Checking in sober. Still haven’t heard back about possible new job. Hopefully tomorrow. My friend who’s been staying with me (for free) finally moved out today. I have mixed feelings about that, but hoping it brings some peace. I suck at boundaries. I missed my therapy appointment today because I got a migraine with aura and didn’t want to drive like that. At least that’s a bit better after medication. It’ll be an early night.
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You have more than earned the right to feel better…
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Holy smokes friend.
That is quite a lot of shit going on for ya. It sounds like you got the priorities sorted out in your head. The first things first stuff. And what to let go. That doesn’t make it any less stressful though. I’m glad you got around to checking in and getting it all out here for us to read. And you too know we are here for ya. You are always too kind and helpful around here. I hope the hard stuff gets sorted out soon. And I love the way you look at the bright side of it all.
Big hugs friend.
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Thank you
It’s just alot of annoying things all at once, easier to deal with sober I do know that much!
I guess planning to get a shovel and deal with it head on being my first natural instinct is a good sign, I’m dealing with life and not running away from it.
1am I better try to sleep.
I will be back tomorrow after dinner as I always look forward to catching up here, hit up the gratitude thread.
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Happy birthday man!! Keep crushing it 
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@brian1965uk Scotland for the week sounds like a great time – have you gone before or your first time?
@Dan531 hope you enjoyed your birthday today – so great to know that our celebrations with on going sobriety get better and easier to navigate. 4 years of sober bdays is awesome!
@catmama23 glad you were able to talk to your manager about your work frustrations – I do hope that this helps create a healthier work environment for you. Yes love – you are just like the plant coming back to life – just need love and nourishment
@Twizzlers so good to hear from you. I’m sorry that you have so much going on all at once. I know its all needed but feel your stress as it is all happening now. I do hope you get to salvage some of your plant’s tomorrow. Wishing you the best in breathing through this. It’s good to get it out – we are here for you! Hope you had a good night’s rest.
@karenkw yeah to having your space back to yourself. It will be truly healing I’m sure. Sorry about the migraine and having to miss your appointment – I do hope you are feeling better after a night’s rest.
Checking in Thursday evening
183 days alcohol and weed free
598 days cigarette free
Not the best day as I have been dealing more with pain and itching and just frustrations all while trying to stay positive and know that this will not last. I am not meditating as much as I should so I know I need to focus on this more to help me through this time. It’s all good - just finished watching some Ted Lasso episodes and been on the jokes, meme and riddle threads to keep me busy and my mind occupied. Wishing everyone a wonderful evening - sending much love!
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Hi everyone, checking in to maintain focus. My plan for today: cleaning, exercise, healthy food & catching up with some people. My healing & growth has taken & will take time. But I have faith & feel committed… 
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Yes we do, we can’t get any new staff 
Since Covid hit it got worse everywhere.
They don’t care, I’ve seen many good workers go, they didn’t do anything to convince them to stay. Still this is no bad place to work at, I’ve seen much worse but nothing better yet. Sad.
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Happy bday!!! 
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4 days being clean from self-harm.
5 days being less amount of sugar.
Lying in my bed and chilling. Thinking about if I should go to one queer group with my friend which is now out from psych ward for few days, but… I feel my social battery is dead and as well I don’t want to meet my ex gf which likes to share about me some shit. My boyfriend is all week on filming so I will stay now by myself.
My heart wants to just peacefully sleep and hug my dogs… So I possibly just say to friend I won’t go.
I as well decided to not go on Tuesday’s school party or how it’s correctly called. I don’t care what they will think about me, because I know I’m for them just problematic and weirdo. So it’s better for me to be with myself.
I hope everyone are okay. Stay safe, have nice day.
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Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Therapy morning coming up. Have some recent stuff to talk about. Actually looking forward to going. That’s a new one. There’ll be a time I don’t need it no more but not yet. After the jump ahead in dealing with my feelings, with relationships, with life in general, now it’s time to implement these changes, consolidate and build further on them.
Progress. Not linear at all but moving steady ahead over time. One day at a time. Keep going all. We’re in this together and I’m forever grateful to all of you. Alone it’s impossible. Together we can do this. X
Pic is of the street I played in as a kid. The sycamores were still straight back then .
@Twizzlers Thanks for the update dear friend. Keep working on yourself while the work on your home and garden is done. And beyond. You got this and we got you.
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@Twizzlers I am glad you have the attitude you do, That is a lot of unexpected at once! Your sanctuary will be nice again and so nice you will have more sun! Think later season with lettuces, swiss chard and kale!
I know you will make it enchanting however it will be. Because, you, my friend, are!
Might be an umbrella or some type of screen if you need it.
Take care and it is okay to feel frustrated and overwhelmed with all this going on.
Big hugs and helping hands through the internet!
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Hi everyone, 8.25 in the morning in the u.k. day 105 for me. On a Friday I used to think I was so happy as it meant I was going to drink all weekend but now I am actually starting to feel like I am happier knowing I am not drinking today!! Strange how your brain works, obviously realise that can easily change which is why I am just concentrating on not drinking today. Also by not drinking, I am not doing drugs and gambling!! Have a good clean weekend everyone.
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Day 160.
@JazzyS Just wanted to thank you for always having a thoughtful word for me and everyone else here. You’re truly a beautiful soul. I do talk about my family stuff and traumas in more detail in my lounge thread because I like to keep some of the TMI oversharing out the main forum. 
So yesterday me and my husband went out for a meal. Everything was great (we shared a fish platter) until the very end when the server brought us two shots of local booze. It’s just something this particular restaurant does. I said none for me, thanks and the guy asked why. So I just said, ‘Because I’m in recovery, mate.’ And that was that. On our way back, my husband told me how proud he was of me and my recovery. I feel like I’m cool or something now.
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Amazing day. I forgot how uplifting Fasting could be. It is realy a strong tool. I need to implement Fasting routines again.
Got a perfect object at work. It’s near a Yacht Club.
Ahh… Nature… Fresh air. Can’t be better 
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First day back to work after taking a couple days since the blackout. My first trigger will be driving past the liquor store on my way home. I feel a lot of anxiety today.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,104. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Just out of an hour long appointment with my psychiatric nurse with a student sitting in. They really seem to know what they’re doing which is given a good feeling. I did get overwhelmed at one point and started to cry, but I almost think that was because I felt comfortable with them and could feel their genuine will to help me get better and stay better. A gym membership has been prescribed which I’m looking forward to using. I do want to get back to a healthy weight, I’m a bit over at the minute, and I’m also keen to ensure that depression doesn’t set in.
I’m just having a lovely Italian coffee in the hotel on my street ahead of collecting my daughter from the school bus. She has swimming this afternoon.
ODAAT all x
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Morning all checking in. Still out of work due to a shoulder thing, but been pretty busy with things family wise. Gotta go back and see the doc in 2 weeks, so maybe I’ll get cleared to go back then. Have good day guys
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