Evening Check In
Day 335 substance free
Day 2 binge free
Sorry about this being long 
But today has been really up n down. I ended up staying home from work bcuz i needed a break, a mental health day so to speak. Morning wasnt the greatest. Got into a mild argument with hubby about how ive been ādifferentā lately. He doesnt really unferstand my mental health issue (BPD) and doesnt understand that even tho i take my meds everyday, i can still at times be āoffā. It can take alot for me somedays to challenge my thinking. The daily stressors (which he understands) and the fact that im working SO hard on my recovery (which he doesnt understand bcuz hes not an actual addict), is alot of work for me at times. Anywayā¦ the positive to this was that we actually spoke to one another. Not yelled at each other with him walking away mid conversation (which I hate). We actually talked. Then i went to work out. Came upstairs and thanked him for chatting with me and expressing himself. Turns out he was worried that i was using bcuz ive been ādifferentā lately. I promised him i wasnt and that I take pride in my recovery. I have been exhausted and stressed and anxious over various things. I rarely have any time for self care lately, no peace amd quiet, trying to look after all my home duties, my medical kiddo, and somehow manage to take care of me all at the same time, while working at a location that i dont want to be in. Things will be different when my son goes back to school on monday as ill have a bit of time for me and more time to focus on other tasks that dont get done often. And then he came up to me and apologized. I did too. And we hugged and i commented on how things have been much better since weve been clean. This was actually our 1st argument in 11 months. So generally speaking things have been good!
I did laundry and ran an errand. Have prayed but will pray again. I might try to fit in a meditation later, maybe while showering so i dont get interuppted. Have eaten well thankfully. Stayed clean and sober. Just wish i felt more rested. Hopefully ill get some good sleep tonight. Hugs TS fam
Why dont we have a saturday thread?
I was going to post the same! 
Just checkin in. Had a fun night. Went ice skating with my youngest (shes been going with me for 3 years now) but, this time i got my son to go too! I think i got em hooked! Picture aint great my youngest is sitting across the ice waiting for the zamboni to finish.
tonight will be day 319 of no self harm. TW for mentions of weed
itās been almost 2 weeks since I checked in.
Iām going to be honest and share the reason why I havenāt been checking in. two weeks ago I started trying marijuana edibles. I am being very careful and only doing it once a week and this is the only drug Iāve ever tried. itās really crazy how I can have a clear mind and just think without intrusive thoughts. I only do it after I come home from my grandpaās on Saturdays.
I donāt think that itās a bad thing for me but I felt guilty and ashamed because Iām over here on the sober forums while using weed. Iām also terrified of becoming addicted so I donāt know how I feel about being on here now. I donāt think that itās a bad thing for me but I feel like I donāt belong on here now. I know itās irrational and that most of you probably donāt care and donāt think itās a big deal but Iām just terrified of becoming my family I guess.
Iāve been doing okay work has been stressful but nothing big. all the kids are getting sick at work and today I have felt extremely sick and havenāt felt the sick in a long time but I donāt have a fever I just feel extremely weak and dizzy. honestly a lot of it is probably because of my eating. Iām eating about a meal a day but then I pretty much eat nothing the rest of the day.
If you joined to quit self-harm and deal with disordered eating, then Iād say stick to talking about that and not your marijuana use.
I do question why you would start edibles, reading some of the stories on here. However, you have your own journey to travel and your life is your own.
There are people on here who smoke and drink coffee (me). Those are both mood changers. There are also many who use marijuana as a way to mitigate their other vice cravings. So, you do you, Megan. I think people would get irritated, unhappy, or unaccepting if you glorify your use in anyway.
If an alcohol normie with a coke problem came on here to be clean from coke, but still drank, as long as they didnāt boast or talk about it, I wouldnāt care. Many of the PMO/SA folks donāt abstain from alcohol. Just be respectful of other people.
So a guy from my past is texting me out of the blue years later like ive been haunting him. Ive ignored him up to now but now hes saying he has naked pics and video of me. Im horrified.
I started taking them in hopes that they would stop nightmares. they didnāt but I think they help with overall mood
Lovely. That sucks.
thatās awful Iām so sorry. Iāve been there I know that fear. there is really nothing I can say to help with that, but I hope he is bluffing. if he isnāt, this can be moved on from. i had mine shared and it felt like the end of the world but people moved on pretty quickly
Can you just block him? Thatās awful!
I should but some sick part of me is curious what he will say or do
Checking in on day 582, friends. I wish you a lovely weekend.
That is harassment and you could contact an attorney or the police if you want strike back in a way that counts.
He is a sick piece of shit and I hope karma skullfucks him nice and good.
Sorry you are dealing with thisā¦
Day 2133-
Itās a few months shy of a year since my last check in. Time flies when you are living your life, I guess.
Things are awesome, friends.
Trying to help a friend clean herself up a bit and it got me thinking about where I was almost 6 years ago, when I finally decided it was time to clean myself up.
Which brought me here, where my sobriety journey really started. I just wanted to come by and take a look around and see how everyone is doing. 
I like seeing how many of you are still here, fighting the good fight. I hope some of the newer members can find as much help here as I found when I really needed it.
Every time I pop back on I promise to check in more often, but Iām terrible at keeping up with the social media accounts. So, I wonāt lie and say Iāll be all over here giving advice. Itās just nice to come and see how people are doing. 
Day 2, almost day 3. Went to a place specifically for dancing for the first time ever. I hated every minute of it, which is why I have to go again next week
I searched for one yesterday 
So sorry for thatā¦ I agree with @SoberGuyUSA
That would be a great step against asshole like that! Hope you found away how to deal with it!
Big hug 
Checking in 8am here.
6 days sober.
Going to the football today which is a massive trigger.
Still not going to drink.