Good morning, and happy Sunday to everybody Iām feeling peaceful, calm & content this morning. Slept really well and had a relatively pleasant shift at work yesterday. Iāve got another two evenings of lates to come before my āweekendā which is Tuesday & Wednesday, but just like my sobriety, Iāll be taking it one shift, or one day, at a time.
I usually work Wednesdays, which has meant that I havenāt been able to get to my local meetings for about a month now. However, I have the next two Wednesdayās off, so Iām looking forward to getting back and seeing some familiar faces. I donāt know about anybody else, but since I began my sobriety journey, attending meetings allows me a safe place in order to express myself verbally without repercussions, at least when it comes to discussing addiction.
Other than that, have a fantastic day everybody. God bless, and ODAAT.
Good morning and happy sunday to you too
It has just started pouring with rain where i am in London UK.
I was going to head to a meeting thisbmorning but the rain ā¦ well im just having a relaxing morning and deciding if a swim would be good.
Im glad you will be able to get to a meeting and you have a safe place with people you know to speak freely thats so important.
Have a good sunday
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Coffee. Going to take it easy today. Not quite sure how yet but I will. And I started well by sleeping in. Sober and clean is one thing Iāll be for sure. Because there is no alternative to that. As it is for all of us here. Itās why weāre here. One day at a time.
Never going back to drinking or drugging as it would be the end of me and all I achieved since quitting. Not going to try ācontrolled drinkingā as I already lost control and I am convinced Iām not going to find it back anywhere anytime. And no idea what Iād gain by trying to either. My life is so much better without drugs and booze in it.
Have as good a Sunday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober for starters. Love form Amsterdam where we had a nice autumn day yesterday.
#Day 1495
Wow, just out of bed!
Slipt untill 9.30 and I think thatās the first time in many years! I must have been tired.
Next week I have to work much because there is nobody else to do it. I work 42 houres next week.
So today Iām going to fill my day the same way as @Mno , calm and lazy
So planned to finish my Stephen King book and taking a long bath with magnesium flakes to relax the muscles.
Picture from āmy every day treeā. Itās a tree near by and when I pass it I make a picture from it. I do so for at least a year. So you see all the seasons come by trough these pictures. My son made me a āgifā from it unfortunally the app wonāt let me share it.
Good morning everyone. Been up since 6 ive been in the garden pottering and found it so relaxing. Ive been to see my dad who was also pottering in the garden.
Just about to get cleaned up and ready for a christening today at 12.
I was apprehensive last night when I found out we were going but im good with it now thanks to you lovely people.
I hope you all have a good day. I may be checking in a lot today so please just excuse me if i get on your nerves.
The guy I ended up with 74 days ago,
keeps trying to call me. My smartphone is blocking his calls, but itās sending a message that a call was coming in.
This morning I received a message from another messenger, we didnāt use togetherā¦
So he installed it and found me there.
He is not a stalker or violentā¦
We had a shitty friendship plus thing going on with hard on.off switches. Hot and cold showers. He is diagnosed with borderline and has several addiction problems. He is very intelligent (one of the points that got me)ā¦
High educated, high functional.
He was very manipulative and switching from love bombing and nice times with deep talk and getting physical to an absolutely hard cold emotional shoulder! (i hope that is right explanation). Emotional abuse.
He was never really truly happy for me, if positive things were going on in my life. I had several drinking fallbacks with him while trying to get sober!
I am not a victim. It was my fault to get back to him so many times although he treated me so bad. I was addicted to all that drama and toxic hormones. Thatās why I am tracking this topic as one of my addictions.
I think I have to be a taff, hard girl again and immediately block the channel he opened this morning with the other messenger.
You do what is right for you. Looking from the outside and of course not knowing you that well, you are better of without him in your life. So Iād agree with your conclusion. Block all channels. And keep blocking them until he gives up. Iām diagnosed with BPD myself, black/white thinking is big with me too. Thereās no in between. Yes or no, If you want/need it to be no, let it be no all the way and make that perfectly clear. Success.
I hear you I miss snow too. I live in Bonn, if it starts to snow here everyone freaks out.
And Iām like āI miss the snow, look how beautiful everything looks! Why are yāall so upset?ā
It barely snows here
Day 6. Up really early again but at least the headache isnāt as bad. Sleep was restless with nightmares. But now Iām up enjoying a quiet morning, drinking my coffee and listening to the new Taylor Swift album. And reading here of course. Once it gets light out Iāll go for a walk. Need to try to stay busy but my depression makes it hard to do much. I struggle to do the simplest things. But thatās a whole other problem. For now my goal is to survive the day without drinking.
And a great goal it is Karen. One Day At A Time, and when needed one hour or one minute, one breath. Depressionās certainly not helped by booze. Quite the opposite. And at the very least being sober makes it possible to work on treating it. have a good sober day and enjoy your walk.
Day 22
I had an awesome night, slept well and no strange dreams Had late breakfast at 11am and now? Iām still in my PJs, snuggled up in the coziest blanket I have, slurping tea with a hot water bottle on my belly, thanks to period cramps
On sunday mornings I love to watch documentaries. I already learned a lot about trees (theyāre awesome) and ice. Now the topic is underwater caves. Beautiful! Nature truly is amazing.
The weather is meh, windy and cloudy and Iām pretty sure itās going to rain again soon. I know I should go out and move this body but right now Iām not feeling like doing that.
Hi Juli,
I think what you have recognised here are the early signs we call little red flags and its good you have recognised them early before they become destructive and cause damage to areas of your life, wether they are as you say toxic behaviours or even something that will impact your sobriety.
Personally i think from what i have read over the past that your making the right decision.
You will meet someone lovely one day that will be bring out the best in you and you in them too and where your common interests arenāt about addiction, and its a healthy relationship.
Something in you already isnt comfortable thats why you have stepped back already.
Your doing amazing
What ever you do just be safe and listen to your insitict.
You can get through this
And if you need us we are here.
I think its so nice you found yourself pottering in the garden then found your dad doing the same.
@SoberWalker I love the pictures of the tree and whole idea of taking them and looking back at all the stages.
Iām feeling peaceful, calm & content this morning. Slept really well and had a relatively pleasant shift at work yesterday. Iāve got another two evenings of lates to come before my āweekendā which is Tuesday & Wednesday, but just like my sobriety, Iāll be taking it one shift, or one day, at a time.
I miss snow too. I live in Bonn, if it starts to snow here everyone freaks out.
