day 276
Actually came to work today so I didnt end up at a liqour store, i know alcohol is going to be around most of the weekend, ill be ok its only when im on my own that ill hide and drink. Once im home tonight ill be ok. Counting the hours.
Im going to get through this one way only without drinking!
Checking in
Day 493
Another busy day. Once my son got off to school i went to visit my mom at her hotel. We went for icecream later on and walked around. It was nice. There was one thing tho that snuck up on me, which i wasnt expecting. My mom needed to stop at a liquor store to purchase a bottle for a gift that she was giving to someone from her conference later tonight. I have never really had an issue with alcohol so didnt think that going inside would be an issue. But sure enough my mind even started thinking things. Thankfully i know that alcohol is also a drug and no different than any other substance. Im grateful for that rational part of my brain that can sort thru all the bs of my addictive thinking. We left and enjoyed the afternoon together. Its been alot of fun having my mom around. She left early as her confrence registration begins tonight. And im just relaxing with hubby now. Hope everyone is having an enjoyable day/evening!
Day 26ā¦
The odd craving here and there but determined not to go back.
I had a dream last night that I had a beer and then regretted it majorly.
Last night I even tipped out my non alcoholic wine because I didnāt want unnecessary calories and had water instead.
Definitely happy with the decision to stop. Dry July is nearly here and by the end of it, Iāll be 2 months sober 
Nicely doneā¦possibly think of joining in on the 100 day SOBER challenge!
Doing really good my friend-- happy for your sober time!
Hello sober warriors. Checking in on day 740. It was a beautiful summer day. Rode my bike to work and back. I made some delicious veggie fajitas for dinner. Leaving tomorrow for a family reunion on my wifeās side. Always a bit stressful, but I will be taking you all along with me in my pocket. Much love.
No sugar / sweets 
Day 3
Allowed slips /per week used 1/3 
So as talked previously I am all into detox lately. Now itās sugar time. Eliminating the artificial one completely. Fruits, honey does not count as a slip. Got this bag of Stevia and Erythritol / not using it a lot anyway. Research says it is actually have a lot of health benefits.
Got one slip already / at work people gifted us ice cream, because we helped them. I accepted gift. So situations like this, or when a relative bakes a pie or something, cheat day, rest day or overall a bad craving - 3 of those / per week is allowed. Of course it does not mean I got to use it them all / or at all.
There are many non-drug remedies.
My doctor knows, no narcotics on my profile. I have tens units and patches and stuff.
Have you tried acupressure
Look up HAND ACUPRESSURE POINTS.
I use those points all the time. Give it a shot
I can give you pointers if you want
Itās drug free. Addiction free and
By the way, free
I hope it works for you
1475
Have as good as a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean.
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Anyway. Iām doing fine. Hope yāall are too. Letās do another day sober and clean. Just for today. Because weāre worth it. 
Day 264
The training yesterday evening was awful, it was for Doctors not for us assistants. There were like 5 minutes of 2,5 hours that have been interesting, the rest: blah!
Our situation at the office gets more and more difficult. As I already said, one colleague quit and is gone. Another one wants to work like 10 hours less every week. This is something we canāt catch up any more. This will kill us.
Iām afraid that if the boss gives her plan the Go that the rest of our team will fall apart. Itās too much work for 3 who work 100% when in fact you need 6 who work 100%.
That really messes me up rn.
Going to check in again later.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
50 days Alcohol Freeš
@JazzyS Iām so glad youāve been able to laugh today 
and congrats on 6 months alcohol and weed free! 
and 2 weeks gluten-free have you noticed any benefits to your symptoms?
@nastya_is_fighting Iām so sorry about your teacher ridiculing you and if front of your class, and that the bullying is continuing, I really feel for you 
@Sabrina80 Iām sorry the online training was so stressful, and that your work depertment is under so much pressure 
I hope that your food was nice atleast š©µ
@Soberbilly thank you Billy 
Meditation is the heart of my recovery too 
@Catmama23 that really is a lot, but some helpful stuff too hopefully 
glad youāre staying focused and alert, the next right thing indeed. Sending strength for that š©µ I donāt know if youāre able to get outside to take some deep breaths at work instead of hitting your head? A quick 5min meditation or something
@icebear sending strength for the reunion š©µ
@HappyDays congrats on 50 days
1045 days no alcohol.
510 days no cocaine.
25 days no vape.
5 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in for yesterdayā¦
Yesterday I attended the online āgood mood cafĆ©ā for the first time, there were 3 attendees including myself, and 4 hosts. It was okay. They were all older women and they assumed I wouldnāt be interested in anything they were saying, but I was and I said so. I will go again.
Then I went into the city where the co-prpduction ācourseā is held. The time passed much more quickly this week, but Iām no less fatigued, mentally and physically, from being out for so long, and the return bus journey was horrendous. If there are so many people when it is time to come home after the final session next Monday, I will wait for the next bus. I also spent a lot of money whilst I was in town, before the session, because I was an hour early, and after the session on my way to the bus station. I will be returning some of the clothes, but Iāve reset my āImpulsive Spendingā counter, on day 51.
I also gave in to the ice cream van. So my sugar counter has been reset too. It caught me off-guard when Iād just got home, so I can see why I was weak, but I need to do better.
I have the dentist this morning, in 3 hours, dreading it. Trying to remember that other people have expressed similar feelings here, the night before a dentist visit, but that itās mostly turned out okay. It is somewhat reassuring so thank you.
Then this evening itās the second and final part of the online course I attended last week, not looking forward to the white noise person who doesnāt mute themselves (the facilitators do request that people mute themselves when not speaking, but this person seems to think it doesnāt apply to them).
Will check-in later on for today.
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3Practicing faith can look like praying, meditating, speaking to your higher power, etc. Putting hope into a power greater than yourself is faith.
Got this Icona gifted by one Priest, witch asked me to call him a Friend. He helped me a lot. God bless him.
3 days being clean from self-harm.
4 days being being less amount of sugar.
Morning check in.
Heyy, good morning from library! 
Iām studying medicine right now and I feel actually great and importantly safe. Right now around me arenāt so much people but I know they will be here way more after lunch. I too much know how libraries work. 
Iām still thinking if I should go to that party on Tuesday. My heart says to that no, no matter if everyone will be angry at me or noā¦ For my heart it would be way more better if I will be at library or somewhere in nature.
I hope everyone are okay. Have a nice day. 
Day 159.
Fuck, fuck, and fuck. Did I say fuck? Iām an emotional wreck right now and Iām really struggling to keep a lid on it. Iām gonna set another appointment with my therapist, some shit with my family really set me off and now Iām all over the map.
Butā¦ sober. So thereās that.
Dealing with our shit sober is how we deal with shit Amy. Good on you.
Update: I was accepted in one of schools!!! Iām so happy right now.
Keep fighting. Iām really proud of you that youāre still sober. 
Thank you! And HUGE Congratulations for your school acceptance! I know how stressed you were about it.
Youāre welcome and thank you a lot
I just called to say day 46ā¦
