145 days free from alcohol
126 days free from toxic relationships
36 days imperfect regular eating
Waaah what a journey.
There would be so much to report!
I received at my little very natural mini house in a street where no cars are driving at all.
There were a lot of positive things happening today, for example I get to know an older couple, that asked me if they can take me with them to the other side of the island by their rented car.
I don’t have one, as I want to walk and use the bus… But its around 50 km from the airport to the other side and I would have taken bus or even taxi. That was much easier and funny,
We had a lot of fun, laughing and even changed mobile numbers
The flight had 90 minutes (!) delay…
Because a dog was missing first.
And then the plane had to be defrosted and so the captain had to wait in the line.
We were just sitting and waiting
I am totally lalalala
On Tour since 2 am, didn’t really sleep, just nap.
There was a local wine as a gift in the house,
I took it out here, on a bank on my way to the supermarket (as a gift for someone).
There i bought fresh veggies, fruits and some special goat cheese “queso fresco” and some sugarfree almond “touron”.
I have to take good care of me, it was a bit much today.
PS… I am a bit angry about my body because I am very down and tired now. But hey, that seems normal after such 24 hours. I am not superwoman. Reflection of the day!
Late Morning Check in Day 304
Hey TS fam! Hope everyone is having a good day so far!
Today has been busy. Prep work for the cupcakes i am doing as Christmas gifts next week. I am make fondant toppers/decorations and those need time to dry so they hold their shape. Im almost done with that. Started a new embroidery project today too. Didnt do much on that. My sons surgery site is healing really well. I got complimented by the nurse for the amazing job im doing keeping the area clean and well protected. Nothing much else going on. Still need to pray tho. Think ill take a break and do that. Gotta stay on top of my recovery stuff. I will take pics of my fondant toppers when im done tho too
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
A evening check in from me. Im standing strong in my sobrity I think, 1 year is close, december 30.
Last year at this time I was around 70 days and felt confident that I would stay sober but relapsed the day after christmas, spending new years eve in total anxiety.
I hope you all are doing the best and are doing good. Take care of yourself and be good to others
4 days sober its difficult but it feels good every morning i wake up, and wake up sober. I lost my gran last Thursday first time ive lost anyone that close to me and aftet having her 42yrs it broke me and unfortunately broke my sobriety. I binge drank for 2 days one on off one on…but im back sober after realising it was making me ill and my mental health worse. Im sick with greif its shit really i know i will pick up in time but man it hurts. Im determined to stay sober through the funeral and be in the moment with my family. Peace out ppl
@Faugxh thank you so fucking much for this statement I couldn’t have said it better myself. And thank you for recognizing the depth of what it is I’m going through and also seeing all the way through the surface to the true struggle of what’s going on inside of me. I don’t know how to say it better then that but I really appreciate that you can see the actual humanity in it and not just the word “suicidal”.
Thank you also for the very kind words as well, they mean a lot.
And I only have one more consecutive post allowed so I’m going to say thank you also to @Planipennia, @Mno, @Misokatsu and to @Twizzlers for being the safety line that was there no matter what every day that I was going through this. If no one knows her you should because she is an amazing person and friend to have. I’m sure I’m missing more but thank you so much for your kind words and support. Love you guys
Day 12. After almost dying in the hospital twice last year and just getting out again recently with a mild attack I am struggling. Lost everything but my life and one of my cats. Had a couple of job interviews today and after being closed off and sick while struggling off and on with addiction, I’m finding very hard to express myself or be the man I once was. Sometimes it just makes me want to say fk it. Drown myself out, but 1 = 1000 and I know where it leads. With my health I wouldn’t be surprised if I died if I ever make the mistake again. I am powerless to alcohol. Feeling anxious about the jobs but need one desperately so I can get insurance and some $$ to live on and prepare for surgery. Anyway my brains tired and unsure and I’m ranting… much love.
Well crap, that sounds like a ton of fun. Never done karaoke sober, but I know I’d rock it better now than then. Glad you are making some plans. I worry about you over the holidays (not worried about drinking) getting to have some fun and being around people that support you.
@residentevil I am so sorry for your loss. Get right back on the wagon and make sure you got support thru this hard time. Lean in on friends that can help you get thru this sober. Holding space for you as you go thru this.
Just back from a fantastic evening winter light event with the kids in the botanical gardens here. So freezing but so beautiful. We got some hot chocolate and I took loads of photos.
Work on the new kitchen is going well and I’m coping well with the upheaval in the flat. I can feel the girl guide of my youth coming to the fore!
I’m especially appreciative at this time of the year that I no longer drink because from my late brother’s birthday in early December through to my birthday in early February the entire season would be the whole family on something of a bender. My parents are not going to visit over Christmas and a big part of that is that I’m not drinking (although it’s never stated) and I’m fine with that.
That was much easier and funny,
Late Morning Check in 
