It’s day 258 for me, and I’m still determined to never drink again. I feel like the universe has been testing me these past couple months… the four deaths in March and my father-in-law being diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic cancer. It’s been a lot and I find myself dissociating often. I keep kicking into survival mode, and today I actually thought about drinking. I won’t. I’m just exhausted from being awake for nearly 46 hours. My father-in-law passed very peacefully last night. I’m grateful he’s no longer in pain, and our healing can begin. Everyone is grieving healthily, and I’m thankful for that. My husband is incredibly sad and it will take some love and time for that to ease, but I will be here, sober and present and aware, to support him.
I’m grateful for this place and the beautiful people who’ve made time to support me. I’m pretty sure you have no idea how much y’all’s kindness means to me. When I feel alone, I know I can come here and immediately be surrounded. Thank y’all so much.
Hello my amazing ST peeps! Well I have put y’all on this new phone so I’ll be checking in and interacting waayyy more now!!! 119 days AF !!!
ODAT is the daily reminder for myself. Life is good and couldn’t be happier send positive energy!
Thank you, that is really helpful. I think it is because I feel like I have been on this journey for months and the counter doesn’t reflect that at all. You are absolutely right.
Of course. I would feel the same if I had to reset.
But it indeed doesn’t reflect our recovery time.
Those months aren’t gone, they are still there as months in which you worked toward sobriety.
As for the counter, no matter how long we are clean - we are all just one mistake away from another day 1.
What youre going through is huge. One day at a time. I hope you have instead of alcohol, food and drink that nourishes and comforts you. If you like to cook, i hope you have the energy to make your favorite things.
Checking in- I’ve been avoiding posting because I relapsed last night. All day, I’ve felt guilty and ashamed. My addictive mind was so unstoppable yesterday and I just went ahead and drank. Very sad. I restarted my counter.
I’m glad you’re here now Michael. I hope you can take some lessons away from what happened last night so it won’t be all for nothing. Now let’s get this sobriety thing moving again. One day, one hour, one minute at a time if it must be. Success.
Whats up everyone I know y’all missed me so I’m checking in haha…lol. I’ve been having alot more cravings it sucks I can go to a store or a restaurant and I’ll be alright it’s when we m home and alone and stressed my cravings kick in so that’s one of my biggest triggers right now. I have 52 days today! Hanging in there and still going …hope anyone that is struggling is hanging in there and fighting the good fight and everyone here much love and blessings
Sending prayers and blessings for this difficult valley. You will again rise and your strong recovery is the best gift you can give yourself and to those who have passed on.
Today is day 91 sober and I’m feeling great. Many thanks, it means a lot 
…hope anyone that is struggling is hanging in there and fighting the good fight and everyone here much love and blessings 
