I did it. One week.
I haven’t been one week sober since 1/8/21. Before that I hadn’t been one week sober since I was pregnant in 2016.
It’s a freezing cold Monday morning. Normally I’d be absolutely dreading the day and work week ahead, blaming Mondays as a whole. But that was only cause I was rocking a solid carryover hangover from at least Wednesday-Sunday. Vowing, this week will be different, but never changing anything.
This time I’m awake. I’m awake to most of my triggers (can never say all), I’m awake to my desire this time to stay sober. I’m awake to my son, my absolute love of my life. And I’m going to continue to be awake, to be sober, to night hide behind the veil of alcohol
Wishing you all the most lovely Monday’s of all. I can learn to embrace a Monday! Who would have thought?!?!
Happy healthy and healing day TS!
Just checking in this morning. Feeling good this morning, took my calm before bed, ended up oversleeping, now i’m at work trying to get myself off to a good start. Have a great day everyone!
I’m on the west coast and woke up early. I think I’ll get an early crack at work from home. I remember how I used to wake up and lie in bed trying to determine how much I had the night before and how hungover I was. So grateful I don’t need to do that now!
It was likely to happen, son with adhd who was on best behaviour on the weekend camp, ran all out of mental energy and had meltdown this afternoon. Thankfully husband was off work so he took son on bike ride for a mood change, and I dealt with daughter’s resentment at what she sees as our special treatment of him. We do our best to be fair, but when one kid has developmental issues, fair does not mean ‘the same’ but she doesn’t get that. I hope we get the balance fairly right. I am sure we aren’t perfect, but hope they both get the message they are loved and valued, but also get some boundaries.
So tough to meet different children’s needs, and be seen to be fair. My two are very different and it often looks like we are placating our youngest more, and accepting different levels of behaviour from her. Even my husband thinks I am too lenient at times. She has sensory issues though and gets so overwhelmed. If you come down hard on her it just escalates. So hard to get the balance.
You handled the meltdown well for your son, and all you can do is keep explaining as you did. She probably knows deep down, but just wanted to feel heard. Sounds like you are doing a great job!
I made 50 days! So pleased, can’t quite believe it.
Checking in on Day 51 and feeling a lot more positive about things. I am only working until Thursday, then have my birthday off and all the following week for a trip to Scotland. Really excited now, was worried I would start planning to drink but this milestone has lifted me. It will be 55 days on my birthday so can’t jeopardise that
Things are good enjoyed a little sleep in on my day off and just about to go apartment hunting. Meeting last night was good I was part of a smaller group that discussed Step 3.
The Basic Text reading on Step 3 described how drugs had permeated all aspects of our lives, had poisoned our hearts and minds, families and jobs, thoughts and emotions. Now I have made a decision to let God into my heart and permeate through my life and let Him work though me. Feels so good.
I truly love you all and hope you have a great clean and sober day!
@JennyH Exactly. When he was little I couldn’t do time out, he got utterly distressed. Tough love just doesn’t work. Congratulations on your 50 days! And wonderful you will soon be celebrating a birthday sober!
Checking in on day 26.
Feeling good although I have a bit of a breakout of pimples to contend with today. My daughter was home from school today with a bad headache. We have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, as she was off school all last week too.
I’ve just made my self a ginger juice and kombucha drink before it’s time to prepare dinner.
Good morning everyone. Checking in with 220 days. Went from raining and 50’s to cold and snow basically overnight! Also around 1am my furnace ran out of fuel due to me not paying close enough attention and a faulty meter. So no heat on the coldest day we’ve had in awhile! A lot on my plate but a very wise person once told me if you have to much on your plate, go get a bigger plate so I’m looking for a buffet platter!
I don’t have much to say as have very different experiences myself, but you were so brave writing that. Please don’t ever feel ashamed of yourself. Sex is one of those things that people don’t really talk about so you think everyone else has it sorted. I have battled my own feelings due to bad past experiences, and honestly we are not alone.
Oh by the way, I still need to apologise for the way I left this forum a while ago.
I was definately on edge back then, feeling unsafe and uncertain but that was all inside myself, not to be attributed to anyone or anything on here.
So apologies for any shitty posts and / or reactions on here and having my entire account deleted.
The above was slowly crawling to the surface and had a hard time with it.
So apologies .
Hello guys. Checking in day 15.
I am taking a week off from the gym to let my body recover and just have some relaxing time.
I also watched the will smith incident. Even though what he did was wrong, i do feel sorry for him. I have read some comments which were negative towards him.
This just shows you that when we are successful, you will get many so call friends and fans but when you are not at your best self and going through a tough time, there is little people that actually support you. Its just sad.
