Day 10081
Something turned. Don’t know what exactly. Perhaps it was finally opening up about being in a dark place for over a week. I’m not 100% yet but I feel so much better. I think I was riding a health related pink cloud and it burst into thunderstorms. Someone I highly respect reminded me to live in the moment. That’s all we really have and letting fear focused thoughts of the future ruins this moment we dwell in. So although it’s difficult to live with uncertainty I am going to do my best to put one foot in front of the other and focus on today.
@Butterflymoonwoman oh honey congrats on six months! You have come so far and I love watching your journey 
Borrowed my daughter’s car to run to the store last night. Was only gone ten minutes. Thank god! A trip to Walmart would have been a bigger disaster. I walked into my room and my 50 gallon tank sprang a leak. The pressure had it spraying three feet across the room. I flew around grabbing buckets, pans and towels. My oldest grandson dumped the buckets as I filled more until I got the water level below the leak. Then we cleaned up the mess. Sealed the tank and had to leave it to cure overnight. Poor babies are midsize angelfish who love deep water. I worried they wouldn’t make it overnight but they are still alive. Crazy ending to my night lol.
I had to make a decision to drop out of the fitness thread. I can’t fulfill my promise to walk every day because I don’t know from day to day what my strength level is going to be. I’m okay with that. It is what it is and no sense throwing extra stress my way.
Have a blessed day everyone
