Day 2. Decided a good break from alcohol is the best choice for me right now. This community has always been a comforting safe space. Happy to be back and looking forward to making positive changes.
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Day 131 and taking it one day at a time. Whatās going on team? It is been quite a while since I have been able to get on here and see how everyone is doing and share my ups/downs with the team. Work loves to keep me busy and off the grid sometimes. However, since my last visit, I am now up to 131 days of an alcohol free life. I am still on the vivitrol injections but the doc and I are now discussing winging off in the next month or so. Anxiety and depression has been as high as mount kilamanjaro at times but battled through, and motivation/will power has been as low as hell at times but found ways to climb back out. My big book definitely helped out massively during my time away from here and being able to hand write my journals was another big help. I hope all is going well for everyone and everyone had a blessed day today. I wish everyone blessings of every ounce of strength and courage to make it through another day successfully!!!
#OneDayAtATime
#IAmStrongerThanTheStruggle
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chilling watching fairy tail
Pain eased a bit today the heat is horrible 
Canāt wait to get these tests sorted out tbh
Even tro been told could takes years to find out what else is going on
Iāll say it a 1000 times if you new donāt give up your sober journey you donāt wanna get this horrible illness tro drinking I just wished I listened to all around me to pack it all up 20 years ago
Happy sober Wednesday everyone
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1,353 Days of Recovery
Today, a horrific comment from a stranger on YouTube made me tear up. I watched body cam footage of a woman who admitted to having a problem with drugs. In the end, she hopped in the car & sped away. She got into a HORRIBLE wreck when she smashed into a truck. The car was in 2 pieces. She lived. I saw a comment that said she shouldāve died in the wreck simply for being an addict. It was so evil, hateful, & detailed that it made me tear up. A person was wishing death on someone for simply being an addictā¦That comment had about 150 likes. They hate us. I know this. Iām used to them hating us, but Iāll never get used to hearing about how I deserve to die bc Iām an addict. How disgusting could a person be? And WEāRE supposed to be the bad ones???
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So excited to see 1,000 for you. 
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So, so incredibly happy to know this. 
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Wow!! Look at you. 4 days!! Great stuff.
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Go Rob!! Your handle says it all. You ARE a rock star.
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Thereās always gonna be people who donāt understand the disease and who are to ignorant to even try. Itās just get your shit together and stop drinking or using. Iāve heard people say the same about depression. Just get out of bed go to work. Itās not as easy as that. Thatās why the only people that can help addicts are other addicts. Try not to let it bother you
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A massive congratulations to you!!!
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Yes & many of them are purposefully cruel to us.
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How incredibly disgusting 
we are all someone. Someones daughter or son, sister or brother, parent, cousin, etc. We all matter no matter what weve done or where our addiction has taken us. I remember really hurtful comments being made to me bcuz i used to be a prostitute due to my addiction. That stuff stings to the core. But those people that say those things are the worst in my opinion. They must be really hurting, miserable people in real life to wish something like that on someone (like the video you explained). Hope ur day/night improves 
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TYSM. š©¶ Fellow ex sex worker here as well. We are people with beating hearts too. 
(I ran outta likes. )
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Day 
Good morning 
Actually planning to go full detox, from all alcohol / supplements / sugar / bad diet / junk food.
Still having some supplements left, they are good tho. Creatine, Citrulline Malate, HMB, Gaba. I donāt want to throw it away so maybe I will finish them first. I will not drop sugar all at once too. Everything takes time.
Itās good to take away the sugar āāitselfāā away, sometimes switch to 
Stevia & Erythritol (for example) some Honey then switch from sweets to fruits / dried fruits.
Lately started not to use oils (the yellow ones in supermarkets), only Ghee, Virgin Olive Oil and Coconut Oil. I do prefer Fish, animal fat and meat, but always try to pick from trusty sources, yet sometimes you just gotta count your money. People used to use meets for many many years, yet the meat, milk with all that antibiotics and all that roundup in fields are no longer the same and actually do harm.
Anyway, I try to avoid meat, because I actually feel bad for animals
Eat to live, Donāt live to eat.
I try to listen my body and I just donāt want all those artificial chemicals and all that stuff anymore.
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
I slept too little but if that is all Iām fine. Some people have real problems. Take care of yourself and each other. Weāre in this together. X
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Day 605 AF
Day 44? No caffeine
Sup, gang. Got behind on this thread. Itās gonna take me a minute to catch up.
Heartburn is still effin with me.The 40 mg omeprazole and antacids arenāt working. I woke up at 4am this mornin and couldnāt sleep. I went out for a long walk and made myself a smoothie. Iāve been watching a gang of YouTube vids about gastritis and acid reflux. A lot of mix info. Not sure what to eat. Iām sticking to alkaline foods and small meals. Iām also experiencing excessive burping. Tired of this. I miss my coffee, bacon burgers, flamin hots, and Dr. Pepper! I have another Doc appt this Thursday. Hope all goes well. I think itās time for that endoscopy.
Anyways, I havenāt thought about drinking. All is good with my sobriety. The wifey and the kiddos are all doing fine. Gonna take them out to an arcade tomorrow.
Hope all is well with everyone. Take care. Gnite!
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Day 100ā¦ 100!!! 
Iām going for a meal tonight with some friends, followed by theatre. I didnāt realise itāll fall on my 100 day mark when I booked the tickets. But hey, what a nice way to celebrate. Really looking forward to it.
Hope you all have a lovely sober day, sending strength and positive vibes to everyone.
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I so much feel you, I understand your feelings. Something similar happened and is happening to me, too.
My ex school hated me for being an addicted and my ex classmates there wished me to die because of me being addicted. No one of them cared that I actually screamed for help. People can be so much cruelā¦ I will never understand their cruelty. 
As well your post reminded me of one quote from Kathleen Glasgowās book Girl in Piecesā¦ āNormal people will never love us.ā
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Exactly. If it would be like that, things would be more easier, honestly.
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Congratulations Rob
3 years in your pocket, awesome sir!
And tripple digits for @HolySquid , so this picture of 
is yours too 
Congratulations!!
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