That is a fun fact about hiding ‘ugly’ things in the Netherlands. I adore that couple, I too hope I look that happy someday. 
Thank you for sharing 
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Day 2 is a rough one. Good luck to you. It gets better soon!
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81 days today. Gout came back today from eating shitty and being dehydrated. Worked through it and got some natural remedies. Laying in bed drinking water now. Going to start eating healthier starting tomorrow. Happy trails!
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Ugh. I hate that. Or when ppl try and tell you they don’t do drugs but microdose for their anxiety or they are sober of coke for years but every time you see them they’re pissed or whatever the fuck. Or sober but can’t stop smoking weed every day “to get to sleep”. Or sober and living a self aware life but dating a different woman every night of the week. 
Get off my lawn before my eyes roll outta my head!
Ok. Done taking other ppl’s inventory for the day, promise! (It’s early here so I got it out quick today!)
Hey I wish you continued recovery from your bronchitis and a quick handling of that kidney thing! That can be painful and bad from what I remember my grandma going through it when I was a kid. I hope it doesn’t get bad for you! All the best!
PS: was Alone any good?
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Thank you @Twizzlers I really appreciate and value your support. You give so much to this community, you are a star.
I’m taking it day by day. Reaching out for support and trying to get the fundamentals right. You are spot on when you said that the addictive voice is always there waiting. Moving to a room on my own far from the kids has been isolating and the voice was there waiting. But I am working on what aspects of my life I want to focus on and I’m going to keep doing that one day at a time.
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Coffee. Beautiful day today. Considering biking to and from my work again, because the next few days -my weekend- it’ll be too hot to ride. Not sure yet. Wake up first.
One thing that doesn’t need my consideration is staying sober and clean, just for today. Using is just plain stupid and it never got me anywhere but deeper in the hole. Never again. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. That’s why we’re here. Love from my balcony.
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Hello everyone, checking in Day 5. I have been reluctant to post days recently as it wasn’t as high as before, but that seems silly.
I woke up today thinking it was a Monday so looking on today as a bonus day.
Feeling pretty good today, my health issues are niggling but as with most things, if my mind is feeling OK then I can cope with the pain etc much better.
Getting out and about this morning before the real heat of the day kicks in. Life for the whole family is quite tough at the moment so really enjoying spending time with the children and seeing how much they get out of family time
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Day 4 started nicely and finished without alcohol.
the fact that we have covid and can’t leave the house for 7 days is actually going to be s blessing. No alcohol in the house and no leave pass. 
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Checking on day 4
I said I would be checking in more often, and I just realized that once again I’m failing! So here we go. Today I’m gonna hang out at a friends, she has a pool, that’s always a plus with 35C! Fist time socializing in my entire week of holidays! (Except visiting my mum and dad 2 days ago) That’s something I have to work on… my mind was raging about how to cancel (which stupid excuse should I use this time?), so today I’m trying to get out of my comfort zone. Tomorrow appointment with my therapist, it’s funny to say, but I’m looking forward to that. It’s been 3 weeks, and I really want to make things better! Have a good one! 
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Almost 24 hours.
I feel like crap. Covered in bruises and no clue how I got them. Feels like I cracked or bruised a rib, too. All I wanna do is call my ex. Never should have ended things and I hate it here.
That’s all I got. Hoping tomorrow is less painful.
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Your doing really well, we all have setbacks okay, the best thing you can do is literally
‘One day at a time’ and ‘Just for today’
with drink and the same with your emotions and feelings ‘Just for today’- I have been trying to do this also with my emotions and its helping to just worry or get anxious about just today, how can I help my self ‘Just for today’ it’s working slowly for me so I hope maybe it can help you too 
I just wanted to share with you and everyone especially anyone who hasnt tried meetings yet what my experience was today at 9am.
I went to my first face to face AA meeting in way over 10 years, it went like this :
I reached the road and could see a few people outside men and woman, as I approached they gave me the biggest smile and the lady asked if I was there for the AA meeting.
I was so anxious and I talk alot when I’m nervous and I’m so shy but I felt so welcomed and invited before I’d even got up to the meeting
Once upstairs this lovely lady introduced me to a few people and then asked me where I’d like to sit and she sat with me.
Which to be honest I’m so used to doing stuff by myself if she hadnt have done this I would have sat at the back in the corner by myself and stayed quite.
Her genuine kindness and being thoughtfull of how she felt when she was a newcomer, to make me feel like I fitted in already touched my heart.
During the meeting people shared, clapped and cheered for each other there were refreshments there too. I decided to share and I am so glad I did. Everyone was so welcoming and i am going to go every sunday.
After the meeting a group of them go for coffee together, i decided next week i will take that step as today was about me actually stepping my feet through the door.
It was better than imagined it would be, if I needed help and support right there and then I was in the right place to get that either by the people in that group or advice about other resources available.
I think maybe this could be something you could do ?
If you have time please give yourself a face to face meeting, it’s for us, it’s for us when we are celebrating each sober day and it’s for us when we relapse to get support, real life support.
I’m sharing this experience with you in the hope that you may give it a try.( I’m not sure if you have already ).
You are going through a tough time and you dont need to suffer alone.
Hold your head up, you will be okay because your still here and your still trying and that is what strength is my friend.
I’m here if you need a chat.
Also @DarrenUK thought I’d put you here instead of me typing it all out twice - Its because of you I went to this meeting today, seeing how it has worked for you and speaking about the 12 steps I decided to take that step forward, and I did it and guess what … now it’s easier to go next week 
@BrOKenWolf thought I’d add you in here too, thank you for your support and encouraging me to do things I talk about and having the confidence to know I can do it.
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Amazing, glad it went well
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Happy 9 sober month! Well done.
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Congratulations to 2 weeks soberness! 
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Congratulations on 2 weeks. Our minds can do weird things so early in sobriety. I get it that it is unsettling. Fortunately, it should be rare and you will be snoozing like a champ again.
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One year 15 days! Pretty proud of myself although been having some relationship issues lately and have had thoughts of relapsing. Not that I would act on those thoughts, I’m pregnant and would never use, but the thoughts are still there sometimes. Is that normal?
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I feel like that most times I’m not feeling well. God forbid I call into work! I’m hoping this will stop at some point.
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Very normal. And possibly may come and go for a long time. But, for the vast majority of people the thoughts are way less frequent. Congratulations on your pregnancy. Great GREAT reason to not drink!
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Day 499! No drinking for me today. The thought actually sickens me. I don’t want to feel drunk. I want to experience today.
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Checking in on day 401. Up relatively early on a cool morning having coffee. I finally started Stranger Things 4 last night. Love the soundtrack, and the set really hits the nostalgia button for me, having grown up in the 80s. But super creepy. Love it.
Just a regular day today. Need to mow the lawn. Take the kids to a birthday party. Stay sober. The usual 
Have a beautiful day, friends.
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