I wish you well and have you in my prayers 
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That doesnāt sound too bad Anne.
The body is an amazing healer when we quit poisoning it. It took me awhile to get my blood pressure back down in normal range. Since I quit drinking I sure donāt miss those heart palpitations at bedtime. And some of my liver functions were high but eventually they leveled out and are back to normal. Itās good you got a baseline and youāre getting yourself fixed back up.
I find guided meditations on a regular basis helped a lot getting my blood pressure back where it should be. I still do guided meditations all the time. Just for overall physical and mental health. So many apps out there. Great benefits. I know many of us use Insight Timer. Highly recommend it.
Good for you getting the doctor thing going. I did the same thing when I stopped drinking.
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Day 594
Tired. Got thrown into some tough situations this weekend and Iām pretty exhausted. Photo from some fun snowshoeing though.
Starting my work week today and my brain does not want to focus. Have been trying to stop to stretch and meditate through the day on my breaks and thatās helped a bit.
Received some good news today that my first appointment to start seeing a new therapist was confirmed. 3 weeks out but Iām oddly excited. Iāve never been excited for therapy before and I donāt want to get my hopes or expectations up too high but I love the vibes of this therapist and their whole office/the way their intake paperwork and questions went down.
Going to have some tea and start winding down for bed now. Sending love to you all!
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Thanks girl 
i have done very diff ones. They all turn out as they are supposed to I guess for that person. Itās sort of weirdā¦ I can get a sense (most times) from a person and really fit the design and charms and whatnot to that person. I mean I always ask for like a theme or fav colors etc but I just turn on some spiritual music and zone out. I usually smudge them too with sage and set intentions for them, unless of course I am not asked to. Some people like to do that themselves which is cool too! I have never thought of lights!!! O.M.Gā¦ thatās so creative!!! Would u mind taking pics of urs when they are personalized? If not thatās okay of course. But how cool is that?!
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Yes definitely il send you before and after pics in a week approximately.
Thats special the way you make them, and set intentions.
Its so spiritual i love that.
You sense the persons energy and it comes out in your art thats so cool!!
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Sure that would be amazing! Thanks for the future dreamcatcher pics lol And thank u for the beautiful compliments and kind words also 
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Coming from someone who let alcoholic hepatitis turn into liver cirrhosis, you most likely stopped drinking in time. The most important thing to do now is staaaaaaay sober. Good looks on getting an ultrasound but try and get those liver enzymes normalized. Do this by not picking up-even if itās not life or deathā¦look at it as you are stopping something from furthering you to a point of no return. I honestly wish I had gotten that advice and that Iād listened. Eat healthy. Drink water. Exercise regularly. Stay away from salty or fried foods. Wishing you the best. Please, keep me posted.
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29**
Feeling good right now but very tired. Sort of struggling with finding Balance too. I just seem to focus on 1 area way too much, like overkilling it to an extent lol. It makes me abit nervous. Iāve been thinking about starting to find balance in life but Iām worried about recovery sort of taking a backseatā¦ and that canāt happen. I have never gotten this far since I was 24 (when I ended my 3 year streak and went back out for 13 yearsā¦ good God 
). Anyway, I want balance bcuz that makes me feel good and it makes me feel like im taking care of my whole selfā¦ but this past 29 days has been all recovery related, building habits with prayer and meditation, and seeing what works to get thru cravings and intense emotion. Thats totally fine for sure! Im definitely not complaining bcuz it has got me 29 days clean and sober. Sure, itās been alot of work. I have gained weight a bit bcuz instead of hitting the gym at 530am, im meditating and praying at that time instead. And yes the weight bothers me. But Iād rather be clean right now. The rest will follow, is what I am telling myself. Anyway lol Whenever I try to balance my life, something gives and I start not having time for other things. So I guess I purposely havenāt been trying to find balance bcuz Iām scared to relapseā¦ thatās the truth. But oddly enough tho, I am actually happier with prayer and meditation. Maybe I have been trying to fill this āvoidā with outside stuff and it has just left me disappointed. Idk. Itās too late to think about all this haha. Gonna shower soon n head to bed Thanks TS!!!
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Im so proud of your 29 days!!
You have put all the effort in and you are such a strong person, i like reading your posts and updates they can be so inspiring and helpfull in ways i cant express, every day i see how hard you go making sure you get through and you are putting in 100% and its working.
Truly i am so happy for you to make it this far.
Your right dont worry about the weight everything will fall into place 
X
A massive congratulations on your 29 days x
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Thanks @Miranda , well said about supporting each other like a family and yes your are absolutely right we all have same struggle and i see now all of you are becoming my greatest support in this fight,
These habits which i mentioned were always part of me before i lost track because of addiction but one thing is worthwhile to mention here is no matter how many months i skip these once i start i can continue from where i left this is what my version of āEfforts never go wastedā
And yes as you mention right now the top priority is being sober 
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@anon53116147 thank you 
youāre right, Iām doing stuff for me that I like, so it is all good. Iām glad the experience got you to where you are now too 
congrats on 5 months and for getting on the treadmill 
@icebear rotten day indeed! Iām sorry 
I really hope today was better 
sending strength 
@Kareness I hope the diagnosis helps to get your son some support in place in school sorry for the work stress, sending strength
@WitchyKitty most helpful advice that worked for me personally for sleep, was to go to bed wake up at the same time every day. I hope you find something that works for you
@SadMemeQueen Iām glad you will have a good doctor going forwards, and that you are getting your problem investigated, I hope it will lead to a solution I hope therapy went well today too
@PaigeTurner Iām so glad you and your friend got home okay after all that! good luck for your interview 
congrats on 4 months PS thank you I did manage to go
@Jonachav123 congrats on your month
@Wakikki congrats on 75 days
@NEWLIFE22S congrats on double digits
@Rockstar24777 happy birthday! 
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@Tito23 congrats on triple digits 
@Minatasha congrats on double digits
@GOKU2019 congrats on 150 days
@Butterflymoonwoman that dream catcher is looking stunning 
@Annedizzle Iām glad your results werenāt too concerning and that some changes will help good luck for the ultrasound
@shilohRica congrats on 75 days
@anon9289869 that photo is stunning 
sorry about the stressful situations 
but congrats on securing therapy
582 days no alcohol.
47 days no cocaine.
24 days no binge-eating.
Fell asleep around midnight, part-way through catching up, itās now 5am here in the UK.
Went back into town today, exchanged some clothes for a smaller size (ikr 
) and also got both of my nostrils repierced.
So proud of myself, despite major anxiety over seeing my ex-sponsor, I managed to psych myself up to shower and deep-breathe my way through getting to the meeting last night, mainly because it was my new friend/potential new sponsor doing the main share, but I still wanted to go before I knew that, but with the level of anxiety I was feeling I didnāt think Iād manage to shower, let alone get to the meeting. Iām so glad I went, my ex-sponsor wasnāt even there! I believe my higher power must have been instrumental in this somehow.
I reflected on whether I was feeling inner turmoil, and when I looked within, I realised that itās not inner turmoil that Iām experiencing, driving me to change myself externally, with piercings and tattoos, infact it is inner strength , I have spent so long hiding my true self, conforming more and more to fit into societies standards of ānormalityā to avoid receiving abuse (I received it anyway), but now it seems I am embracing my inner weirdo! 
He deserves to be free after me repeatedly locking him back into a cage, out of fear, trying to protect myself from further rejection, but since I am rejected anyway, #fuckfear!
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Coffee. My weekend has arrived. Local elections here today. I know how little -if any- influence I have, but Iām going to vote anyway. Because I can. And because there actually is something to choose. Because Iām not with my back against the wall. Instead Iām here sitting at my desk, toasty and cosy, looking out at the early spring sun, and thinking what I will do with my free day besides going to the polling station. Going out and enjoy some sunshine, thatās something Iāll do for sure. Sober and clean.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing would come of it. Love from Amsterdam.
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Day 176 checking in we keep moving forward to a Better life odaat
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Day 582
Cream-crackered! Spent an hour swimming this morning, and the pool is a 25 min bike ride away, then this afternoon went for long walk with the husband. Went to several second hand shops and found two pairs of trousers that fit, a miracle!
Made a nice bean casserole for dinner for us, and potato wedges and fish fries for the kids. Going to read more of my book and sleep early.
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Day 69 AF
Couple of pretty ordinary days but still trudging on.
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Sounds awesome fleur. Whatās cream crackered?
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Yeah, cockney rhyming slang, for already UK slang.
https://www.ruf.rice.edu/~kemmer/Words04/usage/slang_cockney.html
Edit - I know u know UK slang @BroccoliHighKicks that explanation was for @anon53116147
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Checking in day 1021 sober
Been busy with life. Still doing my assertive communication workshop plus started yoga class this week.
Things have been getting worse with my eldest son and his mental health. His psychiatrist, last week, suggested TMS therapy. The idea initially freaked us both out but after alot of reading and a second opinion, he has decided to go ahead with it.
It involves daily treatment for 6 weeks which is a big commitment (for both my son and I, as I will have to somehow juggle the daily 2 hour drive for 5 weeks straight ontop of everything else) Am feeling so damn nervous for my son but hoping and praying this will be the light at the end of what has been an extremely dark and rollercoaster-esque tunnelā¦
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