Thank you Eric soo much. I needed that validation. I feel like ive been on some crazy messed up emotional rollercoaster ride for probably a week now. I go from high to low to anxious wayyyy too quickly. Almost like a light switch being turned on n off. I don’t like it one bit. I do need some help with medication and I’m working on finding that balance but I can not rely on meds alone to help me. I need other skills to help me also.
I actually thot of u when i thought of getting back into meditation bcuz it has always helped u thru some really tough, tough times. And I feel inspired by that to maybe have it help me too. Thank you Eric for your support. That means alot!! Hope ur doing well 
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Good morning everyone from the North East of England.
I’m just getting ready to take the dogs on the beach well as soon as it gets a little lighter I will. It’s a good feeling waking up fresh and appreciating nature.
A day off and I’m up and about an hour earlier than when I’m at work. 
hope you all manage to have a good day today. Best wishes to you all 
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To many to tag which blows my mind. Support here has and is always amazing. So want to thank everyone on here. Even just reading posts on days were enough to push me through the tough times. So I am forever grateful for all of you. Take care and be safe!
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Slightly belated congratulations on your full year Chris. No less meant though. You’re an inspiration friend. Good times and bad ones. One day at a time. I’m glad to you know you. Just keep going.
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Your video is amazing. Will watch long version later. Glad you had that special time and hope your winter blues will go away. @HoofHearted
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The day started wrongly with the audio failing on my pc. Some cursing and checking later it turns out it’s probably a cable failure. Decided to go Bluetooth and ordered myself an adaptor for my amp. And go back to bed and try this Sunday again later. Sober and clean. Have a good one all. Love from Luna and me.
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Thank you @Butterflymoonwoman and @Twizzlers for your lovely comments. I try to do the best I can with the situation and making good memories with the kids is really important to me. Soon enough they will be off doing their own thing and so I’m trying to build these bonds now so that they may choose to spend some of their time with me later.
It will take time, I just need to remember who I am as an individual as well as a father, a lot of discovering to do!
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Day 30 
Made it… 
The last days I feel very confident in my decision not to drink anymore and don’t question it. No cravings, no thoughts about moderate trinking. But I’m aware “I’m always in danger”!
Checking in day 30…
Yesterday was very nice with going out for lunch and trying out these delicious Hawaiian poke bowls (will have it again!), chilling in the afternoon and nice swim workout in the later evening.
As I am still having looots of hunger, i am just cooking sushi rice to have a easy sushi bowl for breakfast. Just a bit of Salomon and cucumber on it… And of cause… Wasabi 
Later i will go swimming with my mother and meet my parents for Sunday family meeting afterwards . This is always funny and calming.
Wish you all a happy healing Sunday 
Sending love 
Take care 
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it’s countdown time again… 23 months. Have a good one, reach out for help and reach out to help. Be the example not the excuse.
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Day 113.
Yesterday was great. The gig was wonderful and it was really good spending time with one of my closest friends. It took me longer than expected to get home as there seemed to be some issues with some of the buses, but other than that it was just really nice being out for the evening.
I will say that I was pretty aware of the number of people around who were drunk enough to be impaired and that I was really glad not to be in that boat too. Nobody was out of order as such, but the dulling of facial expression and slurred speech were apparent.
Then, this morning my parents announced that they planned to head home early as they had found town unpleasantly busy for them, which I’m really pleased about because I really didn’t want to have to navigate around their drinking today.
My friend’s dad was an alcoholic too and she and I were discussing the hyper vigilance that she and I both exhibit in spades. Clearly, I would lose the hyper vigilance by getting drunk myself, but I’m really wondering how to manage it while remaining sober.
Anyway, happy to have the flat back to myself and the kids.
Have a great day everyone 
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234 days free from Alcohol, and it feels incredibel, I really feel the difference. But still I feel lost, I do not feel great, I know I need to change stuff in my life and healthwise, but I cant, I mean, its so hard. Im tired of the anxiety, my body always being tense and in pain. Give me strength to keep going, to see how to change and actually do it.
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144 days 
Made some nice food, enjoyed some time at the gym, spent time with my fam, played a few games with my hubby. Picked some flowers from the garden. It’s been a nice sober Sunday I wish you all a peaceful, sober day!
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No nothing, I come in here and I love it here, so much support and inspiration. I quit alcohol all by my self after about 10 years drinking, the last maybe 2 years very heavily. I have not talked about me having a alcohol addiction to anyone besides my husband. But for sure people must have known. I dont find the not drinking hard, not anymore or at least not at the moment, but the rest.
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Im sure I would benefit alot with it. I live in a small City, and you know, Im afraid people still will talk, Im not ready for people see me as the alcoholic. Its said that whats in AA, stay in AA, but im not sure I trust it.
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I forgot to check in yesterday. Today is day 10! Yesterday I went to a trail ride/birthday party and I was so proud of myself for not drinking and actually enjoying the moment. I rode on the trailer with all the kids and they were so funny. At the party people were drinking and drunk but I hung out with the sober crew lol. I really had fun and glad I actually took in the moment instead of being wasted and not remembering much plus waking up feeling like crap.
It’s 6:00 am and I don’t know why I’m up this early when I’m off lol.
Guess I will try to go back to sleep and check in with you all later. Everyone stay strong and blessed.
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That is so good to hear and congratulations on 10 days!!! 
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Day 800 clean and sober. Up way to early for the time I need to be at work this morning but it’s ok because it’s my Friday yay! I hope everyone has an amazing day today I’m so proud of you all AND I love you guys!!!
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Congrats on hitting the 800 club, well done 
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Congratulations on 800!
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