Yeah i was 3 yrs end of Dec. Ty. xxx
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Ah so I left out some well earned days 
Congratulations 
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Checking in day 134! Off today- did some laundry and got to the gym. Iām going to nap to catch up
In some rest and get out for a walk. I also made a playlist to keep me motivated for ending the relationship with my partner since I tend to back down, even from things I know I need because I canāt handle hurting people. I also need to figure out how and when since heās in rehab right now- feels most respectful to wait until after but Iām also scared of losing the steam. I will talk with my therapist about it this week.
Sorry for the mini rant, itās just on my mind a lot. I hope you all have an amazing sober Monday!
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Day 140ā¦my daughter just whispered in my earā¦i love you beautiful mammaā¦
priceless
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It does get easier ā¦ eventually. The eventually point is different for each of us. And yes, the early days suck but so do other days from time to time too. They just do. I reminded myself that if I didnāt (fill in the blank addiction) I would never have to redo those first 7 days ā¦ the first 3 weeks ā¦ the first 90 days, etc. ever again. So I kept my focus ahead and kept going. I believed it would get better ā¦ eventually. It does. Itās doable. YOU can do it too. Just keep moving ahead.
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Omg!!! I must have missed ur 3 years!!! Im sooo sorry! I hope its still okay to congratulate you girl 
sooo very proud of you 
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Awe i love this!! A beautiful gift of recovery thats for sure
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That storry you wrote about last time was very impressive to meā¦ But I didnāt find the right words. Dreams are a interesting mystical thing. Good idea with the notebook.
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Thatās okay, I wouldnāt find the right words too 
For most people this stuff is hella freaky and I can understand that 
I was sitting on my bed staring into nothingness for like 5 minutes after googling.
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Congrats on your daughter 
That is one heck of a motivator for your sobriety. I wish I couldāve made a change when mine was young.
It definitely has not been an easy road and a struggle for over two decades. I still have my low points, but this time is different in that Iām making sure to acknowledge how I feel, what caused me to feel that way, & then try every tool possible to turn it around. I think I just got caught in a mental cycle where I would drink because 
was shitty, thinking well at least it makes me feel better for the moment. Reality is that it only made things worse because I hide behind drinking, not dealing with issues, for them only to return again and again. And then the guilt & shame.
Iām behind you 1000% and I know you can do this! Like you said never give up. I have failed many many times, but I would be way worse off if I quit caring and trying to be better. We can do this. One day at a time.
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Utrecht looks really stunning and peaceful:)
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Had a day today and really needed answers, was instructed ānot to engage an angry spirit with an angry spirit.ā After praying on it 
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Congratulations!!!
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Iām glad you got to have your grandbaby and that it helped 
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3 years is amazing! Thanks for being here. Thanks for caring and sharing and being an inspiration to others
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Checking in to make sure Iām still sane. 
Insanity at work.
Want to act out get pissed drunk scream at the wife and kidsā¦
But Iām not going to. Because Iām powerless. So I surrender to the flow and stay grateful.
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Checking in on day 584. Finally took down the Christmas tree and decorations today. Also procrastinating with work. 
That is my talent. 
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Checking in 190 days AF! Just hit my 6 months recently and it feels good. Iāve been on here less because i have in general been on my phone less. Still love yāall and glad i can check in when i need it 
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Evening Check In
Day 337 substance free
Day 4 binge free
Evening everyone! Really, really good day today. I feel a sense of peace and accomplishment. I had an amazing workout this morning, ran errands, cleaned up the apartment, did a 20 min meditation, prayed, worked on a hobby, and even included a little quiet time in there. Eating has been good! I seem to have lost the craving for sugar which is fabulous! It wasnt an issue today to walk past the cookie aisle at the store. Doesnt even appeal to me anymore. The feeling i get when i work out just sets my whole day on the right foot. My son really enjoyed school today (1st day back). Im working thru my nervousness about him getting sick at school as practically any illness sends us to the hospital for a 3 or 4 day stay. But im focusing on faith and action. Not much else to report. Hubby and I have been binge watching the game show The Circle on netflix. Its really good. Hope everyone is having a good night!
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Day 4 and itās been a good day so far. I hung out with my friends and played some fun games. Tomorrow itās back to the grindstone but itāll be good for me
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