Today, I spent a lovely day with my husband. We walked on the beach and then went out to dinner. It was nice just catching up with each other and spending quality time together. I’m just… feeling happy and lovey dovey right now. Days like this remind me why I’m sober.
This is my second day sober and when i woke up today i still felt bad which i completely expected but i got myself out of bed and into the shower and that helped my mood and me physically so much which suprised me lmao.
But ive been lost as to what to do bc all i used to do was smoke 24/7 and lay here, but i sat and thought for a while and i decided to do some stuff i used to do b4 smoking like watching a good tv show or going for a run so i did that. I started whatching stranger things again and it helps distract me from the urge to light one up so thats good i think and the run cleared my mind a lot so i might start doing rhat daily and working out too.
I even failed when I was attending a recovery service, I managed to justify having a couple here and there. And I thought I was stable, until the service stopped, then I fell even deeper into the mire.
But when I went to my first meeting and actually said out loud that I am an alcoholic, it does seem like a switch flipped in my head.
I still get tempted, but I seem to be able to cope with it for now.
I did mention I was potentially going to be exposed to risk because I have had an invoice paid. I was scared I would convince myself that a little celebration would be allowed. Anyhow, that is not going to be an issue, because I spent the bloody lot on a car… So I have something nice to show for it, not a list of regrets and feeling sh!t
Im doing better!! I just drove to target cvs pharmacy. I had not driven in a number of weeks. Found out i have a cracked windshield…but cant sweat that.
Good job @Jaythe1 the key for me in the first two weeks was distraction from the cravings. Good for you to pick up running! You’ll see the benefits if you stick with it. Just like sobriety
Picture made during the walk home in the evening.
The movie was good, especially for a horror movie
Today? Work and tonight my goldsmith class, hope to finish my spinnerring.
Have a good sober/clean day all of you!
Hey All Sober Family
Checking in Day 67AF
Been through too much chaos in my life to even think about “drinking like a gentleman” plus all the good warnings Iwe read here helps solidify my resolve.
I do have one Kombucha after motorcycle rides but hasn’t been a trigger for me to jeprodise my sobriety and my life.
Keeping fit at workplace is a bonus loading and unloading van . Soon to be 56 yo and exercise keeps me young at heart
Let’s get us some endorphins
*Love Unlimited Absolute
Wet Friday, two therapy sessions -individual and group- to attend to. Don’t feel like it too much. Well OK. All for a good cause yes. A better life for example. X
Pic is to remind me that it’s spring and good weather excists. Like the day before yesterday it did.
I feel like a fraud posting here because I’m so early on in my sobriety. I am so happy for everyone here When I say I wind up drinking due to stress I feel like a very selfish person, given what I’ve been reading about you all. My problems are dwarfed by some of the trials you’ve all been going through. I commend the strength you have, to be able to see past the pain, and having the wisdom to know that drinking or using will not make things any better.
Day 5-6 are my hardest days, and in a couple of hours I’ll be on day five. So I am checking in here for accountability. I drank for a year after having one year and one month off sober. I went on vacation and fell into the ‘im sure I can moderate now’ trap. I know I have it in me to do this again, I just need to learn how to cope with stress without drinking. It’s a massive trigger for me, and it blinds me. I can’t remember or apply my own advice to others when in a moment of high stress.
Here’s hoping I pass today and tomorrow with no issues