF
Anxiety is visiting today as my disability insurance is ending in less than 2 months.
And my mental heath feels week (uncertainty) thinking that posts on talking sober are a messege directed to mainly for me.
Not going to drink over this, last thing I would need. I will use compassionate tools as I go for a mindful walk ~ Tonglen and get out of the me, mine and I mentality.
Ty Tao for humility and providing options.
Grateful for love and acceptance and a sober Path! đ§ââ:heart:
Guests are all gone. Thereâs a bit of white wine left in the bottle, but Iâm so happy I didnât have any. I think next time I just wonât allow it in my house. Itâs too stressful. I told my husband if itâs there tomorrow i will probably drink it so we need to pour it out. Heâs supportive of that (he had a glass, but he prefers beer anyway so he doesnât really care)
Down the sink⌠Itâs going now. Ok itâs gone
Love you guysâ¤ď¸ thanks everyone and @Minatasha especially for encouraging me to post about pouring it out. It makes me feel sooooo good to dump it!!!
I love this!!! Thanks for sharing! Itâs amazing what happens when we arenât under the influence if a substance. Things can be hard sometimes⌠change is hard and sometimes uncomfortable, but itâs amazing what recovery can do for us! Ur pup are cute im trying to get into tea more. What do u like for tea?
Day 2 is almost over and thankful for being here. Spending a Friday night studying and watching random stuff on YouTube instead of getting high.
I almost dabbled with drinking a couple seltzer things but was real with myself after my sister said âbe carefulâ, and decided I should probably not replace weed with alcohol as I currently already know myself at least well enough to realize itâs a lie and that would basically be making deals with the devil, so to speak.
Plus I already did the alcoholic quest a decade ago and ran from it so why go back? Remembering my journey tonight. Remembering my promises.
Thanks for having me and hope everyone has a great evening
Really hope youâre feeling a bit better. Sorry to hear youâre going through all of that. Itâs really hard when people are constantly putting us down to feel good about ourselves. Iâm sure you probably already tried, but I do find positive affirmations really helpful. I Listen to them on YouTube and for a while I was listening to them every night before bed and they seemed to make a big difference. Actually, thanks for your post because it reminded me that I need to start doing that again.
Iâm really glad that you have the girls too and that youâre here sharing your feelings and thoughts with all of us.
It doesnât only help you when you share, but it helps so many other people too.
Thanks Mike. Thinking of you.
@anon53116147 Keep ur head up, bro. Ppl always find ways to hate. Take care of your kiddos, they need you.
@Miranda proud of ya. Not gonna lie, never been a fan of wine . Keep it going. Youâre back on track!
@Butterflymoonwoman Those views tho . Itâs good to have that communication with your husband. Somethin the wifey and I shouldâve done a long time ago.
Worst case scenario happened for my crew - Odessa has been bombed. The safe place some housed their families.
Itâs hard, seeing their fear and pain in their eyes.
1030
Coffee and breakfast. Everything pales in comparison to the images coming out of Ukraine this morning. Itâs no use comparing and Iâm not going to. I will continue to try and live my best life possible. A big part of that is remaining sober and clean and continue on this road of discovery of my true self and my true life. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam.
Congratulations on 40 days @Stormy Sorry to hear you have Covid, sounds horrible. Hope you recover quickly.
Well done @Miranda You should be so proud of yourself
Sorry it is so hard at the moment @anon53116147 What you have had to listen to over the years is awful. That really isnât on you, but on them. From what I have seen of you on here, you are a much loved and appreciated memberâŚtalented, kind, great Dad (your stories about your parenting are always adorable), attractive, hard worker. You have so much going for you, try not to let other peopleâs issues affect you. For years people told me I thought I was better than them. I genuinely never did and had no idea why they said it. Must have had one of those faces/way of talking Ultimately though, that must have been about them as I know I didnât think that way. Take good care and try to protect yourself.
I canât even comprehend how horrible that is for them. What a wonderful thing you did though. At times like this there is such a stark contrast between the good people are capable of and the evil.
I think with things like this, my personal take is this is affecting you directly. You arenât making a political comment, just sharing the very real impact of war. I would encourage you to share as a way of processing it in a healthy way.
Thank you so much! Iâm trying this âbeing really honest w/myselfâ approach this time around w/ my whole journey and itâs been a real nice change of pace so far. Still rough patches for sure but itâs been paying off already which is nice. Also having this forum has been really helpful i think. Just that whole accountability thing I guess? Itâs new to me but I like it lol
@anon53116147 Im glad youâre talking about how you feel. I care for you. I want you to live and feel good about what you can. Lots of toxicity around you in your life time. It hurts. Wishing you strength to focus on the good around you and let it carry you and give you even more strength. You are cared about. Youâre a good person. Keep that thought front and center.
Evening of day 3. Handled mums, grocery and tobacco shop for her (I have to walk passed the bottle shop) and my young one is at his dads.
I had a few âhey I feel good Iâll just get a beer or light wineâ but I couldnât find any happiness or potential enjoyment in drinking at home alone and feeling like shit and bloated in the morning.
Having some dinner, coconut water and watching a little Netflix
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im trying to get into tea more. What do u like for tea?
hugs!!
. Keep it going. Youâre back on track!
. Itâs good to have that communication with your husband. Somethin the wifey and I shouldâve done a long time ago.
Ultimately though, that must have been about them as I know I didnât think that way. Take good care and try to protect yourself.