Thank you @Misokatsu!!!
Having a rough painful morning, probably did too much yesterday. I also dragged a bunch of boxes to my front door for a charity pick up. My arms are all bruised up, looks more like I got into a fight with them, and they won.
Itās another workday, relieved I can still work remote. I have a zoom meeting with CFO tomorrow, so hopefully goes well, heās a pretty nice guy. Iām sober, plan on staying sober for another day, and another day after that. Have a great day all!
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Congratulations on your 2 years Rob. We all have our challenges Rob. But fuck me. It seemed like you kept getting hammered with one crisis after another. Frankly I donāt know how you did it. You are an extraordinary gentleman. When I think about all you been through it brings tears to my eyes. You keep me sober my friend. I couldnāt do this without you. YA YOU Iām so fucking glad youāre here. AND SOBER. ODAAT.
Love you man.
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AWWWWWW!!! That is so fucking awesome of you to say Eric, thank you soooo much!!! I couldnāt have done it without you either and I love you too bro!!! Have an amazing day!!! 
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Huge congratulations Rob! As your name suggests, you ARE a Rockstar!! In more ways than one. So happy for you. Through some really bad 
you held your together. Iām honored to know you!
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Donāt even know where to start or end so let me just say HUGE congrats Rob. Keep on doing what you do. You ROCK!!!
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Itās good to see you Kevin. Fellow lone wolf here but this is the place I learned we need to do this together. Alone itās too much. Still learning each and every day. Welcome back friend.
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Hello guys. Just checking in day 17.
I tested my max on squat today. Did 145 kg. Its not much but really proud of it. Tomorrow will be bench and thursday my favourite, the deadlift.
Have a great day guys. Peace.
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Youāve been through a lot and here you are. Still fighting and recovering. Congrats!!
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Heck yeah Rob!! Congrats on your 2 years. So happy to wake up and see this. When I first got on this app last spring, your threads were some of the first I read. Your strength pulling through everything you were going through and staying sober was one of my big inspirations/motivations at that time. Happy every day that you are still here and checking in! 
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Woooohooooooo
Congrats on your first week!!!
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YES, OMG, YES
Rob, I canāt even express in words how much your recovery has strengthened mine, but I will tryā¦
Thank you so much for your transparency, for leaning on us when you needed help, for never giving up on yourself, for always striving for more, for your absolute strength and beautiful soul. I love you like a brother and I feel damn blessed to walk beside you on this journey. Congrats on making it through your second year of consecutive fucking days cleanā¦ crazy shit. So damn good.
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@Alycia Congrats on 75 days. For sure. I feel ya. This app is very helpful. Glad I found it. I couldnāt have done it without yall.
@BT824 Congrats on your 1st week.
@Rockstar24777 Congrats on 2 years, bro. Very inspirational.
Day 240 AF (8months)
I was worried about not making it to 6 months. And here I am at 8 months. On my longest sobriety streak. I wanted to thank you all for your posts and for being supportive. Keep pushing. Every day counts. Much love.
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Day 24 - I wanted to just shout out the amazing effort and achievement of @Rockstar24777, @BrianP and @GOKU2019 because you have all reached some awesome milestones. Well done to you all.
Today has been really tough for me. I have tried to be honest and transparent with these check ins as humanly possible. And todayās check in probably isnāt going to be fun reading.
Today has been a day full of frustrations. It started with me logging on an hour late for work and then got worse from there. I was feeling the full force of hungry, angry, lonely and tired and rather than taking a step back and resetting myself and my expectations I ploughed through. Which is what I always do. It left me in a dark place with my porn addiction gnawing at me in a way that is worse than it has done since I started this new journey. Iāll be honest I was incredibly tempted to just give up. But even in temptation I felt all the negative effects of my addiction. The brain fog, the sluggishness, the snappiness. It reminded me of the reality of my situation. I am an addict and what I am doing is hard.
I had an arguement with my ex over essentially nothing, in front of my son which has made me feel awful. I want to set a good example and today I was wide of the mark. Iāve also been frustrated in my hunt for a permanent place to live. It seems like all the places I want to see are snapped up before I get a chance to look at them. I feel rudderless, like I have no stability in my life.
I wish I had a positive to end on. But I am feeling low and all I can think about is shutting myself away at the moment.
Today is the very definition of one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Iām surrendering to the day. I do not feel like I am enough today but I will make it through the next few hours by accepting that today is one of those days that isnāt the best. I hope tomorrow will be better.
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This too shall pass my friend. I hear the frustration in ur post and maybe the sense of overwhelm with everything happening. It IS hard for us addicts (no matter what the addiction) to sometimes step back and reset. I often have to tell myself to STOP, PAUSE, and RESPOND versus react. And itās effin hard some days. Iām proud of you for coming on here and venting and just getting it our somehow. And itās true, it will pass. Sometimes our situations donāt pass tho but how we respond to those situations change. Some days are just harder than others. So im praying that u get some sense of calmness and relief today 
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That sound pretty damn positive to me, itās all about perspective. You havenāt picked up and you are hoping for a better day tomorrow. Both great things, keep up the good work, I am glad you posted about your feelings.
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Checking in
Day 119
I just literally huffed and puffed and complained much more than I should of to an Amazon customer service lady. I didnāt recieve my 2nd package on Saturday even tho it said it was delivered. I opened up 1 box that I did recieve thinking both items would be in there. But they werenāt. So I went on a rampage bitching about it. And my mind for some odd reason went to me thinking that she is thinking that I actually did receive the 2nd package, but am lying about it to get money (so basically stealing). So I ended up getting more defensive and reacting instead of responding, and I sort of feel embarrassed now. I really didnāt recieve it but I feel like I have to prove myself constantly so that others know Iām not lying. Wth is up with that?! Anyway I sort of calmed down half way thru the conversation and it did end on a good note. If I donāt recieve it by 6pm I have to call back and get a refund for me to order it again. I was fine all morning! And then 1 little thing happens and I wayyyy overreact. Anyway I will be heading out for groceries and getting fresh air soon. I need it. I was so wound up and emotional that I was going to binge on chocolate that I had lying around. Instead I only had a small portion and left the rest. I think out of this whole situation, I am most proud of that! And Iām not wanting to use drugs either so thatās another win. Intense emotion used to be such a big trigger for me. But Iām glad thatās changing.
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Thanks @Butterflymoonwoman and @Its_me_Stella, I really appreciate the support.
I find I have to really think about doing the next right thing. Itās so easy to fall back into bad habits (like I did today) which lead me closer to my addiction. Iām about an hour and a half away from the end of my day and the welcome relief of sleep.
My aim between now and then, wind down, recharge, reset and do some small things that will help tomorrow be a success.
Thanks again for all your support. I wouldnāt be at the end of day 24 without it.
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Congrats, Rob!! You truly are a rockstar!
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