343 day check in 
Up early today on my WFH day. I have a big productive day of positive news for my clients and letter writing to my vets to deliver the good news. Itās going to be a good day.
Iām up early to kick it off with some exercise and Iām feeling a bit better today. Sleep has been a tad better, and work has given me some good feelings of accomplishment. Iām kicking some big goals and getting a large amount of work done, as well as helping my coworkers a lot too. I can see my progress is taking leaps and bounds. Especially when Iām able to offer help and support for people in my team that are learning at the same pace as me. So Iām really stoked about that!!
Have a wonderful day everyone 
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Thank you.
Bed time now, sober and looking forward to being clear headed in the morning.
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day 170 AF
Was up at 3am having a spew nearly didnt make it to work today, untidy dreams of drinking again lately to, just tend to pay them no mind now. Affecting me alot less.
Hope eveyone is well and heres to another day sober!
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Wow, so many awesome sober days! I am inspired and hope I can also reach triple digits, or even over 1000 as Iāve seen posted. For now I will remain focused on one day at a time and so happy to be sober.
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Day 1 (again)
Got my tax refund. Had the presence of mind to give half of it to my landlord before the party startedā¦
Good news though; Iāve been approved for SSI. I have to have a payee (someone who handles my money). Given my lack of self-restraint, itās not a bad idea. Theyāre backdating my case to March 2021 If that much money was in my hands at once, Iād die. So for now Iām just drinking water and staying busy. 
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I remember your post right when you got your refund and this was something you were worried about, yet it appears you took no steps to prevent it. Iām going to ask you a question that I think you seriously need to consider.
Do you actually want to quit drinking?
Itās okay to say no, when I first tried to get sober I wasnāt ready either. Many of us arenāt really.
But youāve been on this forum a long time and your relapses are pretty easy to spot long before they happen. If things are going absolutely perfect in your life you seem to stay off the bottle, but the second anything goes slightly amiss you immediately run to the booze.
Hereās the thing, if you worked on your sobriety during those easy periods youād actually have some tools to help you stop a relapse before it happens. Instead you just go along like things are never going to go wrong again, but everyone knows shit happens. Maybe next time you can be prepared when they do
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Thoughtful question. A good answer would be: āNo. I want to be able to stop after one or twoā. After a couple drinks life doesnāt seem so āchallengingā, for lack of a better word. Fortunately with SSI I will be able to get a therapist and deal wish issues (like self-esteem and general fear of being an adult).
This may not apply to everyone -some people just love to drink- but I really think dealing with problems with not be just helpful, but necessary.
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You answered honestly, which is more than most people would do.
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Day 72 and happy and appreciative for each one of those days 
wishing you all a good day
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Happy Tuesday! The moon is huge here tonight 8n Chicago. Looks awesome. Have a great night all.
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You are not alone. I donāt think anyone is judging. Just here to support.
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Just checking in. Health not so good todayā¦but still soberš
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I was wondering: do you solely work from home?
I had to work from home for 4 months during the frist lockdown and it let me into a deep depressive episode which let to many unpleasant events. What I want to say is that being in contact with people in real life helps me a lot to stabilize my mood. Like yours apparently improved a lot by the presence of your sister.
Congratulations on your 2 months in some hours 
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Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Canāt wait to see this sight, it would mean my weekend has started. Well, work first. 2 Out of 6 colleagues just called in sick. And logistics invited 2 more new patients than we have place for. But Iāll make it through to the end of my shift.
And then weāre having a āborrelā (drinks) after work, which once used to be an occasion for me to get totally shitfaced paid for by my employer. Never again and no fear of me relapsing today. Just not sure Iām looking forward to it. I might just want to get home and on the couch. x
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It has been a good week. Lots of hiking, and golfing, and planning for a visit from my sons.
Getting those one-week-in body discomforts. Horrid insomnia last night. But, not going to drink my way to dreams tonight.
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day 371 of no self harm
my last post I mentioned that I was afraid I was going to be fired. so far nobody has said anything or even confronted me about the video. Iām still really frustrated with how much is changing at work and it feels like everybodyās against me right now. everything is just changing so fast and now we have a new director along with a previous supervisor being promoted to assistant director and they aretotally changing how we run.theyre expecting us to just go along with it and know what to do right away when everything weāve been taught is flipped.
I have absolutely no planning time for lessons anymore because they told me I canāt have my laptop out during nap which is the only time Iāve been allowed to have it out before. I only get paid $15 an hour so itās not worth me burning myself out even more and doing my lesson plans at home. and it doesnāt even seem to matter if I lessen plan because for the last two or three weeks theyāve been having me be afloat and covering lunches and Iām almost never in my classroom. I asked today and they did clarify that I am still a lead teacher. but at this point Iām going to have to say something because I am stressing myself out with these lesson plans and thereās no point if Iām not going to be in there. if things are not back to normal next week with me being in my classroom Iām going to ask about it. we have a few people out this week so Iāll hope that itās just because of that.
I have to write an incident report every time a kid gets hurt. I had 17 today. someone in management who I previously was fond of, told me that I should not have this many because there are two teachers. well itās a room full of 18 kids. that is nowhere near enough people to keep an eye on everybody especially with how many children we have with behavioral issues.
that same person who I used to be fond of would have offered me a ride home many times before she got the assistant director position. today my ride was not here yet and she just had me wait inside in the dark since we were closed.
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Approaching 150 days /5 months clean in a little over a day.
This last five months has felt like a lifetime of change.
I dont mean this in a bad way. I mean, 5 months ago, I was addicted, and not being a good person (in my eyes) not being the mother my children deserve, sleeping all day or going to work without having slept at all, and spending all of my free time and money on getting high.
Now, though I do still have problems, because, of course, lifeā¦
I am spending more time with my kids. Saving money, paying down debt, being a better person and motherā¦ Itās like a lifetime of change.
I have been having a hard time in my relationship, but i think it is because I am sober and have a clear mind of what is right and wrong. So even that is a blessing.
I never could have made it this far without all of you.
I love yāall
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341 days sober. Ive had asthma all day for a week nowā¦its making me tired and feeling heavy. Hopefully its over soon.
I have felt like drinking recently, prob coz im clean and sober from everything now so have nothing but myself to fall back on. Anyways we continueā¦
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Hanging on to lingering hope for being a moderate drinker will drive you mad. You are hoping to fly, or shit gold, or whatever impossible thing you can imagine. Accepting that really is the first step. Not drinking a certain few liquids is not so bad. Remember that issues such as mental health are actually better dealt with sober. Alcohol is very much a false friend. Things may feel easier, but in fact that just keeps you stuck. Being sober, does leave you feeling your feelings, but it gives you the time, energy and clarity to work on your issues.
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