Congratulations! 
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38 days. Our moldy rv is in the process of getting repaired, weāve finally gotten all of our stuff sold or in storage, and we are ensconced in an air bnb for a week. Hopefully the rv will be done by Friday. In the interim I got to spend the weekend with some friends and my husband and was offered some booze and easily turned it down. I just said āIām off the sauceā and they were like ok and moved along. I didnāt have to answer a bunch of questions or defend why I wasnāt drinking and that was nice. Now to start earning back all these surprise and vast expenditures from accidentally buying a janky rv. You donāt know what you donāt know until it smacks you in the nostrils. Ya know? 
I hope everyoneās weekend was lovely. Iāll catch up on everyoneās posts tonight. 
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Second check in on this day, I deleted most of my social media accounts bc they triggered me to much.
I did some research and for some people social media means high stress, bad sleep, anxiety, overall a bad thing. My mental health was getting worse over the last months, now I understand why.
I slept most of the day and now Iām awake (itās 2:15 am). Iāll try to get some sleep now, I know I need it.
See you tomorrow.
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Day 211
One day at a time.
Day went by fast. Wasnt very hungry. Should eat something now. But want to fall asleep.
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Day 93 check-in
Itās been a busy weekend. Had a girlsā day at an outdoor escape room/scavenger hunt type event. It was Alice In Wonderland themed and we dressed up! Sooo much fun!! (Iām Tweedle Dum standing next to Alice lol) It was so nice to have a day of fun being sober and clear-minded enough to play the game.
Ended yesterday celebrating a friendās birthday. My boyfriend and I host a lot of get-togethers for our friends and this one was one of the bigger ones weāve had. Out of about 30ish people, I was one of 3 people not drinking. I wasnāt tempted at all. I know Iām going to be at some point, just very grateful for every time that Iām not.
Tomorrow I AM going to start moving my bodyā¦.just walking in my neighborhood to start. Iāve been talking about it for 3 months now so Iām kinda over not actually doing what I say Iām going to. We have a very busy month ahead with a lot of engagements so now is a great time to throw one more thing in the mix.
Hope everyone is hanging in there and fighting to stay sober! 
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Woohooo another amazing milestone celebration!
Hope you are doing something nice and wholesome to treat yourself 
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3am insomniac check in. Havenāt had a spell for a while. First time when Iāve actually got to get up at a specific time and do stuff for the day. Gonna be a long day too. Instead of laying down nice and restfully Iāve spent the last couple of hours happily pottering about and catching up on the forum. Oops 
Been feeling in freefall a bit recently even though things are going OK. Like I kind of feel fine but have a weird undercurrent of something. I dunno maybe just anxiety. Got sooo many things I want to do but wonāt fit it all in. Lots of good stuff coming up, fun weekends and that. It means I will be dropping the ball on other things, not that I ever really feel particularly on the ball 
Just going to try and roll with it and enjoy the ride, and find acceptance for the things that will be trickier as a result.
Iāve been taking most of my supplements most days the last couple of weeks which is probably helping the energy. Been on two hour + walks and two intense dance classes this week and I donāt feel physically destroyed. This time last year I couldnāt get through a day without a nap and some days walking for more than 15 mins was difficult. Progress! Not been doing my b12 shots though. Iām guessing thatās why the insomnia 
I sometimes like to stop and think, this time five years ago when my drinking was pretty chaotic, I couldnāt have comprehended the idea of a jam packed diary with no booze. A helpful reminder that what feels impossible right now might actually feel like a totally natural and wonderful choice at some point in the future.
And on that note I am going to put my phone down and see if I can get a couple hours sleep in before I start snoozing my alarm 
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Day 42 hope yall had a wonderful weekend!
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Quick update: lifeās been a little crazy since the move, still rocking the sober life tho 
I was confident that my girls were really thriving here, but found out last week that my 10 year old daughters been being bullied. To the point that sheās either been so stressed she actually sick or so stressed that sheās very convincingly acting sick. Either way, something needs to be done. Something WILL be done. Other than thatā¦ Weāve had a few bumps here and there but nothing we canāt handle.
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WAY TO GO MIKE!!!
I am so damn proud of you, and thisā¦
Just lights up my evening.
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@KrispyMac This is so rad!!! Alice is one of my favorite stories. The books and the movies. Almost all of them lol. I love that yāall dressed up!
@Butterflymoonwoman i just read about your missed check in day. I canāt even imagine the strain and worry and exhaustion you must be going through. You and your family are in my thoughts.
@SadMemeQueen woo hoo!!! Go you!!!
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OMG there are so many milestones to celebrate itās crazyā¦
@KellyKelly congrats one 6 months
@Olivia 2 YEARS!!! WOOHOOOOO
@LAB 7 months is a long time without a drink congrats to you!
@Benwa10 way to go that first week is a killer, the first ten days were really hard for me. Stay strong.
@Axsis Congrats on 3 years, you are an inspiration.
@Sabrina80 I am celebrating your day 1 as much as I am celebrating all the other milestones, day 1 is the hardest one to get through of them all. Donāt ever stop trying.
Kevin back in Dbl Digits way to go!!!
& 5.9MagA833 congrats on quads.
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Awe thank you! I really missed it when i didnt check in. Im dealing with a cold now. I think I caught my sons cold (i have a fever n chills and headache n achy bones). His temp is still low. Praying i dont give it back to him. Thank u for ur concern and care 
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Day 3 since my last screw. Totally spaced on checking in yesterday but itās been alright for the most part. These next few days will be hard as itās around this many days when I screw up next.
Iāve going to have to be careful and avoid being alone, which sucks because I love being by myself as itās relaxing
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thank you so much. your words are a big help in why I keep pushing
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Day 52 AF
Checking in after a relaxing weekend on the water with family. It was an engagement party and turned out very nice. Of course there was plenty of people drinking but it didnāt bother me. I had a energy drink and was fine mingling with everyone. Itās starting to get easier to not want to partake in the alcoholic beverages. Although I notice Iām more concerned about the menu and find myself eating a bit more lol.
It was so nice and relaxingā¦ I even enjoyed the jacuzzi and hammock with my kids.
Canāt believe Iām going on 2 months sober. Time sure is flying by. Hereās a pic of my view this morning. Hope everyone have a blessed sober night.
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tonight will be day 215 of no self harm
went to the doctor and he finally figured out that this whole time Iāve had a sinus infection. the signs werenāt there yet so he was never positive but heās positive now. he put me on an even stronger and a longer dose of antibiotics. took the first dose today, didnāt make me sick so I hope that stays a theme while Iām at work. Iām also going to wake up a half hour earlier so I could take the antibiotic and eat and make sure I feel okay. that will give me a good hour and a half before I have to head into work.
I was actually doing pretty good today, but just a few minutes ago I got that wave of dispair I get occasionally. Iāll deal with it, I always do. Iām just sick of it. part of it might be because my dadās birthday is coming up and Iām always conflicted about that. we were supposed to celebrate and go out for dinner today but it was rescheduled for sometime this week (I canāt remember which day) I just donāt have a relationship with him outside of negativity. my mom is manipulative and my dad is violent or at bare minimum, scary. but I feel obligated to play the role of the perfect daughter and pretend that Iām enjoying his presence. since I still live with him itās probably not much of a choice, he still yells and gets mad very easily (he hasnāt hit me since I was 16) so itās not worth the hassle of showing my true feelings towards him. I also went to my grandpaās yesterday but I hung out with my friend after and so the bad feelings didnāt hit and I think they are now. I only saw my grandpa, the rest of my family didnāt care to come but that also just stung because I know my grandpa loves them. I donāt want to deal with them but my body prepares for seeing and dealing with them and I have to deal with that whether theyāre actually there or not. Iām just growing very sick of this family dynamic. Iāve been putting up with it for 20 years and every day I realize more and more how toxic each and every one of them is aside from my grandpa. it feels like even if I up and left and never spoke to them again Iāll just find another toxic situation and fall back into it. I feel like I belong in shitty situations and I donāt know how to function outside of them. I feel like thatās all I deserve even if I knew how to get out
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Amazing!!! Big congratulations to youā„ļø
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Day 15
Hi and good morning everyone from a still dark N.E of England.
Ive had a 3 day weekend and honestly I really dont feel like going to work today. It would be nice just to say No not today, Iāll see you all tomorrowā¦maybe.
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By the time Saturday comes Ive convinced myself I love my job and it aint so bad.
Knowing already that I wont be in the pub this afternoon has put a smile on my face.
Now lets get this day started.
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