@Misokatsu I really appreciate your encouragement!
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Coffee. Iām never sick. Now I started a new job. And here we are. I donāt feel extremely bad. Sore throat, headache, a bit of a fever, loss of taste. Going to get an official test now and then stay home. With some real summer days ahead.
At least I am sober and clean. I do remember how in the past I used to simply continue to smoke and drink, out of habit, out of addiction. However disgusting the taste and the effects. Never again.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober as it is the only way for us all towards a better happier life. One day at a time. Love from my living room.
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Ahhhh what timing Menno! Hope the symptoms are mild for you and that you have a speedy recovery. My daughter also tested positive yesterday 
@SoberWalker they are my most favourite flower, their scent is divine!
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10 Days AF
Feeling good.
Congrats Dana @Butterflymoonwoman
Rest up Menno @Mno
Super catch Bec @Becsta
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Iām really sorry. Luna is going to take good care of you and has Nurse Kitty coming too.
Eat more cherries! Hoping itās gone manana. 
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I hope you get better soon! 
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Nice saying.
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Awwww, sorry to hear it Menno. My whole team has Covid as well. Same symptoms as you.
Hope you feel better soon 
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Day 266 checking in odaat 
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Iāll have a look at it, thanks very much.
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Hey.
So I went through pretty tough time lately (at least tough for me thoughā¦)
It all started with holiday. Whoād believe that holiday can bring tough time, right?
First, I relapsed on wine when enjoying Florence and being surrounded by heavy wine drinking nature. I think that I managed my relaps pretty well. I quickly realised that it was a step back and returned on my sober path immediately after. Still surrounded by drinking people I am staying sober and strong with no desire to drink at all! 
On Sunday, me and my boyfriend were supposed to leave Italy and fly back to the UK. However our flight has been cancelled and we got this information only 10 minutes before the airplane was suppose to depart - already queueing in the gate.
Iām not sure for how many people is flight cancellation good news, but I panicked and broke down little bit. After hours and hours of uncertainty we got a hotel, food and new flight for today.
We had another very unpleasant surprise when we came back to hotel yesterday evening and couldnāt get to our hotel room, apparently because the flight company changed their mind and decided not to provide anything anymore. It was 7pm and we basically became āhomelessā. I felt my heart beating fast again and the tendation to just shut down. Fortunately the lady at the reception had emotions and (I donāt know how) managed to get the room and food back for us. God bless her.
Anyway, why am I writing about all thisā¦
I can see clearly now the āshutting down mechanism installed in meā which is a part of my nature and which appears with any ābiggerā difficulties I donāt know how to deal with. Especially when thereās someone else to deal with it (my boyfriend). I used to do this āshutting down myselfā all the time when I used to drink. Whatever would be going on, no matter how small the āproblemā was, Iād just decline to deal with it. Therefore any circumstances were carried over and I just had to drink more and more to keep avoiding them.
Maybe my ādealing with difficulties attitudeā is still imperfect, but at least I now can deal with most of the things, even these I would ignore before. And thatās amazing 
What is even better - I donāt have any temptation to grab the drink when something unexpected happens. Maybe I still partly shut myself down time to time, but very occasionally. I guess (and hope), that I would eventually pick myself up and start sorting things out, because Iād be forced to do soā¦
There is still a lot to learn, Iām on the good way 
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Hello everyone, I hope that you are all well today.
Things are okay over here, I suppose, still waiting to get through some annoying administrative procedures (thereās nothing like red tape), but Iām hoping that things will soon show some progress.
The weather is nice enough, itās DEFINITELY somewhere in northern Italy, with temperatures in the upper 20s and low 30s pretty much every day now. Iām really happy to have an air conditioner at least in my bedroom!
Other than that, things are going alrightā¦ I have passed a small milestone of 3 days, and am looking forward to getting back to 1 week.
I was wondering if anyone has tried any of those SMART online meetings?
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I did a SMART meeting in person several times before COVID. I liked it. The rationality appealed to my analytical thinking style 
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Checking in folks, day 14. Feeling better; I took some time yesterday night to share about how I was feeling and today Iām feeling more grounded, which is good. (Mornings are also a better time for me, I always feel better in mornings.)
Iām nervous about the long list of tasks I have to do. Iām worried Iāll miss something. I am reminding myself all we can do is one thing at a time.
My wife and I have a project we need to work on, which is a little emotionally difficult for me, one which is about a sensitive issue for me. I am worried about that. Itās like a weight that I am hesitating to address because it seems so intimidating.
Headed out for a run now. 
@Jana1988 happy to hear about your new insight. I get that shutting-down thing. I do that too. Itās kind of a mental habit. Itās good though: because itās a habit, we can be aware of it and practice what you said: work on our ādealing with difficulties attitudeā. Mental exercise
10 days, good for you @Seb!
@Mno what timing to get sick 
sometimes you wanna be like: hey body, this is t helping 
Take some rest, take care. You deserve some rest time
@Humbriety glad to hear the healing is coming along!
@SoberWalker what a beautiful picture! I love it. My wife and I have an anthurium plan which just bloomed this year after years sans fleurs. It was so nice to see some flowers after such a long time!
Happy sober day everybody. Even a sad sober day too, which is better than the alternative Take care and donāt give up. You earn your growth and you deserve it
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Well guys this is surreal, I did it. I couldnāt have done it without everyone here. You all are amazing people and helped me through this journey every day more than you know 
My life has been unbelievable since I became sober and Iāve been on TS every single day since then. Sure, life still isnāt perfect but all that misery and anxiety has melted away into a controllable blip on the radar that I have learned to manage.
As I usually sayā¦checking in on day 730. I hope everybody has a good one 
Hereās to the next two years!
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That is freaking awesome!!!
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Congrats - that is awesome! 
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Whoo hoo! Brilliant work!
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That all sounds extremely stressful. I can understand why you would react with your natural fight or flight response. But you noticed it and are not drinking over it, all great progress!
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