I adore Midsomer Murders! I’ll have to see if there’s a new one I can watch also.
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It’s hard enough going to a funeral - I’m so sorry love.
You were there for her and that is what matters (that is what was in your power and you gave it).
I do hope that you are not even more drained now - sending you strength and love. Hopefully you do find your closure in your own way.
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I’m sorry things went as they did. I have had a similar experience for a cousin’s wife who died much too young and the family drama was outrageous. It left such an awful cloud over things afterward, but my immediate family were able to grieve together in our own way and find some solace that way. I hope you find your own solace and way forward.
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Well did my friday night grocery shopping but this time i had to go into the beer and liquor area because thats where they keep the ice. I walked closer to the area and took a deep breath. Scurried in to the ice and escaped.
It was weird being in there as i havent been in there for months but there was a healthy fear. Its as if i averted my eyes and held my breath. Made it out sober!! Then proceeded to impulse buy some snacks because why the fuck not. Im sober and im doing this thing. Rewarding good behavior and all lol
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Exactly - why the fuck not!! Do treat yourself. Glad you made it to the ice and back out without temptation. Just shows how much stronger you’ve become. Way to go lady!!! 
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Hey guys! Tonight at 1:47 I’ll be clean 8 months! I’ll be up to watch it happen! I’m pretty excited to see it. 
Today I worked only 9 hours. And I have the whole weekend off! This Never happens! Tomorrow is one of the kids birthday party (her birthday is actually Sunday) were going to celebrate at PRIDE and I’m excited to go! She said she doesn’t want her father to come, so I’m still undecided if i should tell him I’m going or not… I’ve still been pretty superficial with conversation since everything changed. I might tell him im going to work. But i hate lying 
I have until i leave to tell him or not…
And Sunday I’m bringing the big kids to visit their father, because he’s going out of town for at least a month next week, and i told him id bring them to see him before he leaves.
Still no days to relax/hang at home…but also not stressful days.
So I’m going to frame it positively 
I hope y’all had a good Friday 
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Congratulations on your 600 days and now more to come! Cute kid pics! Glad y’all are out having fun!
Hoping the 40mg will help you and you’ll get that cleared up. In the meantime, any shortness of breath, go to ER.
The Lego pics are amazing!! Thanks!
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Hello friends checking in on day 728. Man I wish I was better at sober socializing. I sometimes am in the middle of talking to someone, and my brain is like, “what the hell are you talking about.” and it just locks up, but the words keep coming out of my mouth and just sound really lame. I guess it was like that when I was drinking too, but I just didn’t care. I’m so tired of feeling awkward.
Stepped down my meds again today, which probably didn’t help the situation. Feeling ok but kind of tired and irritable. Hope everyone is doing well and has a good start to the weekend. Thanks for letting me vent.
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Checking in
Day 481
I definitly have alot of reading to catch up on lol Today was my sons birthday. We had a really fun time! Lots of playing with his new toys and just enjoying each others company. It was really fun! He also got his new bike delivered today. Hes looking forward to riding it soon 
I really wish i knew how to run. I think it would be great exercise for me and him (he could bike and i could run next to him).
Im pretty tired so will keep this short. But i just want to thank everyone on TS for being a huge support to me and for TS being here in helping me to gain the sobriety that i have. Im beyond grateful for this forum!
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Birthday wishes for your sweet boy! Exciting about the bike! There’s the ‘couch to 5k’ if you want to try running to keep up w him. Cupcakes for you all for the weekend.
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You are really an open hearted person. You see people in this world tend to live with [closed] hearts, because of ruined relationships, ruined jobs, ruined motivations, ruined this or that. You are open hearted and people feel this and this is good and this is what our world needs - more people like this. It’s healing. We don’t need to be afraid to be ourselves.
Now the girl You talked about probably has different vibrations and are closed to what I talked about. It is natural and we find our pieces naturally. I think You are one of the coolest person down here - always - ALWAYS makes me smile when I see your post You have that energy and I feel it is very POWERFUL 
dont change anything about this attitude 
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Day 147.
My anxiety is through the roof as my family is arriving to my little island safe space. I deeply regret making the invitation, this whole thing is fucking up my zen. Normally, I prefer dealing with them in controlled environments. This is not it.
I’m gonna meditate now. And try pulling myself together. It’s amazing how some people can just set me off just by thinking about it.
Spare a thought for me.
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Once they’re there and you feel the need, physically take a time out and/or mentally put your head and thoughts where they are when you meditate. Thinking about you.
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This is a controlled environment. This is a safe space. Make room to come here when needed. We got you Amy 
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Working late shifts for the weekend. It’s gonna be hot 
. I’m going to stay cool 
. I’m good. Friday therapy wasn’t as spectacular as it was last week, and my elated and elevated feelings of progress have calmed down a bit. That’s all good. Taking it one day at a time and continuing to work on myself. Enjoy your weekend all. Take care of yourself and each other X.
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Mooie koeien! Blijf altijd cool!
( Beautiful cows! Stay always cool! )
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12 days being clean from self-harm.
Good morning! I woke up already alone in my house with dogs, boyfriend has filming today as well. I had in plans to clean our house with my sister, but she’s ill, so today will be relaxing day. I will as well work on my book concept and cook something. 
Very glad there are already weekends. School can be a lot tiring, especially when you’re bullied… But next week my class somewhere drives away for holidays for whole week, so I will be with another class (because I stay, I don’t want to drive with them). Can’t wait for it, I know that class doesn’t know me so much, so maybe I will find some friends? 
I hope everyone are okay. 
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Thank you @RosaCanDo and @JazzyS The close family are really supportive so I will be fine, just need longer than I would like to process it. Midsomer Murders certainly helped Sorry you have been through similar @RosaCanDo It is always so hard anyway when someone dies younger.
@Bomdhil really pleased to read she is home and out of danger.
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Big congrats SoberMedic! Keep going one day at a time and you’ll never be stopped!
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