Hello guys. Checking in day 13…
Watched the other guys today. A funny movie.
@kat261 Hey glad you are back. Do not feel discourage. You got 9 months free. That really great. Sending strenght.
Bye and peace.
10 Likes
I start with the music. Strumming, experimenting with chords and patterns until I find something I like. Once I’ve got that, I work on the words. Rhyming dictionaries and thesauruses are your friends 
Sometimes I’ll get a melody in my head and then I’ll just try to come up with some chords that support it.
I agree about the music being cathartic. I feel that way too. It’s a creative process and I think it feeds an important part of our humanity. It’s also something that works well with our lovely brains! It gives latitude to their expression and invention.
2 Likes
Yes, hopefully they’ll just sit happily where they are!
Good luck with tweaking your diet, I’m sure it will help with overall health.
1 Like
Day 20 - Evening all. I made it to Day 20 and I’m really pleased about it. As I’ve said in my other daily check ins, I’ve been here before but not like this, just writing this feels like a weigh off my shoulders. As if checking in with you all makes it somehow real?
Generally the day has been a bit of a slog. I’m feeling tired all the time at the moment as if the weight of everything that is going on in my life is grinding me into the earth. I took a walk at work today though, spoke to a friend who game me some good practical advice. I just talked to my dad on the phone as well. The talking helps.
You all help as well. Checking in here helps me to crystalise my thoughts on the day and set them free. I am tired but happy to be here. Tomorrow is another day at a time.
22 Likes
@moonchild7994 you’ve taken a big step by being able to talk about it. If it is something you don’t like and doesn’t make you feel good you are doing the right thing by getting rid of it.
I get where you are coming from as I am dealing with my own similar issues. I really respect and admire you for your courage to talk about these things.
3 Likes
Thank you 
🫶🏼
Oh it’s real.
Always works for me.keep up the great work. And congratulations on your 20 days of the new you.
4 Likes
As a process I love that idea, I really hope to get there sometime in the relatively nearish future.
I agree with it feeding a part of our humanity and the concept of taking the journey to create something for reasons involving ourselves and through art, expressing or learning something more about who we are or about the world itself.
Even moreso is when it’s shared with others, and the vulnerability there.
I’ll keep practicing and working on it, maybe get organized enough to do a little cover practice and see where it goes.
I’m usually a drawing/painting art style but music is a form I’ve always wondered and wanted more of from myself, so exploring it has been both intimidating and refreshingly different at the same time.
I like the idea of searching for the words through the sounds first.
Have a great day and thanks for the insight!
2 Likes
Amazing, your courage gives me courage Menno. Sometimes I feel like there are boxes in my closet that are better left unpacked and other times I just don’t know. I am going to take a read around about Pesso I haven’t heard of it before.
6 Likes
Doesnt get boring does it Pauly???
1 Like
Not yet, the longer it goes the more amazed I become. I hope your keeping well?
3 Likes
Good evening everyone, checking in on day 293. Very gloomy day here which led to a horrible mood, all brought on by myself. Rain gave up a little so going to try and go for a walk and get rid of this funk. Today, Murphy’s Law has been in full effect. Take care and stay safe.
16 Likes
Hey yall,
Went to my first womens only aa meeting. There were alot of hugs lol i wasnt ready for that. They talked about step 6 and character defects, gives me alot to think about before starting my steps. Still looking for a lady sponsor 
Just a thought, in AA they say you can pick your higher power but in the same breath say may you find God. Then they end the meetings ive been to in person here with the lords prayer…isnt that a christian God? Im not complaining. Its powerful to recite a prayer holding hands in a full room but where is there room for the agnostic?
I feel like part of my sober journey will also entail trying to identify my higher power. I grew up going to a methodist church, dont like organized religion, mostly identify with the agnostic but what does that mean to me?
So much to learn about myself in sobriety. No better time than to start now. Drinking for the last 20 years has been demoralizing and i feel very far from the confident, strong child and those times when i last remember being joyful. Gotta make up some time and put in the work
21 Likes
I literally watched the last few minutes count down to double digits. I haven’t been sober this long in over a year. Feeling good!
27 Likes
Beautiful work!
1 Like
Tonight is day 100 of no self harm
It should feel good but all I wanna do is fuck it up. Everything feels bad.
14 Likes
Day 236 AF
Nothing much going on. Working and busy with the kids. Gonna go for a walk.
Wanted to share this vid with yall.
Have a good night fam!
8 Likes
I thought immediately about how many times I was that guy that would never say no to one more.
2 Likes
Checking in tonight as I’m just around the corner of 5 days sober and I believe my next milestone on TS.
Today and the past couple of days have been stressful but good. Between work, keeping house, and my other work/part time job I’ve been able to stay busy and out of trouble. Today I finished the last of my commissioned projects and I’m looking forward to having some downtime. Im also coming into all the money I’ve been waiting for 
I worked overtime at a store in a different town so I was waiting on reimbursement for that, plus the bonus on my check, and getting paid for my part time work as well.
I’m trying my best to build my savings back up, because I wasted a lot of it on my addiction. There’s a combination of feelings there… most of which being guilt and anger at myself for being so irresponsible. I’m also nervous the combo of having money and free time will cause some pretty serious cravings through the weekend and on my days off.
I’ll check in every day here and go to in person meetings as often as I need, but pray for me y’all 
14 Likes