Me too! I didn’t even know I could subscribe. One was for a stock trading app and two were games. I’ve seen them in the past but got 3 at once which was a bit much. I can see how they slip through. Thanks all!
3 Likes
Day 606
Cabin weekend was weird and rough but for different reasons than I was preparing myself for. My life feels like it is trying to upend itself right now. Part of me wants to type out a big thing but trying to find the words for it might break me down further than I can handle in this moment. Maybe tomorrow.
Still sober and grateful for the perspective that has granted me through everything going on right now.
23 Likes
That’s wonderful!!! Congratulations!!!
1 Like
Checking in right before bed. Going back to work tomorrow. Didn’t do anything with my weekend, and trying to convince myself it’s okay to simply relax. Keep feeling like I should’ve done something.
Had a drinking dream last night. I was walking around a city I’d never seen before in real life, and tapped a bottle on the ground with my toe to see if there was anything in it. (This was a habit of mine when I drank) It was about one-quarter full, so I went to find a place to sit down and drink when I found a half-gallon completely full! Never got the chance to actually drink (this happens in all my drinking dreams for some reason).
I don’t read too much into dreams, I know they’re part of the process, but I had a lot of urges going into the weekend.
17 Likes
Day 26 of no self harm.
Sorry I haven’t checked in the last few days. I’ve been extremely lazy about taking care of myself. I haven’t taken any of my meds since Friday. That has screwed me up mentally and physically. I wasn’t planning to check in today but this community helps me a lot and I know I’m not doing myself any favors by staying away from it. This community really helps me keep everything in perspective. I’m gonna start taking my meds again starting tomorrow. I can’t afford a drop in health physically or mentally. I’m just exhausted. Nothing of note has happened over the weekend, just been feeling really low.
Saw my family on Saturday as usual. We went to a family friend’s birthday party. I haven’t been around anyone but my family in at least 3 years. There was about 120 people so it was incredibly overwhelming. I dissociated to the point I blacked out and I don’t remember much of the party. I didn’t drink or anything, I just black out sometimes when I get overwhelmed.
Most of what I remember is being surrounded by family and being completely ignored. All I could think about was how my life makes absolutely no difference to my family (other than my grandpa). Yet I keep sacrificing my health time and time again for them without a second thought.
I just feel so incredibly alone. I know I have people, but I feel alone in everything I do. I am currently not capable of getting better for myself and myself only. I hate myself far too much for that. So I settle for trying to get better for the people I care about. But that seems to be futile lately. I could have all the love in the world and I’d still feel alone. It’s just the way my brain works at the moment. But I have very little support. And only one person who supports me IRL (my grandpa). And he really doesn’t know 90% of what I have and am still currently going through.
I just want it all to be over.
19 Likes
Never worry about being honest with us. The mood isn’t always going to be upbeat, and that’s okay. I am proud of you for being honest with the community. You were sober before and you can get there again.
4 Likes
I know it feels really shitty. I’ve been having a tough weekend too and had to reset my clock. We have to remember how far we made it and remind ourselves we can get back there again. We know what to do. I’m sorry this happened though, I’m still feeling badly about myself too but I’m trying to move forward. We can learn from our decisions and make better ones next time♥️
2 Likes
Great job!
1 Like
1024
Coffee. In a bit of a hurry so no time to catch up with all of you right now. Busy on the thread. Good stuff. I feel the togetherness. I feel together we can beat this. ODAAT.
I’m halfway through my work week. Got a work meeting at the end of the day which is not really something to look forward too but since I’ve become sober and clean and gone into therapy I don’t abhor meetings as bad as I used to do. Another perk from being in recovery.
Have as good a week as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober as otherwise nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam.
@DTC52 Dan and @Miranda What happened happened and I’m glad you’re here now. Onward and upward. It’s good you’re accountable now. Please next time you feel like giving in check in first. We might be able to talk you out of it. Love to you both.
@Sanuk Some real talent there lady! Beautiful stuff!
29 Likes
Sunday night check in.
2 years 12 weeks. Sober AF.
First move last week sober 
7th and 8th trips to airports and flights sober
Side note: One reason I’m sober is because I do believe in God and He gives me so much strength and peace.
Not religion. God.
I’m fascinated by the Sober Atheist Topic. I’ve never known or understood how people can become and stay sober without the help of God. I really didn’t think it was possible. I’m happy to see it is possible. Whatever it takes to become and stay sober, You Fucking Do It!
One thing I do know for sure.
I’m one drink away from never being sober again for the rest of my life.
And that’s a god damn fact right there.
Keep up the good fight everyone.
You’re all worth it.
29 Likes
Congratulations on a little Pdebs, Sarah!!
And I love that 610.
Way to go Mama.
7 Likes
Checking in sober and clean 8 13/32 M AF
Ty Tao for a low stress w/e and a loving Hunny and a sober fellowship here.
Congrats on all the milestones reached!
Have a great week ahead all! 
🧘♂:heart:
20 Likes
Big hugs. You have to remember what other people think of u, is not ur problem. You are worth getting better for yourself.
4 Likes
Day 188 checking in
16 Likes
Yes, you are. Remember many here once felt that way but got better. For themselves, yiurself is all that really matters in recovery.
Take care, you can do this.
3 Likes
3rd tradition in NA says we are nonprofessional so if they are talking about Dr. / Psych meds then they are trying to be professionals. The only thing Na takes a stance on us narcotic medications. Even then only on a cautious basis.
1 Like
Abstinence is used to mean “voluntarily non use of drugs”.
Emphasis on voluntarily. So prescribed use is fine of course, as long as you stick to the prescription.
But I know the feeling. There also is that line where they promiss we will " experience a wide array of different feelings".
Still waiting for that one 
4 Likes
Checking in on an unseasonably cold late march day on sobriety day 324. Getting in an early leg workout today and relaxing with the kiddos on their spring break. Have a great day everyone. It’s a great day to be above ground and sober.
21 Likes
Don’t beat yourself up Dan. Many of us have relapsed. Today is a new day. Today is a great day to start at day 1. But you said it yourself, perhaps you could have come on here for support. The great thing is that this app is global, someone is on all hours of the day/night. Think about how else you can abstain from the first drink you’re tempted next time. You got this. Don’t apologize to us, we’re here to support, never criticize. You. Got. This.
4 Likes
Everything in its right time. Share when/if you feel like sharing. Just know we’re here for when/if you do. Another day sober and that’s a lot to be grateful for 
3 Likes