Woohooo Jenny 40 days is huge, well done.
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Hi Kat here checking in day 225 meth and alcohol free.
Well it worked folks, I posted here for accountability re attending a Zoom meeting and that helped me stay awake long enough to do the meeting.
Shared in the meeting (and phoned my sponsor) about some using thoughts and addict thoughts Iād been having, relatively minor just fantasizing about cold beer on a patio as the weather has gotten nice. But then saying to myself maybe it would be ok if I only drank with my boyfriendā¦DANGER DANGER.
ā¦so I told my sponsor about it and the meeting, we played the tape forward (1 pint turns into 4 pints turns into vomiting and feeling wretched the next day)ā¦ plus the relapse and loss of my clean timeā¦ cold beer no thank you Iāll have a club soda with lemon!
I had cut my meetings down to about 3 in-person a week but need more, so back to Zoom it is and I will make myself stay awake for them.
I am so happy this time I did what you are supposed to do with using thoughts and called my sponsor and talked about it here and at a meeting. The thoughts lose power just like that. I never did that before and eventually the addict thinking led to relapse.
Happily clean just for today, and I wish you all the same,
Kat
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Congrats to you as well!
Wow! This is so beautiful!
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Checking in on sobriety day 313. Had a great workout this morning. Spending the early afternoon preparing paperwork for my career transition. Softball with my kickass daughter this evening. Have a wonderful day friends. Itās a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Hello guys.
Checking day 4. Gonna have some pizza today.
@SelfLove_42 Hey buddy congrats on 4 months. Really happy for you. And have a good day.
Bye guys and enjoy.
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Checking In
Clean Time: 9 Days
Today I woke up and did my best to give myself the tools to have a good day.
ā¢Had a healthy breakfast.
ā¢Drank my favorite energy drink.
ā¢Meditated.
ā¢Spoke with my recovery coach.
ā¢Made a gratitude list.
ā¢Cleaned my bedroom nicely.
ā¢Now I am eating some grapes as a snack and watching positive videos.
I am going into work early because thatās when I am able to catch a ride. So I will be on time. I am ready to go in, work hard, and ignore the negativity that tends to come with me co-workers. Yesterday and the day before were not great days. I really want for today to be different. 
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I am truly inspired by your desire to get recovery 
every day is a new day to have a fresh outlook! Hard days donāt last, just like cravings, and well anything in life really. Change happens all the time. All u can do is exactly what ur doing! Things will improve for uā¦ u know it 
Hope u have a good day at work 
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I have been focusing on organizing/donating items that I have. It has been keeping me busy but also provides me with joy knowing that the items I am donating are helping someone else who might be down on hard times. Kidsā clothes, shoes, household itemsā¦ these things can really help someone who really needs them. Organizing and cleaning up definitely keeps us busy! Thank you for sharing!
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Good afternoon everyone. Checking in on day 209. Beautiful warm day at 60 with snow still on the ground so enjoying the weather! Hope everyone has a great day!
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Congrats brother. Glad to hear all is going well!
Checking in on day 13 
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I would agree on this āadviceā. I know that I want to be sure Iām hearing consistency each week from my future sponsor, I want to be sure I like what they have and what they say each week. I want to see how others view them and how they interact with people in the rooms.
Its like my interview process.
Food for thoughtā¦
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Checking in
Day31
Feeling SO incredibly tired today. My eyelids feel so heavy. Ughā¦ But I got some things done. Did some running around. Now to clean up abit. Gonna smudge soon and join in on a Full Moon Womanās Teaching zoom mtg. An Elder is speaking on Teachings of the Full Moon. I know some teachings but I love learning about the Aboriginal Culture. There is so much that can be incorporated into my life and into my spiritual Toolkit How is everyone else doing today?
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Day 10
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Iām so sorry that your mom said that to you, what a terrible thing to hear from her. I remember when I was younger and my mom and I used to get into some pretty bad fights. This one night when I was in grade 11 she told me that I should be getting paid by all the guys I was fucking. It broke my heart, I was already suffering so badly by that point and sex had just become a way to escape the hatred I had inside me. Hearing things like that from the women who love us most hurts a fucking lot. I have never forgotten it.
What helps me now get through shit like that Mike is to remember everyone is suffering on some level. Hurt people, hurt people.
Stay strong, you are doing this for you. You deserve to live free from active addiction, fuck what everyone else says or thinks.
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Day 178
Checking in quickly, today is going to be/has been a difficult one.
So close to 6 months.
I have treated myself by buying myself tickets to one of my favorite shows this Saturday, but it remains to be seen if Iāll even be able to attend.
Breathing and hoping for the best, being grateful for the good that I do have.
I hope everyone has a blessed day.
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I have somehow stayed sober through this work week
And i fucked up! Was unnecessarily a dick to my schwurbler transphobic coworker and now I have to apologize to HIM,
Was a dick to another coworker who was being predictably rude and i could have handled it way better,
and busted my third coworkers taillight!! Goddamn.
Its felt like grounds to drink myself to death, which feels petty and small when i type it out like that.
Made it to a meeting last night (not aa)and talked to a couple local sober friends that gave me hope.
They dont know im sober sober yet and i am on day Twelve
Thanks for this space to get my bullshit talked through and put in perspective. Its ok if you laugh at this too.
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