@Cjp @Mali
Thank you both for ur kind responses. I appreciate that!! 
Hope u both are doing well!
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Day 33. Trying to enjoy my last two afternoons off before going back to work Monday. But feel like Iām getting a cold again. Iām worried about going back to work and the increased stress again. Not that itās a stressful job. Just responsibility. Iām easing back with part time while continuing the IOP a bit longer. Itās been a life saver. I canāt believe I joined this app back in November of 2021 and itās taken til now to get to a month sober. This finally feels different since Iām not trying to do it alone. It was one of the hardest things Iāve done to admit I needed help to quit drinking. Very humbling.
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Checking in day 8 and looking forward to my third SA meeting tonight. At the last one I met someone who works in the same industry as me (renovation); weāre both contractors. I met other people too - there were lots of interesting folks there - and we talked about life and family and day-to-day stuff and all kinds of things. Itās nice to be able to talk about those things with people who are working through the same recovery challenges and opportunities as I am.
@CATMANCAM you showed tremendous courage; itās always one moment at a time and the effort to do that, one moment at a time, one healthy imperfection at a time, is a deep, human courage
@Mali congratulations on three months!
Welcome @GenG 
@Butterflymoonwoman It sounds like youāve been caught in a bit of a current of time and emotion, you know like when a river gets narrower or shallower at a certain point and the current speeds up, the water gets bubbly and splashy, and everything gets a little turbulent? (Like white water rafting, or if youāve ever done canoeing itās like that too, canoeing through rapids) That milestone has a bit of that āconcentratingā effect: the same amount of water - the same amount of emotion - is being concentrated through a tight, specific point in time (the milestone: one day in time becomes a channel for emotion thatās normally spread across weeks and months). Itās a weird feeling and it sounds like itās kinda creating some emotional storm clouds for you 
Im sorry to hear that, I know itās hard 
Keep sharing and have faith. Youāve got the right idea 
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Day 131
The last 2 days have been hard to digest, the unbelievable horror that happened in Turkey and Syria is a big topic at work. Some of my coworkers have family down there. All are safe 
The life you know can be over at any moment. If you love someone, tell them. Enjoy every moment to the fullest. Appreciate everything you have, be kind to one another. In the end weāre all the same blood.
Thatās all for today 
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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You are doing great with all the things you did todayā¦ But this thing and the candles seem to me like the most important thing you have done today! Great job. Big hug my friend 
You inspire me to make my checkin in a similar form today.
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Thank you Sabrina!
Nothing to add to!
Love 
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Wow!! U are doing amazing work friend. U definitly showed those demons whose boss 
Lots of hard work happened today. Proud of you!
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Day 17
Checkin
Free from my problematic things!
Inspired by @CATMANCAM I will post my day as a list today.
- had morning meditation
and short yoga strech - read one site of dharma recovery
- ate 3 healthy meals
- drank a lot of water
- had my zeolith and psyllium husks
- did a good job with several video calls
- took care of my dad
- oiled the windows and doors of my house
- started doing the tax bill
- threw away the paper trash
- made an appointment with a handyman for a quote on painting walls and laying a floor
- had a long warm shower with candle on before yoga
- had 90 minute intermediate yoga that was challenging but also good
And I agreed to a date with a guy, that is just kind, calm and seems to be very safe contact.
I was struggling first, as I felt a bit bored.
But I pointed out that maybe my drama and toxic hormones addiction crashed in!
And so he is getting a chance.
We will c how things are going.
Much loveā¦ may you all have love and gratefulness in your heart!
And if you have, send it out, world needs us!
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Thank you so much Matt! I appreciate what u said. Ya it definitly feels like white water rafting. The last time i physically did that (which was many years ago with a much milder form of white water), we lost control of the inflatable boat, it steered off to the side of the river where there was an overturned tree sticking out. I smoked my head on it as everything was happening so fast. I fell over the edge of the boat and woke up in the water many, many meters away. Swam over to the edge to cling to the rocks as help came to pull me out. One of the scariest experiences of my life as a young person. Hence why i have a fear of that kind of water. Anywayā¦ yes, this milestone does kind of feel like my experience of white water rafting. Tons of emptions, some nervousness, its scary but exciting, just lots happening at once. But my faith in my HP and staying connected to u all is what will help me past this. Im trying to view it as just another day (which it is), but ya theres alot of emotion tied to it.
On another note, i am so proud of u for ur SA mtgs. So grateful that they are helping u and giving u the extra support u need
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Checking in on day 285.
Feeling angry towards my parents who are visiting but I can notice that I do not have any urge to drink whatsoever. I can see how I would have been able to ignore their poor behaviour by getting drunk prior but I know that would only have pushed down my normal and natural feelings to my own detriment.
Iām about to go to sleep so Iāll do a meditation first.
ODAAT
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Iāve noticed that I had such a bad sleep routine and I am starting to really not like myself because I go to bed at midnight but then I wake up at two in the afternoon the next day Iām hoping everything will change once I get put on my correct medication But Iām proud for how many days that I have and thank you for your reply. I really appreciate it.
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Checking in on day 88
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Checking in day 158! Had a great time hanging out with my friend last night. Today I had therapy, got to the gym, and now am at work. Hoping to get on top of some work I fell a little behind on. Hope youāre all having a great sober Thursday!
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Way to go on 24 hours! Another day in the right direction
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You were quite productive today! Glad to see things moving in the right direction hope all goes well with the new person in ur life
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Evening Check In
Day 361
Just checking in. Day is coming to an end and im grateful that i am going to bed clean and sober. Its been a hard day honestly. In some ways its been better and in other ways its been hard. But tmrw is full of new opportunities.
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Yes!! Love this post and your insights. You bring so much to this community
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Hi all
Today marks 1 month, 9 days + 15 hours of mindful & responsible living for meā¦ Odaat
What is my plan for the rest of today?
- Cooking some nice & healthy food
- Meditating
- Work
- Waking up early tomorrow!
Keep your head up, breathe, focus, maybe even smile, youāve got thisā¦! Effort + time = success 
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Tucked away somewhere in the center of Amsterdam is this old menās home which is now part of the University of Amsterdam. I went to class here in the 1980ās. Without much inspiration and success, I rather hung around the coffeeshops and smoked joints.
@CATMANCAM Proud of you friend. Excellent work. Keep going.
@1in8billion Good to see you and congrats on your days!
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