Deeply sad and shaken up after hearing the news of yet another shooting in the US. My country seems so so fucked. I have been working through some heavy emotions lately and world events have been weighing on me, most definitely, and yesterday I just fell apart. Lost it completely. Called my mom and had to get the words out so she wasn’t scared something had happened to me or Eric, she talked me down. Eric came home from work early and I lost it again. I regret having said some fatalistic things about not wanting to live in this world and had to walk it back, I know I worried my mom but I explained I am not in danger of harming myself. Just overwhelmed and having a hard time not picturing what people must be going through right now. My mind turns to the pain people must be feeling all around the world in different situations, war time, death, loss, pain, pain, pain. I’ve turned off the news today and just have to practice some grounding. Find my gratitude. Touch some earth. Let the rain that’s falling today land on my face. Cuddle with my dog and my husband. Text my loved ones. Lean into the ways I’m contributing to my community and see how else I can have an impact. Most of all, for me to have any positive impact I will not drink to numb. I will continue to see the importance of feeling the full range of emotions and will use the ways I know to cope with the challenging ones so that I can appreciate joy and love and contentment in their turn. Sending hugs out to those who could also use one today. 
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