Hi and thank you! 
I hope you’re having a good day. hugs 
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Great post. Well done you!
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That’s an incredible way to put it!! Thank you 
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Hi Kat here Day 37!
A great Monday with my roommate and second oldest son (14) who is staying for a few days. Made ground beef and garlic rice for dinner starting with some soffrito bought from the grocery store. Put a couple of stand fans for the spare bedrooms together.
Recovery wise read the Spiritual Principle of the Day and Just for Today readings this morning and will read them again soon they rarely stick the first time. Healthcare Professionals with addiction meeting tonight. I am loving being clean and sober my heart is singing.
Love to you all Kat
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Ur post brings a huge smile to my face 
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Just checking in. Each day is horrible but I realize it’s supposed to be. When you’re an old woman living in a box with no-one to talk to…tell me again why sobriety is good?
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I’m sorry recovery isn’t feeling very positve for u. Interaction with others is crucial (for me also). Do u have any 12 step meetings in ur area? Alot of friendships I have made was thru those
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Thakyou for responding, Butterflymoonwoman. But there are no people to interact with. I’m doing this on my own, completely. I have tried meetings and I feel lonelier there than on my own. The “one size fits all” model is not working for me. I’m really not being combative, this is just how things are.
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I don’t sense ur combativeness at all. U are speaking ur truth and what does and does not work for u. I respect that I hope that u can find some sense of friendship etc here on TS. Recovery can absolutely be lonely at times
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Everything is lonely. I’m a freak, basically, so people have never responded to me favorably. My brain doesn’t work right. I always misread situations and react in a totally inappropriate way - over the top or not at all - so I just don’t “mix” all that well. Of course I self-medicated. Now I have nothing to replace the that with. There’s just a hole. Apologies for being so raw about it, its not directed at anyone.
You’re right, I think people i meet online can be helpful and I’m very grateful to have found talkingsober.com. Thanks again for your support, Butterflymoonwoman, it is very appreciated.
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Absolutely! Ur very welcome. Everything seems to be a learning experience when we get clean and sober. How long have u been sober for? Online stuff is great! I even attend online meetings sometimes we all need support. It’s hard to do this alone. Also no need to apologize for how u feel. This is ur experience right now and it’s important to talk about how u feel. Ur feelings are valid.
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I’m going into my third week but I’ve done thins so many times before, for longer periods, and I end up using again. I could write tons about why I use but I get the jist, its about not using no matter what.
I really wish I was dead, I should have died 12 years ago but here I am… I’m sorry if that’s too dark, but not talking about the dark stuff is part of the problem. We’re not supposed to talk about stuff like that here, are we? I get the sense it has to be constant positivity. Maybe I’m in the wrong place.
I’m gonna sign off now. Thanks a lot for your supportive words, Butterflymoonwoman. I wish you well x
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I know ur signing off but I do want to say that u are fully able to express the good, the bad, and the ugly on here. Alot of people will make a post and write Trigger Warning* just to be respectful of others who may be triggered by some of the darker stuff. But I myself have even opened up about some really dark times in my past. We are only as sick as our secrets. U are here for a reason. U may not know what the reason is yet (I certaintly dont know for myself), but u are Feel free to post what u need to. We are all here to heal
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Share the darkness, we all have varying degrees. Just keeping it in is toxic. I have bipolar depression which led to two very serious suicide attempts before i found an amazing doctor and the right meds management. If you dont feel comfortable sharing it here you could create your own post/thread and checkin there.
We are here for you! I hope you come back
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Well, for me the puking, breaking stuff, drunk emailling and status updating, no time to do things that I actually enjoy and satisfy me, were big reasons to stay sober. Of course it is ok to talk about dark things. As Dana said, trigger warnings are useful, but by all means release ur feelings.
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I absolutely this Dana!
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What a little doll! And quite the stylish head attire. Just beautiful!!
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That is a wonderful response and I think captures what this forum is about for many. I don’t want to speak for everyone.
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Awe thank u! That means alot actually. I care about everyone on here. I never thot that a community like this would have such an impact on me U guys really feel like family in a sense.
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