Haaaaaa. I love that pic… that’s bad ass 
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I’m struggling just a little bit right now but I’m trying to read back on all the things I have said to other people today when they’ve said they were struggling. Why is it so much easier to say it to someone else than to say it to yourself? I’ve been doing an awesome job! I’m really proud of myself for making it 16 days. I’m just exhausted right now but having a drink isn’t going to fix it. There’s a few goals that I set today that I may not do and I’m going to let that go which is really hard for me. I am also really proud of myself for asking for what I want (and need) a little bit more and for being more confident in just being myself and not being so worried what other people think. There was a circumstance at work and I was nervous to speak my mind but I thought…" I’m just going to go ahead and be true to myself" and I’m so glad I did because I got 100% backed up with support. I honestly thought it could have gone either way but I’m trusting my gut more and not second-guessing myself. I’m feeling more confident because of my Sobriety. I’m liking myself a lot more so I’m able to trust myself and be myself instead of thinking I should be somebody else. Thanks for listening and I know I can beat this craving.
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Thanks Kevin!!! 
much much appreciated
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Happy birthday!!!
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Checking in
Day30
Had a nice day 
Pretty relaxing. Had a loaded poutine for supper, finished the dreamcatcher I had been working on, and now relaxing having a snack before doing self care. Thank you everyone for the congratulations. 1 month is a pretty big accomplishment for me. I’ve been on TS for just over 2 years and couldn’t get past 3 days for the life of me. Now I’m working my way up to 2 months… 24 hours at a time. Here is the completed dreamcatcher
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Thanks Mark!!! Hope ur day was good and work is going well 
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Pretty good. Job goes well, but my feet hurt at the end of the day. I’m pretty blessed if that’s my only complaint. 
Temptation came with my first paycheck, but I’m hanging in there.
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That’s beautiful Dana.
So cool.
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Your dream catcher is stunning. What a wonderful tribute to your 1 month.
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Glad you’re here with us!!!
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Congrats on your 30 days!
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Checking in 8 M clean and sober. Gratefully looking forward to another 24 
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Just wanted to check in, woke up from a terrible dream thought I actually relapsed. It’s 135 in the morning. The day was good yesterday, but man it turned so fast went for a walk with the girls both fighting over which way to go one is crying the other running ahead. The other staying back and acting like she’s gonna run off if she doesn’t get her way. Still went to the store and got them snacks they were good and said thank you to the cashier but I was just off after that, ex keeps thinking I’m just this built in take the girls for her everyday and schedules me to take the girls for her every day on her days and I can’t schedule any tattoos. It’s stressing me out bc come on this was my dream. Yes I wanted to help with the girls but at a certain point there comes boundaries where I need to not be taken advantage of and even on the days where she has the girls she doesn’t seem to want to take them she will have them for a couple hours and let the girls call me asking if they can come back over. I love my girls so much and I try not to complain about it, but like they ask to call mommy and go over there all the time, I redirect and figure stuff out not to bug her. Well I relayed this to her in a nice way and she shows my mom which somehow it irritates my mom which turns into a argument and idk why but my mom decided to say to me just go back to using then and honestly that’s what hurt the most. Like it was a instant yeah? You want me to go back to using I fucken will which is just self pitty but yet it broke me so much inside and me feel like I am the nothing whether I’m sober or fucking using. I couldn’t stop thinking about getting some shit after that. I’m still really out of it even after sleeping. Idk I just feel like I’m such a fucked up failure and I’m trying not to sit in this ego and self pitty and see all I have accomplished. Idk much love
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Day 1234
How bout that.
I’m tapping in tonight BECAUSE I can see that I’ve been avoiding TS. I tend to slide back into the shadows when I feel like I have nothing to offer or no more energy to give. Sometimes intentionally but mostly not. Mostly I’m just inundated with all the things I have to do in my new post-prison life.
March 18th will be one month since I left the camp (where I was housed as an inmate firefighter.)
Today I have an incredible list of people and things to be grateful for. I have every excuse a person could need to embrace faith and move forward with optimism and yet, I ache.
I’m sore in the chest and I don’t know why. My heart feels like a cinder block. It feels like I’m sad, like grieving.
Much like the soreness our muscles feel, while they rebuild tissue, I think my heart is recuperating from all the work it’s been doing. I am at a wonderful place in my life but it’s heavy and unwieldy sometimes and it makes me feel alone - even when I’m with those who love me.
What I’ve learned through sobriety is that when I feel weak and vulnerable and emotionally out of control, THAT’S when I need to fall back on my program. When I want to run away the most, that’s when I HAVE TO lean in. So that’s what this is. I’m tapping in BECAUSE I don’t want to.
I’m leaning on you guys because when my feelings don’t make sense and I’m out of control I have to talk about it and share it. Otherwise I’m just saving it all up until I have enough pain and anger inside to justify a relapse, or worse. That’s a bad look for me. I don’t need to be that way anymore.
I’m grateful for you guys everyday; even on the days I don’t show up. I love my life and I love being sober and showing up for it. Even when I don’t want to. 
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I normally go the same route. Works like a charm.
I’m just out of steam tonight. Spinning too many plates these days. It’s temporary, I’ll let it pass through.
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I can totally relate to that. Now that I have every basic condition from sobriety to medical treatment to reach some kind of a balance, to step forward, I feel buried under all the shit I’ve been going through in the last few years and can’t seem to be able to deal with the opportunity of healing.
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Checking in Happy and Sober.
Have a nice sober day my friends.
@Butterflymoonwoman Congratulations Dana with your 
days of sobriety! a well deserved and amazing milstone. Keep up the good work 
@Caite1025 congrats on your 
days, way to go!
@MrCade Nice numbers! 
congrats! And stay strong
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