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Took a huge step for my recovery and finally sat down with a psychiatrist today . I have always had some struggles with anxiety but in the last year it has increased and feels physical and sometimes paranoia . I hate admitting that out loud and When recently I started having to decide what is Possibly real and what is possibly not maybe that’s when I need to ask for help. She says that she does not want to diagnose anything right now because I have been drinking and doing drugs for so long. I was more honest than I’ve ever been. I want to stay sober and I want to have a better chance of being productive member of society. I don’t want to get accustomed to being homeless or avoiding life … I have no problem openly sharing this because maybe somebody out there is thinking about talking to somebody and is afraid … I understand… also this is for my recovery. Going to keep pushing forward and working on my mental and physical health. Man I’m tired … but it’s a good thing … also they want to do some blood work Which will maybe put my mind at easy or explain some of my physical issues . This is a process and I Surrendered 225 days ago… Alcohol and drugs do not work in my life anymore. I give up trying to make it work… This is just another step in the process