@Rockstar24777 Yeah to vacation —can’t wait to see your pictures. Have a blast @noshame sorry it’s been tough my friend – glad to see you playing the tape forward and realizing that you are better without your DOC @bloodshotjoker WOW – you are seriously doing so well!!! 1 day away from your 1st birthday !
OOOH that sounds amazing – I do miss my tiramisu — enjoy! I love your attitude with Nik – glad you have gained a good friend – so true that these are a rarity these days @completely Hey enjoy your day 4 – it may have occurred before but you still made it back here even after a slip. @karenkw that sucky depression rearing it’s ugly head. You have the tools you need and I know you have your therapy appointment later this week. Is it possible to make those twice a week? It seems that lately the appointments are helping you so possibly keep the positivity flowing full week? Wishing you all the best I do hope that you stay clear of the negative thought spirals.
Check you out my friend – So excited for you!! @anon15828629 Hey man that’s so awesome — way to be clear of hangovers and oooh so productive! @amy30 super happy for your turn around — glad your day is better today and hope you keep enjoying your haven @j_lo_ste wow!! 21 years is super impressive my friend – Thankyou for sharing. Congrats on your 1st week free of outbursts. Wishing you luck with this – I have found that meditation has really helped me center myself and keep me from my outbursts lately.
Damn girl – that hit home! May want to write that down and post it where you can remind yourself daily. Doing so great and we are all here for you to make sure you can stay on this path.
Hi everyone, was too tired to check in this morning. Monday morning hit hard! Doesn’t bode well for the rest of the week. Just turned 28 days, really pleased with that. Feel safer now I have got through the weekend too.
Loads going on here, life just seems so busy. Need to find better ways of staying on top of school, life admin and working. Feeling really anxious at the moment and like there is a ball to be dropped all the time (to be fair, that isn’t me overreacting, no working parent can remember every single event, deadline, request for money from the school. I am sure it has got worse in recent years).
I feel bad for only briefly catching up today. Tomorrow I will try and read more closely. Hope everyone is doing well.
Things went well today, despite a little panicky moment I had with my girlfriends phone being on Do Not Disturb. Aside from that, I got back on track after taking Sunday off and stepping out of my diet a little. I walked 5mi in the rain which was steady until the last 5-10min where I got soaked. That didn’t bother me though, and I continued my boxing right after, while it was pouring. Luckily the bag rests under my tree, so I wasn’t being bombarded with raindrops, but punch a wet bag was interesting haha! My CDL training was a success, and I successfully completed my 10mi bike ride while sprinkling out. Dinner was delicious which brings me to a question; can we have sauces with spirits in them, are they harmful? Soon I’ll begin my CDL studies, then I’ll complete my night with the gym and grocery shopping for tomorrow! Take care everyone, ODAAT, and never waiver!
Checking in Evening of Day 484
So today was good. No complaints. I decided to spend some time doing the 10th Step Nightly Inventory and already i saw some things that i didnt quite like about how i handled today. My day was fine but according to the questions asked, it wasnt that great lol. I was able to see alot of selfishness present throughout my day. Just not thinking of others as often and more so thinking about me, me, me and what I have to do. Saw some fear present and some dishonesty. Kind of feel like crap honestly now that i did it. But i dont think thats the intent of doing a Step 10 Inventory. I will focus on doing better tmrw. I guess the purpose of bringing things to light is so that these resentments, fears, and dishonest behaviours dont pile up day after day, which can impact my recovery.
Anyway, we have a new nurse for my son tonight doing a buddy shift with our PT nurse. Im slightly anxious but trying to be positive about it. Im already going to worst case scenerio (typical thinking for me) and quite honestly, she might be really good! Which means all my worrying and anxiety was for nothing.
I guess thays about it for my day. Will continue to do the step 10 inventory and focus on being more aware of when things pop up thruout my day.
Have a great night everyone!
440 days
Working from home, my daughter has a nasty flu. Feels really good to be home with her but still able to work. Very grateful for that. Got my butt to the gym to move this morning which was really hard in the cold winter. Definitely could have stayed in bed but I feel better now it’s done!
Stay sober friends, be kind to yourself x
Exactly. And think how many people don’t reflect on their day. By even starting to recognize your faults, and then move to try to reduce them, you are going a lit more than most people.
thanks to @JazzyS for thinking of me, only reason I’m checking in
still really struggling. doing better from surgery. the only pain I have is in one incision but I think it’s just normal healing pain.
i have not been doing well. I’ve very nearly self harmed more times than I can count. I’ve barely been eating. i eat every day but it’s typically something like goldfish or jello and that will be all I eat that day. i feel awful physically but I’ve lost weight and my eating disorder feels like that’s a good thng.
about a week ago I reached out on Reddit asking for support when I was in a really low mood. I met this person named Max and they were great and they seem to say all the right things and they were so supportive and we talked everyday for hours for a good week. and then one day I brought up how bad my eating disorder was getting and that I only feel happy with myself when I’m not eating and he called me delusional and told me I needed to grow up. he said that he could not talk to me if I could not grow up. he’s only 3 years older than me so it felt a little hypocritical but I ended up blocking him. that just hurt too much and it’s not like I’m going to be cured immediately so if he doesn’t want to talk to me then he’s not going to talk to me.
part of this could be due to my eating but I feel like all of my chronic pain is getting so much worse. I got my laptop to start running to work and play games again which is great but it’s only been a couple months that I haven’t played games on my laptop and now my hands hurt way worse than they did before to the point that it’s intolerable to just do typing for school. today I stood in line at an appointment for maybe about 20 minutes and it has been 4 hours and my hips still hurt so bad from that. I’m only going to be 21 but at this point I honestly think I need a cane. I talked to my mom about it and she said I just need to exercise more
Checking in with 1,352 days of recovery. I took care of a Common Eastern Bumble Bee today who could not fly. I made her a nice bedroom in a bowl with lots of flowers. She passed away & I have her in a little jewlery box for safe keeping.
Workweek starting. Heat persisting. But I seem to get used to it a bit. And the building I work in has an OK AC. Not too cold for one thing. Will make do. One day at a time as ever. And never under the illusion having “a cold yellow one” (like a very addicted guy keeps saying) would help with anything at all. Never again. X @SadMemeQueen Thanks for checking in, always good to see you here Megan. Sorry for your troubles. Eating disorders are awful. Keep coming back. You’re not alone.
Had a long day at work.
10a-11p
It’s just about 1a now and i am tired.
Feeling sad…
But I’ll be ok. Just letting the feelings come.
Tomorrow is a new day. And my big girl is going to be in the talent show! It’s also early enough that i can attend before going to work.
And i only have to work 8 hours tomorrow. Then i get a day off. Looking forward to it.
Hope everyone is having a good, sober, peaceful evening.
#Day 1728
Worked all day alone in the shop with a change of advertisement material because of new sale.
So a very busy day! Happy to have a good airconditioning, a life savior these hot days
Today? Work.
Look at this cute cars. I walked by them last sunday. You could hire one, they where many! My parents used to have one when I was young. We loved it when the weather was good enough to open up the roof. In Dutch we call them “Eend”, it means duck
Let’s add another day
Day 1724. I cried today, first time since the day my mom passed. Actually, I cried a few times today. I think her loss is starting to sink in. I keep catching myself, thinking “oh, I should tell mom about this thing that Penny said…”, then I remember, I can’t.
((((( Dan )))))) I’m sorry. It’s so hard.
You can tell her a different way, from your heart. I think she’ll hear you like fairies do. Hugs for your hurts. I’m glad you’re talking about your pain and hurt.
How I feel you! Especially with part at evening with tea. When I started to recovery from alcohol, I started to love evenings with tea and book.
I’m glad your day was fine. If something, I’m here for you.
chilling watching family guy
