I am sober.
I will give sports a try on Thursday with yoga and Friday with swimming. The other days I will just walk a little.
I had to miss the lifeguard training today, but they give me another appointment for the final exam that I need for the certificate.
As it was so much fun I am thinking about next goals to take that have to do with watersports. Would love to try stand-up paddling.
And I could still do the gold lifeguard certificateā¦ German policeman and women only need bronce
I will have silver soon. We had a policeman in the training that was not able to dive streight in the right direction. Poor guy.
I ate Omlette with sweet potatao and feta, that was nice. And I did some online shopping, as i need a few things for upcoming spring. Will reset the online shopping tracker in 2 weeks or so. As some of you might know, I am doing these āno online shoppingā to reduce stress.
Id say yes. I used to chew tobacco, a lot of it. Went to Europe as an undergrad, assuming there would be chewing tobacco and there wasnt. Once the substance was not an option and there was zero possibility of planning/scheming to acquire the addictive substance my brain accepted the reality and the addiction went poof.
@Sunny11 I am praying for your mother and you, that your motherās help will get better in the end . @GenG itās so odd to only go empty the glass once a month instead of every third day! @K_smile congrats on more than 70 days @SadMemeQueen that sounds not too good, I hope your gallstones wonāt get worse and that the removal is going to be quick. Is there a possibility to join a support group for people with eating disorders? @Juli1 congrats on more than one week, nearly 2 weeks now @Sabrina80 congrats on hitting the 200 days mark! @Fury that really looks painful! Wishing you a quick recovery
Checking in on day 118. Just a regular working day, with a nice training session in the gym. Take care and stay sober, friends
nothing really in my area, and ARFID is especially hard to find support for. the one support group I found that I donāt need a specific time insurance is $30 a month
62 days alcohol free. I am not doing very well. The last two weeks especially I can see how diseased my thinking is and it leads me to be almost constantly disappointed, angry, or sad. I know what Iām supposed to do and feel, ālive and let liveā, I cannot do that. I see and experience situations that are heartbreaking or unfair and I feel helpless. Iāve talked a lot about the toxic job Iām stuck in, and there is a situation at my wifeās work that is driving me crazy and I have zero control over. I do not feel healthyā¦ yes it has been nice waking up not hungover but my IBS has regressed, Iām tired constantly and get headaches now every few days, my eyelid twitches frequently, I donāt feel like Iām losing any weight actually the opposite (replacing booze with junk food).
I know logically that the way Iām thinking and feeling is going to most likely lead me back to some kind of search for escape and numbness. Iāve tried to share wisdom Iāve picked up along the way on this app to help others who are struggling, but somehow I canāt translate that to myself. The new behaviors Iāve adopted are slipping away one by one because Iām overcome with exhaustion and frustration. I thought things would be better by now but theyāre just notā¦ itās still just my life without alcohol. Im sorry. I appreciate all of you sharing your journeys, ultimately I think youāre just stronger than I am.
Welcome to the forum, amd congrats on your first 5 days sober/clean. Read around as much as you can on here, there are so many inspiring stories. Looking forward to seeing you around.
Hi guys- checking in with 391 days
Just reading and catching up here. Its great to hear all your sober days.
Itās the end of the school holidays here, itās been a busy and nice reset spending some time at home and some time away from the hustle of the big city. Itās the opposite to most of you here, the days are getting colder, wetter, no spring bloom. We are getting rugged up and making soups. I really needed that time to reset on my break. Last week I was officially signed off of my 5 month training and probation at work and got my title of official decision maker for the government which is pretty cool. Also, turns out Iām really great at the job, and I get to help people. Itās been really challenging and fulfilling. I finally have a job that I enjoy, and helps people.
Looking back on the choices I had to make, to get out of hospitality, away from the party life, Iām so glad I did. I hated my job, that life was exhausting and I had to make some scary choices to get away from it but it was worth it. Big love guys
Catmama23ā¦well congrats on 62 days sober. Having said that, i really understand what you are saying. I sure donāt have the answer. For meā¦i keep trying to have faith that better days are ahead. I sit home alone with my dog alot. Sober living is better i believeā¦but now i also need to stay sober for my health.
Iām sorry that you are not doing well - Going sober is hard enough but even worse when you donāt see results like get rid of your IBS, headaches and losing weight. Donāt let this discourage you. Our bodies heal in different stages.
I myself am 124 days af and found that my eye twitch stopped a few weeks ago but my hands and sometimes arms still get numb from time to time (not as often as when I was drinking). I still get headaches and not seeing a great change in weight yet but am staying positive that change will come. It is a slow process but it will come as we are giving our bodies another chance and not hindering the process with alcohol/ drugs. Just think that by relapsing, we would have to restart the healing process. The more we start and stop the clock the longer the healing will take (i think the body stops trusting that we are serious so it takes longer to come around).
I hope you stick with this journey and I that you start seeing positive results soon. Are the tools helping you any with dealing with the work situation?
Checking in day 232! Back from my trip- the work part was kind of meh, but a friend came for the weekend after and we did some great hiking and getting out to the beach which was nice. Settling in with some jet lag now but feeling ok.
Iāve gotten several comments regarding my eating disorder and it snapped me out of my denial mindset a little bit. i guess I just donāt see it as serious 99% of the time. people talk about anorexia but not ARFID.
I looked into online outpatient programs but nobody takes my insurance. and since i donāt have a license and thereās no public transportation here, my family would have to take me and everytime I bring up my good issues they make fun of it. so Iāll discuss things with my therapist but thatās as far as I can get for now
edit: spoke with a friend and they also think my eating is a serious issue. weāre discussing new things I can try and ways to introduce them. Iām going to keep in touch with them on what Iām eating as well
not going to lie I didnāt realize that I was literally starving myself until I saw the responses here. Iāve lived like this for almost 21 years without batting an eye or really considering what it was doing to my body. Iāve always seen it as oh well nothing that can be done. but if I keep this up there will not be another 21 years of life. my body is struggling and it always has been, Iām just now in a bad enough state to be aware of it
but they give me another appointment for the final exam that I need for the certificate.
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chilling gonna binge watch insidious 1-4
