I agree with you on this one 
. Everyone here is honest. We are sharing our struggles and the not so pretty part of our lives. Making it much richer and actually teaching us along the way.
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Just wanted to say I hear ya Karen. Those are 3 big ones. I admire all those 2033 ODAATs you got there. If it helps. I won’t pick up with ya.
I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Big hug
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Congrats on those 35 days Andrea.
NOT THE COFFEE TOO😱
Shit that’s bad.
I spent a lot of time apologizing to my wife early on where about you are. I was always so angry. This shit is hard. Glad you checked in. Lots of hot showers around 5 pm and extra angry power walks every day helped me. I was just so angry I cannot drink like a normie. I enjoyed a lot of chocolates, gelatos and cookies early too. Just as long as I didn’t drink.
Hang in there.
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Nice to see you checking in Miranda.
I’m glad your here.
I miss Lola and Charlie too.
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I ate nearly a whole carton of ice cream yesterday. I’m not sure if the sugar cravings ever go away. Damn shame about the coffee, though. 
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Someone went by the treeline on a bike. Don’t think he saw me. Glad I didn’t have my bright orange tent set up yet.
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Hi Kat here day 34. Sorry for not checking in yesterday but there was a huge cellular/wifi outage in Canada lol.
Just finished a meeting which was good, enjoying the weekend with my 3 youngest children.
Love you all, stay strong!
Kat
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Evening Check In
Day 145
Came home from work. Nothing good really happened. I’m exhausted from caring and having expectations of how to be treated from my hubby. I honestly dont think he cares. The lack of appreciation or love that he shows, the tone of voice he uses, not even really caring if I’m home, is starting to eat at me. I don’t think I’ll ever get to experience what I want from a relationship. I havent in the past and I dont think Ill get to experience it in the future either. I don’t even ask for much. I love him very much but I don’t understand why he always seems annoyed with me. Like I’m more of a nuisance to him. I made supper, did dishes, took care of other responsibilities right after I got home. He had done nothing all day. Yes I get resentful but I let it go. Bcuz honestly its easier to let it go then to have him get defensive and argue with me. I sat in the bedroom and just prayed to God bcuz I feel so alone. Then I started questioning why my life has been the way it has been. Drug addiction, prostitution, domestic violence, mental health stuff, abuse from random sources, now this, issues with my hubby and just wanting to have a good relationship with someone. Like why? I’m sooo tired of just struggling with shit. Just tired 
I feel like I have no energy anymore ugh.
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Heyooo what has two thumbs and 393 days of continuous sobriety? 
this fuckin guy Have a good one, friends.
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Ull have to show pics if ur up for it 
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That sounds rough with the hubby. I can relate when all you do just seems to annoy your SO. At those times its best to be your own company and not try harder to communicate. Atleast that works for me. Breathe, self care, write it out. We love you.
P.s. your earlier share about apologizing to yourself was really powerful. I dont think im there yet but goals!
Love ya lady
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Day 266
Had to work today.
Busy with the little man right now. Nothing new going on.
Have a safe and sober weekend!
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I’ve got to share this! Its so true! A friend from a sober group shared this:
How come you don’t drink anymore?
“How come you don’t drink anymore?” a renewed acquaintance from long ago asked the other day.
"Anymore than who?, I asked.
“I mean any longer. How come you don’t drink anything these days?”
“Drink? I drink…coffee, milk, juice, tea, soda pop, water…”
“I mean drink” he said. " you know, booze."
“Oh, booze, No I don’t drink booze any more, you’re right,” I said, I couldn’t’ trust it anymore. It turned on me. Once my friend, it became my enemy."
“Maybe you got a bad batch.” he said.
“No the sauce is the same. I changed. Because I have this illness of alcoholism, my tolerance weakened. Alcoholism doesn’t come in bottles, it comes in people.”
“Sounds pretty confusing” the fellow said
“You think you’re confused,” I said, “You should have seen me. I drank for happiness and became unhappy… I drank for joy and became miserable… I drank to be outgoing and became self centered… I drank for sociability and became argumentative and lonely.” I drank for sophistication and became crude and obnoxious…I drank for friendship and made enemies… I drank to soften sorrow and wallowed in self pity… I drank for sleep and wakened without rest.
I drank for strength and felt weak… I drank medicinally and got sick… I drank because I thought my job called for it and I lost my job… I drank for relaxation and got the shakes… I drank for confidence and became uncertain… I drank for courage and became afraid… I drank for assurance and became doubtful… I drank to stimulate thought and blacked out… I drank to make conversation and it tied my tongue… I drank for warmth and lost my cool. I drank for coolness and lost my warmth… I drank to feel heaven and came to know hell. I drank to forget and became haunted. I drank for freedom and became a slave…I drank to erase problems and saw them multiply… I drank to cope with life and invited death …or worse… I drank because I had the right and everything turned out wrong…
“Gosh!” My friend exclaimed, "That must have taken a bunch of booze to get you in that shape.
“Just one” I told him, “The first one. For me one is too many, and a thousand is not enough.”
"So that is why you don’t drink anymore…?
“Yep, I make it a rule, I DON’T DRINK WHILE I’M SOBER!”
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Thank u sooo much for sharing this!!! I loved reading it!
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I love u my friend thank u for ur support hugs. I do need to just be more aligned with myself and enjoy my own company. I allow his reactions and comments to hurt me. And no one truly has that power to do that. Thank u
Also… ur painting is looking lovely
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I’ll post some photos in the pets section☺️
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Looking Good!! 
@Bluekoolaid congrats on 250, bro. Staying busy has been working for me, but it’s getting repetitive. I need to find new activities. Thought about saving up for a bike, or rollerblades. Somethin…
@moonchild7994 happy bday to you!
@Twizzlers I think about my drunken nights whenever I feel like pickin up a drink. The ppl I hurt, the dumb shit I’ve done. Yeah, nah I’m good. But I feel ya.
@Rockstar24777 we love ya to man.
@Miranda @anon53116147 glad ur both back here postin.
Sorry for the late replies. The kids keep me busy. Night time is my free time. I’ll catch with yall tomorrow.
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