Thank you so much for the support and prayers, I appreciate everyone here and the understanding of universal hands on parenting experience & struggles. I’ll definitely always keep doing whatever I can for the kiddo and I know in the end he’s gonna be okay.
Talked it out w/ my therapist and the fact that sometimes these growth patches just take a little bit longer to see what can usually end up being something beautiful in the end and I’m here for that for sure. Thanks again and have a good evening!
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#Day 1365 
Yesterday I worked half a day and it was hard. Today it’s a whole day and I’m not looking forward to it. When back to work after being sick for a while it’s difficult to take it easy.
My boss is telling me to do so and I’m only back for 75%. But I have to work all days and mostley on my own because the whole team is sick of Covid and the boss is on holiday.
Tomorrow morning we shut down the store to give me some air but at 12 I have to run it again.
It gives me stress. Can I handle this, can my body handle this? I have to stick with the moment. Can I handle today? I guess so.
So my goal for today is to not look ahead and worry about it. Focus on today and listen to my body 
Picture of my holiday in Germany last week. We did a walk with a nice view on the city Trier. The mouse is my new walking mascotte
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I’m in a strange frame of mind. I always feel better in the middle of the night than during the day. Especially since I got some stuff accomplished today. I really should be in bed now, but I don’t feel like going.
And I know when I wake up I won’t have any enthusiasm or optimism. 
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Congrats, 60 days is awesome!
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Hear, hear!!! That’s big Brian.
I’m with you. I won’t ingest any substance by any means. We don’t do that anymore. Never again. I have to stay in as I’m officially confirmed suffering from Covid-19. And I feel it too. 
. Hoping for a mild progression.
The weather is gorgeous. I should be out there. I’m not. Life is not always fair. It could be so much worse though. I could still be in active addiction. So grateful I’m not. This will pass. And I’ll be out there enjoying the 
on my 
soon enough. ODAAT it is.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing good will come of it. Love from Amsterdam. Pic is yesterday coming from the test location.
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Day 267 checking in 
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Day 2. I read this today:
The first year of recovery is scary business because you don’t know what to expect. You may worry about your health, your relationships, your finances, your job, and a host of other things. But being in recovery is about having faith that things will work out, and with faith comes courage—the courage to change, the courage to heal.
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