Day 60
Just came home from another physical therapy appointment. My muscles are still too tight This will need weeks or months to heal I guess. But I’m on the way.
I forgot to check in yesterday because I watched the movie “Dominion”. Those of you who are vegan may know the movie and the power it has. I watched it kinda paralyzed. I needed a break after I saw a fox that was skinned alive laying on a pile of dead skinned foxes. My english isn’t good enough to really explain how this made me feel.
I tried to become a vegan years ago, some of you who know me longer may remember. It didn’t last long. Now I’ll try again. At least as much as I can.
We still consume too much, it’s not just the thing with the animals, it’s much more. This is giving me a lot to think about and what I can do.
All of this would not happen if still would drink. This only is possible with a clear mind.
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends
Stay strong
I learned a long time ago to get rid of that word “should.” Your sober 2 years and that’s great! If coming on here makes you think about drinking, your pretty smart to stay away. I’m impressed. You keep doing you. I just let my sober heart lead the way. And when it feels good, it’s the right time.
See ya when we see ya.
I am sitting in a waiting room at the doctor’s… managing not to be too anxious (so far )
And I shared a little kindness with a friend this morning while I have waited. It has made me feel good. I love bringing smiles to others.
I used to say I was working on karma, but I think it really helps me to be able to make someone feel good. To forget their problems or stress even for a minute.
I think today I will try to have a positive attitude and see if doing small good deeds will help get me all the way out of my little funk I’ve been in.
Checking in day 87! Last day of my little work break from my full time job- grateful to have had this time to recharge and kept the extra working to a minimum. Had a nice dinner with my partner for his birthday last night and had a non-alcoholic wine with dinner. It just tasted like grape juice but somehow makes dinner feel fancier haha. Looking forward to doing some cleaning and mostly relaxing today.
I definitly will share a few pics. I havent baked a cake in a while, so hope it turns out the cake topper looks pretty good so far anyway. I got the unicorn body and head done and the mane ill add on friday when im putting the cake together (just bcuz transferring the cake topper with hair may break the mane). And im sorry but i actually laughed about that song. See? Im not the only one that has issues with slow walkers lol theres even a song about it haha
It’s not quite day 8 yet (that ticks over in a few hours) but today has been super busy so I am taking some time to stop and check in now.
I pick up the keys to my flat tomorrow. I’m so looking forward to it. I don’t even know how I will react to be honest. I’m super excited to have a place to call my own and to finally start rebuilding my life. I have done a lot in the last 8 months but this feels like another great milestone.
There is so much to be positive about at the moment but I’m trying to keep on an even keel. Enjoy the good times yes but just be present for them. Be here in this moment.
I can’t remember who posted it but someone used the phrase “this too will pass” yesterday. It really struck me as a phrase that is right where I want to be. The good times will pass so enjoy them. The bad times will pass to so endure them using all the tools in my tool box and the support I have from those around me.
It also occured to me that I have spent a long time wishing I could have the mental clarity I had years ago (before two periods off work with stress related illness). But the simple fact is I can’t be who I was. I am who I am today. No more no less and I need to be ok in working within the limits I have now.
This time of year is particularly hard with the shorter colder days. Be kind to yourself. You can do it, a day at a time.
@KarenKW sending strength, withdrawal migraines are no joke, but if long-term sobriety is your goal, getting through this now could be the end of this misery @Staringupfromthewell congrats on your week good luck with your move @Fury I hope the show was everything you hoped it would be @Scorpn I’m sorry about how you’re feeling, and the ex working nearby but congrats on all your milestones sending strength @Wakikki congrats on 11 months @JDHealing congrats on 50 days @onthewagon31 enjoy your trip @Kdog sorry for your loss @Sabrina80 congrats on 60 days
842 days no alcohol.
307 days no cocaine.
I only lasted another 4hrs last night before driving into the city to buy more cigarillos. So it was 28hrs smoke-free. I’m currently at 3hrs smoke-free again, and although each time I have a fresh determination, I need to be stronger. My cessation worker either hasn’t called today or I haven’t been able to receive her call due to lack of signal. It sucks bcuz I need more help now than I’ve needed in months. I also haven’t been able to go swimming today due to waiting around for her to call.
Tomorrow is my day of travelling for my penultimate therapy session. Oh gosh, I haven’t booked train tickets! Off I go to do so now…
It is human nature to feel that way. I nurse people who drink or use themselves to the point of death over and over and think to myself…“if I can get clean why cant you” then I realise they are not ready yet and maybe never will be and that is not my burden to carry. It is me I need to take care of so I can stay sober and clean and do my best to take care of them in that very moment. You feel disgust because you yourself were once there where they are and feel ashamed for doing it. Feel the feelings, explore them, dont act on them, then let them go.
Hi guys I am checking in on Day 65 after 5 days of living hell. I got COVID and have never been so sick in my life. I have had 3 vaccines and a booster for the booster and still was seriously so unwell I ended up in hospital for breathing support. I have turned a corner today and have been taken off supplemental oxygen. I am hoping to be discharged today. One good thing is that I didnt think of drinking once the whole time! And I would have had to have gone through detox and been sick too in an isolation room had I not been sober. For that I am eternally grateful for. I have seen people in that situation and you are pretty much left to die because you are aggressive and non compliant. I am glad that was not me. I am grateful to be here today.
Morning Check in Day 290
Gooooood morning TS fam! Hope ur all well. Today has actually been a good day. I had a workout this morning. Did a before and after compasrison on my weight and wow i didnt realize there was such a difference. Really proud moment for me actually. Makes me really feel motivated to keep pushing forward.
Then i got an early bday gift from a friend That in itself really warmed my heart. Boosted my mood for sure. Wish i could take her for coffee but she lives soo far away.
I did some cleaning and finished my dreamcatcher. Played minecraft with my son. And now waiting for my work related zoom mtg for 3 hours. Ugh… so long but we get paid so thats a bonus. Alot of stuff doesnt even really need to be spoken about on the zoom but oh well lol
Then hopefully hubby comes home earlier than usual bcuz i need to go grocery shopping. Its -35°C right now here and so i dont want to take my boy out in this weather. So will wait until hubby gets home to do that.
All n all today is good! God is Good
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
I am sending you strength Karen. And be sure to take regular paracetamol with your once a day NSAID. It will work well with it but you need to take it every 4 hours for it to be effective. Acupuncture is a great tool for headaches as previously mentioned. Putting an ice packor bag of frozen peas on the back of your neck can help also. Sending you some healing hugs
Diving into Christmas decorating seemed to help yesterday’s mindset. I finished trees at my house and at my boyfriend’s. I have a day off from work tomorrow so I’m making me a fairly long “to-do” list. Hopefully that will keep my body and mind busy!
Animal abuse
This will need weeks or months to heal I guess. But I’m on the way.
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the cake topper looks pretty good so far anyway. I got the unicorn body and head done and the mane ill add on friday when im putting the cake together (just bcuz transferring the cake topper with hair may break the mane). And im sorry but i actually laughed about that song. See? Im not the only one that has issues with slow walkers lol theres even a song about it haha
but congrats on all your milestones 
Morning Check in 
That in itself really warmed my heart. Boosted my mood for sure. Wish i could take her for coffee but she lives soo far away.
